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geometry gyre

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Charlotte Greene and Lionel Maunz at Bible

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6/28/17

solo canoed for many hours in the afternoon. realized while putting in that four years ago I did this exact thing after learning of AP’s passing. the lake was misty then, water black. today a big wind, healthy clouds, brown river full with birch foam. 

2013 I did not know that I was bipolar. I accepted my episodes as something that happened to me rather than a part of how my energy flows. in the weeks prior to his death I thought of killing myself every day, almost all the time. despite how I was in the most beautiful place, in love and working with children. learning of it - stabbed in a protest - completely rocked my world. I beat myself up for wanting death when this person - one who was truly good - died far too soon. 

follow that with just barely getting my degree, manic frenzies, losing three jobs in a row, overdose scare, losing a friend to overdose, going to rehab...

and becoming an artist, waking up to the reality of my mental needs, accepting that I dont have to force myself into certain ways of life, forgiving my past abusers, trauma, codependencies. learning to love myself and flow. 

2017 I have had extraordinary success with my art so far. I’m not done learning, healing, but so so much better. 

I didn’t know Andrew well but had extraordinarily genuine interactions with him which I remember well. it is hard for me to think of this day because all I remember is the complex agony I was going through at the time and it really has nothing to do with him. 

but it feels significant now because Trump is our president and I want nothing more than to grab on to the people I love and who also imagine a future of freedom from authoritarianism, capitalism et cetera. the imperative to find solutions that bring us to a better world is all the more heightened. andrew had a mission of peace. now more than ever that is my mission also, in a different sense. I feel it as part of my need as a human being and also as a part of how and who I am - bipolar, bisexual, genderfluid, mixed race, anarcho-marxist, what the fuck ever - point is we need to carve a new channel and way of life. just do it. build something new, build it with a coalition of trust and ingenuity. 

rest in peace

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hardest day of 2017 so far

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subtweeting </3

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Air Pop - Remember

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Maasvlakte, South Holland, NL

Petra van der Ree

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Playing around. Would like to make a drawing ultimately.

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“A wildfire raging in northeastern Alberta has shut down around 233,000 barrels per day of production.” May 26, 2015

Photograph: Handout/Reuters

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“Road markings appear distorted as the asphalt starts to melt due to the high temperature in New Delhi, India.” May 28, 2015.

Photograph: Harish Tyagi/EPA 

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Agnes

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I want to be a guy, but I want to wear a lot of makeup.

Gwen Stefani (via sansartifice)

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Finished writing some code that grabs live weather data from http://openweathermap.org/ and maps wind direction, speed to the vector displacing blocks of pixels in an image.

Above is an example of the wind data from the Sahara Desert applied to an image of the desert.

https://github.com/phillipdavidstearns/aYearInCode/blob/master/p5/projects/imageGlitch/weatherDisplace.html

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Today’s Gender of the day is: No one knows (close)

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While no one wants to lose their dog, or treasured object, maybe there’s something to be gained by losing things, in the right dosage, at least. It helps toughen us, and it helps us understand the way the world actually is, which is to say, at times, really quite indifferent to our well-being.

Tim Wu on a world where nothing gets lost. (via newyorker)