Billz

Nga yawne lu oer taluna nga lu tìyawn.

[blueribbonbaby]

Fezco and Rue

[billyzballin]

Might just be a asexual lesbian 😐

[billyzballin]

So maybe I feel romantic attraction toward men (I doubt it), however all my past relationships were outcomes of my daddy issues because I ‘have to hold onto a man that gives me validation and actually likes me.’ Because all the other men in my life have dissapointed me.

[billyzballin]

“You stopped calling me Princess.” I said to my father at a very young age. It was a nickname I valued, something that made me feel loved.

“Yeah, because youve been a bad kid.” Something along those lines is how he responded. And from that moment on, I felt nothing more then a bother to everyone.

He never called me Princess again.

I always felt like there was something wrong with me.

I know now that there wasnt.

I was shamed instead of educated. I was a “problem.” Always feeling tolerated and not loved.

[billyzballin]

Now that ive realized romance isn’t what I want, it’d be cool to make some friends.. but I’m afraid of people seeing me.

[billyzballin]

So.. someone seeing you doesn’t mean you immediately have to go for that person. Unfortunately I gain romantic interest immediately due to this but as im realizing it’s never truly been what I want, I think it was just me wanted to gain romantic interest over actually doing so because of FOMO. I wasn’t seen my whole life, I’m sure you can imagine how easily this pulls me in and makes me want to hold onto that person.

[billyzballin]

Dissapointed by the people who continue to make me empty promises.

[billyzballin]

“All I wanted was you!” I say in a deafening scream from the bottom of my heart, so powerful it shakes the earth.

[billyzballin]

I love that whenever my mom thinks of her ex, instead of reaching out, she listens to the same song everytime in a way to say “fuck you.”

[enki2]

[thebdelliumlady]

For anyone wondering, the PhD student's name is Myra Cheng.

Here's a link to an article about the study from the Stanford Report: link.

[chapscher]

Across three preregistered studies, participants interacting with sycophantic AI became more convinced of their own rightness and less willing to repair relationships. Yet at the same time, participants rated sycophantic AI models as higher quality, more trustworthy, and more desirable for future use, which may explain why this behavior has persisted despite its harmful impacts.

Myra Cheng et al. "Sycophantic AI decreases prosocial intentions and promotes dependence." Science 391, eaec8352 (2026).

[stuckinapril]

[conczerningcontent]

Pride month is ending today. For me personally, this one was a label discovery rollercoaster. But it's fine. I know myself better now. I'm at peace.

[eearth-deactivated20180601]

I love taking walks in nature, zoning out. It’s nice to take a break from being a person. It’s good to let your soul get some fresh air.

[infinitelyhisgirl]

∞

[billyzballin]

how I love the sun.

[billyzballin]

And of course I get happy whenever people want to speak to me. My whole life ive felt like a burden. I guess I isolate because I can’t handle that anymore.

[billyzballin]

Realizing I don’t crave romance, but the parental love I never received.