Not yet but soon
Yesterday I saw you, I felt so alive I felt like my heart was beating so fast so much tachycardia that I didn't even realize that I was turning red thinking about you even though you're sitting on my bed. I could feel my heart just pounding and pounding. I don't know why but God has truly blessed me with you with your hands your lips your hugs the smile you give me every time you call me baby girl....is it possible to fall in love with someone in a couple months? Is this real life? As I lay next to you all I can hear is your breathing, with both of your arms wrapped around me as I cuddle into the pit of your arm as you played on your phone I just laid there thinking to myself... I could do this for the rest of my days. One day you'll wake up next to the love of your life an make pancakes an coffee an watch the kids play...my words are so light with you but so heavy. Maybe the other night I got drunk an came home at 12 I realized it's always been you. Since day one of picking on you in the hallways. The text came to you saying " i love you" and you said it back as I sat at the bottom of the stair case just smiling.. When you did it seemed so natural... Is this feeling of tightness an excitement love? Or is it lust.. Am I lusting for you? I don't think that's what it is, because we talk about the future like it's already here. As if tomorrow I say I do. Man oh man my stomach is killing me. So empty laying here wishing you were some how here again. But like you said....not yet but soon. By.smp



















