[bpdlizz]

I’m dying inside. I can’t handle this.

[bpdlizz]

I only think black and white, because I was young when I got sick. I never saw the world in color.

[bpdlizz]

[bpdlizz]

I wish I was dead.

[athenas--ashes--777]

Watching other people get your dream life, being really genuinely happy for them, but also wondering when ur time will come and what u did wrong to deserve any of this

My heart is aching

[bpdlizz]

I feel a little, a little bit like a failed. I'm watching all my friends move on with their lives, and they're all moving forward and it's like I'm stuck here standing still.

[bpdlizz]

[bpdlizz]

[bpdlizz]

Is it just me or is self hate so hard to talk about?

[bpdlizz]

It was just another trauma and now I have to handle it.

[bpdlizz]

I wish you knew how bad this shit fucked me up.

[bpdlizz]

[ufoscomeandgetmeplease]

”I cannot make you understand. I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me. I cannot even explain it to myself.“

-Franz Kafka

[bpdlizz]

[bpdlizz]

Tonight it hurts, but it’s lika a dulled pain but a pain so strong I have hard to breathe. It’s like I want to talk but I can’t, it’s like I don’t have a voice. I can’t cry, it’s stuck in my throat and I guess that’s why it’s hard to breathe.

I can think straight, but my thoughts are a mess. If you know what I mean. I sit in the cold right now, because I want to feel something else than sadness and numbness.

I don’t want to feel at all.

[bpdlizz]

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