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The forest, in a dim lighting that forewarned lazily of the impending dusk, appeared to have slipped into a deep slumber. Trees shaded the rugged mud paths, protruding roots lumping into indistinguishable masses beneath a shadow blanket. Where once slivers of sunlight had squeezed from between wide leaves to grant sweet mercy to the flow of insects below, no brightness was left but the faintest lilac shimmer of a waning day. Carved as they were, the eyes engraved into every great oak squinted. Grooves deepened into yawns; crickets chirped like a horde of mothers; flowers hid their blossoms, removing their make-up to sink finally into rest.
Lily Evans had not once - well, just about twice, or a few times, maybe, truthfully - thought she was a follower but, as matters stood, like the slowing critters and the gentling breeze, her limbs too began to leaden.
She couldn't afford to halt herself here: camp, sweet sanctuary, was but a few yards away. She could feel it. Really. In her bones! It didn't matter that their map had winded it's way away from any sensible hands. She just knew.
But the drowsy atmosphere, weighted as it was, inched its tendrils beneath the layers she'd adorned (bandana, hijab, under-cap) to her ears and whispered lullabies. In the evening haze, it was beautiful. Lily had always been weak for the beautiful things of life. The overgrown park down the road, the scarlet she'd magicked her hair and the maroon she'd dyed her hijab the muggle way, the black and white of old movies, how the air of Hogwarts effused the extraordinary property of the castle, the sprinkling of dust when she cracked open a tome that had not received its due remembrance, the even-toothed smile of-.
The even-toothed smile, she thought mulishly, of the boy behind her.
He hadn't paused as she had, his footsteps crunching the carpet of orange leaves until he came to a stop beside her. Their shoulders did not brush, but it was a close thing. Almost, Lily wished that they would have, so she could've claimed - with only the implementation of the slightest of dramatics - to herself that he'd shoulder-barged her. Then, she'd be given a reason for avoiding him as she had done. No. He was awfully, terribly, cruelly clever, and his disrespect was reflected that effect: it was telegraphed in the subtlest of smirks he directed her way.
Ya Rabb, Lily had never met anyone so infuriating as Barty Crouch Jr.
"Tired, Evans?" he cocked his head a smidge, like he wasn't very surprised, despite that she had been leading the trek. The award at the end gleaming in the eye of her mind like it would be a medal and not parchment, it's shine cut a clear path from the darkness, one which had gotten her - and subsequently her idling party - this far, and further soon.
"Not before you," she told him, and Barty chuckled lowly, a sound that was irresistibly enchanting in its ambiguity. Like the Mona Lisa's smile, like the first breath of spring in their temperamental climate, it was barely there, and Lily found her own lips chasing to mimic what her ears had glimpsed.
Lily did not hate him, for hate was an exceptionally strong word, not suited for even exceptionally empathic sixteen-year-olds, but she severely disliked this aspect of him that left her seeking for more. He was the picture of effortless, admiring fingers stroking away the colour of his polaroid and leaving him pale to her bronze, muted to her bright, dark to her deep, but no less... bold. Starker, though. Much starker. He glowed dimly, did not care for much. He returned barbs equally, occasionally worse, but always with the flavour of amusement.
She must have frowned, because his eyes lightened again, shade lifting to an attractive amber. This time, he inclined his head further, a concession, but not, "And what then? When I stop?"
Her eyes shot to his, surprised he'd consider it. Barty Crouch Jr., in her oftentimes unfortunate (she failed to even kid herself, truly, of this notion) experience, never fell short, holding himself separate to everyone else in his easy excellency. It pleased him, she theorised, to be ahead, to keep ahead, if only to annoy her, and prove himself above his peers and his like. Something in the distance, foggy, untouchable.
"I'd go ahead," Lily decided before her logic had the chance to dismiss the notion.
"Alone," he drawled, "In the woods," in a manner suggesting he knew she wouldn't, but would allow her the fantasy.
"Yes," she folded her arms across her chest, "Why would I wait for you? If you were really tired," she called him out, "you wouldn't have the energy to be a nuisance."
"Feisty," and like always, her temper suited him marvellously. He pivoted so that they stood face to face and leaned down, "And if you wanted to go on, you wouldn't have stopped to smell the roses, sweetheart."
He continued, dripping with honey, "So, I have energy. You do not. What's the solution, Evans?"
The new angle allowed her to see he'd been gesturing by the turn of his head to a small pathway branching off from their main route. It was undefined, trees impeding upon her line of sight, large and towering, their shade offering the allure of privacy past what the lowering sun ensured.
It appeared exactly as how the trail their project partners - Evan and Emmeline - had branched off on, took with the easy confidence of their ages-old relationship. Being away from their sizzling flames was probably for the best, Lily had thought and so didn't question their leaving, recalling on many an occasion walking in on the pair having at each other viciously passionately. Hypocritically, for their high statuses too, which had made her sorrily smug.
Barty had asked her, eyebrows raising, so really, taunted her, she'd say, then, if she knew what they were doing. Her ears had pinkened beneath her scarf, and she was grateful for the concealment, but the quick burning of her cheeks told her she had said her prayers too soon. Lily, unwisely - but she was supposed to be clever, no one told her strictly to act on common sense - responded to his shots.
He had mentioned, head tilted to the sky and hands stuffed in his pockets, long stride slow or otherwise he would have overtaken her, that he'd been an unfortunate witness of their collisions since the two were but childhood friends, whispering in tubes at parks and hiding in the foyers at hoity-toity balls. He told her, pointedly, that they'd collected themselves a few months prior, and she argued that she'd been seeing them in each other's arms since forever, and feeling each other up for a year at the minimum. That had been, unsurprisingly, the answer he had wanted. Innocent, he'd called her, teasing.
Innocent, he'd said, and now he was asking her to follow him down the other path.
Tire him out. Lily found the answer as quickly as it was designed for her to do so.
Inside her, Layali cringed. The young girl she was, is, tightened her lips.
Because, if one were to piece together the puzzle, if they'd known the girl who first stepped foot on platform 9 and 3/4 and the girl who disembarked from the train and met her first sight of Hogwarts School for Witchcraft and Wizardry, then they'd know Lily Evans was a follower. That day, she had crumpled Layali Haifa Evans upon every sensible advice and ignored the sensation of her petals being crushed to powder, leaving only the flexible stalk - Lily. Lily who didn't wear a hijab, no, of course not, it's just wizarding fashion with a muggle spin, duh, and who wasn't different, so please don't go.
She kept Layali, like one would keep an oath. She kept Layali in the trenches of her too-sensitive heart, and let the girl wither with every pretence, until the glass cage that was Lily, casting a distorted image, became her only option, lest she wanted to appear hurt and shy and be lonely among the swathes of students at Hogwarts. She kept Layali like a precious truth. The truth always, always reared its head.
Barty taught her that, in his knowing smirks and his soft accusations and his solicitous silence and his raised head and his waggling brows and how he said Lily like he knew better than to think it was anything but hollow, because the twat always knew better.
Barty taught her that, and what he taught her was more often that not irritatingly right.
So, it was Lily who shook her head, and who became a piece fuller, as she set her first boundary, unwilling to follow past a line she'd chartered. And, so it was Lily who watched as Barty quietened and moved them both forwards on their path without acknowledging the situation, and it was Layali who observed sadly and pridefully as well. It was Layali, battered as she was, who could only rise one brave inch higher, to drag her line above the mud, but not so high as to be heard by him over the wind.
'Will you wait for me?', when they were older, when they could loop their signatures on paper and share the sweet taste of a forever-romance, never reached Barty's ears.