mental health more like mental hell

this is my bpd blog. welcome to hell

[bitch-pd-blog]

anxiety: everything is terrible

me: literally nothing is terrible???

anxiety: not yet :)

[bitch-pd-blog]

anxiety: everything is terrible

me: literally nothing is terrible???

anxiety: not yet :)

[bitch-pd-blog]

person: hey would you like to go out with us?

me: uh

anxiety: (✿◕‿◕)

me: im not sure

anxiety: (✿०‿०)

me: m-maybe ?

anxiety: (✿⊙‿⊙)

me: maybe not

anxiety: (✿◠‿◠)

[sheisrecovering]

[bitch-pd-blog]

someone: so what will u be doing this weekend everybody:))))

other person: ill be visiting my grandma in idaho :)))

other person 2: probably just gonna drive up to my cottage!

me: probably gonna kill myself or dye my hair haven't really decided yet

[bitch-pd-blog]

therapist: u cant just be fine and then want to die????

me: i know but

therapist:

me:

therapist:

me: .... you can

[bitch-pd-blog]

*fp does thing not with you*

bpd: viciously rips own heart out of chest and catapults it towards the wall full force

everyone, looking around in horror:

bpd: FUC

me: This is Fine

[bitch-pd-blog]

bpd: i am bored

me: ok, we can read a book, watch some netflix, finish our essa-

bpd: are you feeling 7 shots of straight liqour in between periods at school , or should we just pick a fight with a couple people until they make us feel something.... only to deeply regret it after. OR hey! you could text that one ex that hates you?

[bitch-pd-blog]

me, completely numb: wow feeling anything at all would be better than this

me, overwhelmed by crushing despair: wOW I WISH I COULDN'T FEEL ANYTHING AT ALL EVER AGAIN

me, completely numb: wow feeling anything at all would-

[irl-waste-of-space]

Fp: *interacts with someone else* Me: …………..they have a million friends that are so much better than me they dont even like me or want me around they probably just want me dead-

[borderline-me]

Me: I have a disorder that makes it difficult if not impossible to regulate my emotions Person: that’s okay! We all have our trials and tribulations uwu *five minutes later Person: whoa calm down stop acting so crazy all the time Me: :-)

[bitch-pd-blog]

tumblr: you are what you love, not who loves you!!!

me & my bpd:

[aurevoir-mes-amis-deactivated20]

[bitch-pd-blog]

me: attention! attention! i need it! give me attention!

also me, beating myself with a broom: you! don't! deserve! love!

[cindycrawford]

me: am i gonna have a good day today?

my anxiety:

[bitch-pd-blog]

me, immediately after talking about any personal information or emotions: I’ve revealed too much. I must never speak again to show no weakness and preserve my identity.

[jodiefoster]

me about me: oh god i think she’s crying again…………………….