bitches don't know shit

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[cosmicanger]

Flower Nails by Masaharu Ono

[bitchesdontknowshit]

actually still alive? I started writing more this month and it reminded me of how much I miss tumblr as a space to post things. Might just start using it to talk to myself again. k bye

[vexheart]

[eimai-enas-hlian8os]

Μπουμπούκια είναι ακόμα , κάντε υπομονή

[bitchesdontknowshit]

I always know it’s getting bad again when I spend 30 minutes trying to get myself to get out of bed to spend 2 minutes to brush my teeth.

My eyes have felt heavier this week, they have definitely been glassier than they normally look. There’s a faint hint of sadness but I’ve been wearing my mask still so I can at least just make sure my eyes look dead and I don’t have to control the rest of my face.

I cried a lot this weekend but I don’t think it was about him. I think it’s just my general well being. It was nice to have someone to talk to every day, but the last few weeks got tiresome and didn’t actually feel like it meant anything. Which felt more draining then it should have.

It’s weird watching people treat me the same way my dad used to treat my mom. It makes me wonder if I’m going to end up breaking the generational trauma or if I have kids they are going to be just as fucked up as I am.

I know a lot of people that I used to talk to on here don’t use this website anymore but I miss it and I might use it for the time being while I’m trying to process the rest of this month.

Hope y’all are doing well.

[jpns-jpg]

zombieland (2010)

[serpentwife-deactivated20200820]

the gangs all here

[malamente1992]

[octoberbrunette]

[gagarin-smiles-anyway]

Russian dachas by Fyodor Savintsev

[hellyeahrihannafenty]

[girl-debord]

ads on TV are so surreal rn

[girl-debord]

Come on down for the COVID19 Spring Sales event! When you buy a new Honda, we’ll throw in a bottle of hand sanitizer if you use the code “GLOBAL-PANDEMIC”! Hurry! While our fraudulent status as essential retail lasts.

[bitchesdontknowshit]

Greetings from quarantine hell ✨🎉

[bitchesdontknowshit]

I think sometimes it’s hard to explain that I always have one foot out the door before anything begins. I like caring about people but that weirds people out, people don’t want you to get attached. (it makes them feel bad?) I don’t really want people in my space if they don’t care about me because it makes me feel weird and vaccant. It takes a while for me to feel like myself again. and a lot of dating feels like i’m not really there. Physically it’s alright (sometimes) but emotionally I feel like I tend to block myself out. It’s hard I guess becuase when I try to explain things I feel like people just ignore what I’m saying and think they are right so I usually feel like I get no say in things. 

and sometimes I get worried because I don’t think I’m going to get that “it just kind of happened and I knew it” thing that some of my friends got to expereince when they were younger. People get jaded. Hell I can’t even remember the last time a boy wanted me to genuinely like them, it’s usually at some form of an arms distance until one of us gets weirded out. When people ask me what I want I have a hard time answering because I’m not really sure I’m ready to settle down anytime soon but I also don’t want to be treated like a fucking doormat.

If I was going to be honest with myself I could say that it’s going to continue to be like this becuase I’m not attracted to people who are emotionally availble but maybe that just weirds me out.

[bocekcicek]

Max Siedentopf

[banksalec]

[textonly]

[tripnipalex-deactivated20210125]

As a former catholic I can tell you the accuracy of these statements is spot fucking on

[365filmsbyauroranocte]

Embracing (Naomi Kawase, 1992)