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God said no

Wow. Reviewing my entries. My fav was, “God said no.” Favoring hope over doubt. Rediscovering trust in my abilities. Uncovering creativity. I ran screaming. My silence said more than I could.

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I feel alone. I rarely feel as though I have anyone close to me. If I do, it's a fleeting emotion.

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Teeth

But the best part was he brushed his teeth.

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Position

I'm positioning myself as an indispensable ally.

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Just stop

I'm taking a break from things that don't matter.

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Answer

God answered. He said no.

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out there again

I put myself out there again. I gave it more thought and consideration, but with my history, I’m feeling less confident. I put it all in God’s hands.

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Free me

Kinda seems like everyone has moved on but me.

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Never mind

Never mind my own sorrow. Never mind what I’m going through. There is always someone close to me who is in more agony than me.

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Mourning

Yes, I'm in mourning. Yes, it's affecting me more than I knew. No, I'm not thinking clearly. Yes, I have regrets. No, I don't know when I'll be better. No, I'll never be the same person I was. Yes, I'm cynical, apprehensive, and cautious.

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Where I'm At

It was almost inevitable. In a strange way I couldn't wait for it to happen. Maybe now others will see. I'm hanging tough. I've got everything to lose and everything to gain. Am I being vague enough? Even in this medium, I feel the need to be vague. People know me. People like me. Outwit. Outlast. Outplay. I totally want a van.

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A hole

It would be so easy to curl up in the hole and stay there with nothing but sorrow and memories. I need to make new memories.

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It's not just me

It wasn't just Jane A, and its not Jane B nor Jane C. My new strategy is to outwit, outlast, and outplay.

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EOY

I kept doing what I do. Not knowing others were watching, taking notice. I just do what I do. Keep on trucking. Like she told me, keep on trucking. BTW, thanx.

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Keeping On

I tried it. I tried what I said I would. I held on until something better posted. There were two. Neither were meant to be. Have I yet realized that people like me?