lady in BLACK.

black woman. mother. phenomenal. an entree of my life with a dash of extra as garnish. enjoy. 🌻

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KEITH HARING - THE POLITICAL LINE

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Tacos

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Pizza Bagels

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what's cardio?

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salad creations! 🥗🍓

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eggs 🥚🍳

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short hair, don't care. 🖤

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Growth.

I haven’t posted in a while. There’s been so much inspiration around me to write, I just haven’t. I usually try to keep my blogs well put together, but well….. This is me, the raw and uncut version. Full of mistakes, full of errors, full of lessons learned, insights, etc. I’m at a point in my life where blessings are showing up for me, but no matter how well I’m doing, the devil will still try me. I can’t ever just be completely at peace with things because people are forever testing my ability to keep my cool. Do you seriously want me to go back to the old me? Why? Why would you push me? I’m fighting so hard with myself to not become the person I saw in my mom growing up. I fight everyday to be better. To make better decisions, to not give everything a reaction, to keep beautiful energy around me. The tests of life are really getting to me. I haven’t been this genuinely happy in such a long time and toxic people hate it. What do you want me to do? Stay in the same place I was? Forever unhappy and angry at at the world? I truly love who I’m becoming. Finally. You’ll respect it and if you don’t want to, that’s fine too. I’ll continue and you can continue to stay stagnant. 

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some of my work… 😋

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some of my work… 😋

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[OC] Cast Iron Pizza. First one, made with homemade dough, sauce and Fennel Sausage. [Homemade] [1920x1080]

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On this day in music history: April 16, 1964 - The Beatles record the theme song to their first film “A Hard Day’s Night at Abbey Road Studios in London. Now almost seven weeks into production on The Beatles first film, filming continues without a proper title or a theme song until inspiration comes from an unlikely source. Drummer Ringo Starr is the catalyst for the title of the song as well as the film (which also does not have a title when production begins), when he blurts out the phrase at the end of a particularly long day of filming. John and Paul write the song overnight, (actually writing the lyrics on the inside of a match book cover) and play it for film producer Walter Shenson on the set the next day. The band complete the song in under three hours of studio time with Take 9 being the master recording. “A Hard Day’s Night” is also notable for its striking opening guitar chord which is Fadd9 (in the first position) played in tandem by George Harrison (on his Rickenbacker 360-12) and John Lennon (on his Gibson J-160E).

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🌛 Jade Necklaces / Chokers 🌜

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Está aceso 🔥

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cuts & bandaids: part two

I was recently told by my best friend "it's been a long road with a lot of fucked up shit going on. but look how far you've made it. too far to give up now. He didn't ruin your life. You still have so much life left its far from over and you still got a lot to do and accomplish AND YOU WILL. I hate that the people closest to you have hurt you the most, it's not supposed to be that way but somehow it always is 💔 but we can't control other people's fucked up actions. we can only control ourselves and how we handle it and respond. with your parents: there's nothing wrong with you and it's not that you arent good enough because you are. they just can't show you the love that you need from them because they can't give things they weren't given and teach what they weren't by taught. maybe you will be able to teach it to them. show them forgiveness in your own time. so that way you aren't holding on to the hurt. if they're incapable, make your peace with knowing it's them and not u and find that love in those beautiful babies you created ❤️and you may not have responded in the best ways to his actions (staying/fighting) but you've realized that and have made those changes to fix that situation all on your own. you've already changed so much for the better. you're doing everything you can to make sure y'all live as peacefully as possible until you're able to go your separate ways and that's all u can do AND YOU'RE DOING IT WELL. you're literally the strongest person i've known in my whole life and i'm more proud of u than i will ever be able to put into words."

I'm going to continue to keep pushing and get stronger on my own so that I can be strong enough for someone else to lean on. I have to hold myself accountable for every mistake I've made, for every sign I blatantly ignored. I realize I chose to settle. I wasn't right within, and I had no idea. I'm sorry if it seems like I'm a bit more selfish. I haven't been this concerned with myself in way too long. I'm focused on what will put me on to the path of self improvement, everything else will follow after. The mere thought of being in anything similar to what I've been through terrifies me. It's not an excuse to run like I always seem to do when things seem okay for the moment. I know I'm not the only one that has been through this. I won't stop reaching out because even if I can touch just one person, that person can move forward and do the same. A continuous cycle of positivity, self love, & progression is what I aim to achieve. Dealing with traumatic experiences & depression, battling your mental heath period, and having no emotional support from your significant other is nothing I'd ever wish on anyone. I encourage those currently in something similar, or could be, to educate yourself. I advise women out there, and men, that are victims of domestic violence to speak up, get therapy, leave, whatever it takes to move forward with your life. The longer you wait, the harder it is to put the pieces back together of everything that used to make sense so long ago. I am beyond grateful for the support system God allowed me to have. the many chances at life He's given me knowing i didn't deserve it. Still through all of this, life is one big pursuit of happiness, & I refuse to give up until i get it.