BlazingLeadsToDeepThoughts.

[blazingleadstodeepthoughts]

Here I am once again talking to myself about my own problems to myself

One of my biggest problems is causing me the same pain I have felt since I lost my first real love. Love is one of those things I've always struggled throughout all my life I give a lot of love but I rarely end up being loved the way I love them I was young and stupid once I met the most perfect girl she was gorgeous,smart and most of all she didn't see any of my flaws she loved me for the person that I was until I thought that it was a good time that I pour my heart out to her and tell her that I liked her and wanted to be with her little did I know that my life would go completely downhill from that day on. I had such a high expectation that it would happen how I planned it yet it didn't she said no and from her simple words "I can't" I was destroyed and broken like a cup thrown at a wall

[blazingleadstodeepthoughts]

Turning over to a new leaf

Ever since I met you my life changed drastically which always made contemplate where my life could've been if I had never met you and fell in love with you after we stopped being friends my life spiralled down hill like dropping a penny from a high rise building constantly contemplating if life was even worth it anymore always questioning why that I'm never good enough for anyone and always trying to please people that would never care for me the way I cared for them. Today I was in my first car accident and having one of the toughest weekends emotionally when it happened deep down I was sad that in the end I was still alive and well but as I'm sitting here writing this it's a blessing in disguise the way the car hit me it made my car point in a complete different direction than the path that I was travelling I think that was a way of life telling me that I need to stop continuing down the path that I am going on and to change my perspective on life and that now it is time that I seek professional help and that now it is time that I start to take care of myself instead of taking care of others before its to late and then no one will be there for my family my friends to pick them up from their sadness even though deep down inside I'm damaged.

[blazingleadstodeepthoughts]

[blazingleadstodeepthoughts]

[nikolawashere]

[blazingleadstodeepthoughts]

Jar of goodies ☺️

[supahighposts]

[blazingleadstodeepthoughts]

Frosty Budz

[blazingleadstodeepthoughts]

Waking up to this view good start to beautiful day!

[blazingleadstodeepthoughts]

Nugs 4 dayssssss

[stancenation]

[blazingleadstodeepthoughts]

Hella flush

[sidewaysjdm]

[blazingleadstodeepthoughts]

Amazingggggg

[supahighposts]

[blazingleadstodeepthoughts]

Hella Dank

[blazingleadstodeepthoughts]

Drinks and chill w/ the boys

[blazingleadstodeepthoughts]

Blaze up it’s 420 

[blazingleadstodeepthoughts]

Baller Life 💰

[blazingleadstodeepthoughts]

The World Is An Amazing Place