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I'm feeling down

[surat-pendek]

“Dulu setiap kali aku bertanya, “Apakah kamu rindu padaku?” Kamu selalu menjawab, “Iya pasti.” Sekarang sudah 2 tahun lamanya kita berpisah, dan jika ada yang menanyakan apakah aku merindukanmu, aku selalu menjawabnya dengan, “Iya pasti.””

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When you miss someone who isn’t here anymore.. // A. W.

Bandung, 15 Mei 2018.

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People leave you, Allah doesn't.

Bandung, 06:54 AM.

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Di tumblr ngga ada temen. Jadi aku bebas berekspresi~

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Oh, hola again tumblr. It’s been a while, since the government blocked Tumblr in Indonesia, I haven’t post anything yet. Btw, I’m using VPN on my Mac. So, How are you tumblr?

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soooo colorful

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Mau nulis tapi bingung. Yaudahlah tidur aja. Yaaaaaksssss 😌🖕🏽

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Je pense tellement á toi.

Staring to these empty chairs. Is he looking the same as me? Two minds, four empty eyes were collide. Did we see love? Who knows... Sitting on this chair. Smelling the exquisite of the coffee on friday night. Is he thinking the same as me? Curiosity about how bitter it was tasted.

Glancing to this languish heart, is he feeling as hurt as mine?

For this heart being left and withered. For this heart is dying. For this heart was drained of its faith. For this heart begging for a cure.

Asking to the ocean of agony. Does he love as deep as mine? Does he ever love me? .....  

Tu seras toujours dans mon coeur. Tu me manques...

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Something I learned today:

There is no right or wrong time. It’s always the right time to tell someone you’re attracted to them, or you care about them, if you mean it. 

So, I’ll find someone 

and saying I love you.

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The Hardest Things

I meet a lot of boys in my life, and there are so many kind of them. And you know what? You are the hardest. The one who never started the conversations. The cold hearted man who likes to ignoring me. The one who never checking on me. The one who makes my brain thinking every single night. The person who make me cried. I tried to understand what’s on your mind. And I don’t get it. Why are you so hard to get? I hate you, but I do like you. I fall in love wih people I can’t have. I don’t even know why am I even bother you to care when you doesn’t even care about me. I am thinking about giving up on you. I think it’s enough to embrassed myself. You can’t do this to me just because I loved you first.  You know whats sad about love? Its when you happen to know what there’s just no hope for you being together yet you still pray to make it work. It’s when your mind says “let go” but your hearts says “hold on”.

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Are you dumb?

I'm very picky with whom I gave my energy to. I prefer to reserve my time, intensity, and spirit exclusively to those who reflect sincerity. Because, some people are just terrible human beings, and terrible people do terrible things. If you're racking your brain trying to understand it, it just means you're not one of those terrible people. My silence could mean you're not worth the argument.

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work until expensive becomes cheap

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Dimanapun kalian berada, ku kirimkan terimakasih untuk warna dalam hidupku dan banyak kenangan indah kau melukis Aku.

Tulus

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who are you??