bananice

turn  your  thoughts  away  from  cold,  unfeeling  light

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h i’m really torn between changing my writing formatting to make it prettier or just continuing with what’s easier............ hm

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THE  CYCLE  OF  DESPAIR  IS  REPEATING  ALL  OVER  AGAIN,  THE  STAR  I  STILL  CANNOT  REACH  IS  FATED  TO  FADE  AWAY  SOMEDAY,  IN  A  FAINT  GLINT                   AS  LONG  AS  WE  ARE  TOGETHER,   I  WILL  BELIEVE  THERE  IS  A  CONTINUATION  TO  OUR  DESTINY.  

      (  ind.  karen  aijou  &  hikari  kagura  of  shōjo☆kageki revue starlight   /   destined  by  sara  &  martin.  )

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ms. steal yo girl

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I HOPE THIS REACHES HER IN TIME .

poetry starters /  memes taken from r.h. sin’s work  ,  available here .  feel free to change pronouns  /  genders as need be !

“ someday someone better than you will love her in all the ways you couldn’t ” “ the truth was just an attractive lie ” “ don’t you miss who you were ? ” “ who you became took over your life ” “ you wear sadness like the latest fashion ” “ do you even remember what it felt like to be happy ? ” “ have you forgotten yourself beneath your troubles ? ” “ all of this for a heart that doesn’t deserve yours ” “ either way it all catches up to you ” “ aren’t you tired of this shit ? ” “ all you’ve felt is defeat ” “ the girl you didn’t appreciate will get tired of loving you ” “ you should’ve tried harder for her ” “ one day you’ll understand ” “ you were the thing keeping me from happiness ” “ my heart is searching for a feeling that doesn’t hurt ” “ i understand your silence ” “ you are not alone ” “ you deserve so much more than what you’ve been given ” “ you are more than just a body count ” “ we learn the hard way ” “ it’s time to free yourself ” “ it’s almost as if her soul is a pack of wolves ” “ you can miss people but you don’t have to want them back ” “ you can forgive people but you don’t have to give them second chances ” “ empty yourself of all the pain he caused you ” “ you will be ready when it is time ” “ you are not your past ” “ be here , be present , be more ” “ your story mustn’t finish ” “ i won’t judge your or criticize you for doing what you’ve done ” “ i only wish you wished for more ” “ you are more than just something to do for the moment ” “ it is you who will save yourself ” “ there are so many wars going on at night ” “ we sway like a bed of roses in the wind ” “ all i see is fake kings ” “ are we still pretending that it doesn’t hurt ? ” “ the heartache will teach you ” “ you hid yourself from the world ” “ the world betrayed you ” “ a love like yours is worth climbing the wall ”

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 ‘    You’re right, I just cannot help but comment on it.    ‘   the smile never leaves your face as you speak, eyes darting downwards to the cup your so called friend drinks from. hot, isn’t it ? she never flinches at these sort of things.

hair falls as your head tilts ever so softly, hands neatly on your lap.

 ‘   Daiba-San, what exactly have you noticed about everyone ? your attentiveness  …  forgive  me if this sounds ill intentioned on my behalf, but   …   it leaves me weary.  if you notice the quirks, the good, & the beautiful, then you must notice the paramours to those, correct ?   ‘

you begin to stir your tea, allowing the spoon to delicately click against the walls of the cup  —  you do not look up yet. 

 ‘     It’s rather   …   unsettling .  the things you know. things you shouldn’t know, yet you do.  attentiveness reaps rewards, this much is true, & you have reaped them, haven’t you ?  ‘

your eyes finally whisk upwards, your clicking stops. absolute silence reigns over the two of you  —  the smile you feigned drops.  eyes are unwavering, unmoving. 

 ‘      So, please, indulge me in an answer.     ‘       when did your voice become so hollow, so devoid of life ?   ‘    what stage did you wish for, top star?  ‘

She  loves  her  friends  flaws  as  much  as  she  loves  their  strengths.  In  fact,  she  covets  those  things.  Those  messy  feelings  and  bad  habits  set  the  stage  for  true  bonding ;  it’s  not  so  bad  for  Nana  to  know  those  cracks  and  address  them  accordingly.

It’s  hypocritical --  though  Maya  will  never  know  it --  to  be  so  critical  of  her  attentiveness.  Was  it  not  Maya’s  own  words  that  inspired  her,  so  long  ago,  to  use  her  brilliance?  It  was  Maya  who  noticed  how  she  held  herself  back,  who noticed  her  weakness.

This  will  cause  problems  on  this  years  stage,  it  seems.

“You  know  what  I  wished  for,”  Nana  says  simply. “Can  you  blame  me?  Do  you  not  treasure  these  times,  too?”

She  sees  how  Maya  puts  on  an  act.  It’s  much  easier  to  pretend  she’s  aloof  ;  but  her  feelings  for  their  friends  are  clear.  She  holds  them  close  to  her  heart,  too.

Despite  that,  she  understands  why  this  eternal  stage  would  be  a  problem.  Maya’s  whole  life,  her  whole  childhood,  has  been  setting  the  stage  for  her  adulthood.  She  doesn’t  realize  the  tragedy  of  her  own  wasted  youth.  Nana’s  gift  must  seem  like  a  curse  to  someone  desperate  to  grow  up.

“I’m  sorry,”  Nana  sighs.  “This  will  be  a  burden  to  you.”  You’ll  be  blissfully  ignorant  next  time  around.  “It’s  much  easier  not  knowing,  isn’t  it?”

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                                                          Repeated  mistakes.                                                 Again  in  this  way  I  am  alone.

She  couldn’t  tell  anyone  about  what  occured.  Even  so,  the  madness  in  Maya’s  eyes  was  burned  into  her  -- like  Europa, she  may  never  escape  it.  Maya’s  brilliance.  Her  loneliness.  Those  two  things  must  go  hand  in  hand.

Her  only  solace  is  in  the  fact  that  there  is  no  class  today,  giving  her  the chance  to  quietly  sulk  to  her  hearts  content.  Junna  left  to  study  in  the  library  ;  she  asked  Nana  to  accompany  her,  her  kind,  bright,  beautiful,  positive  smile  like  a  distant beacon.

But  she  couldn’t.  If  she  did,  Junna  would  have  noticed  how  weakly  her  arms  trembled.  Her  fingers  trace  the  scars  under  her  sleeves.  Normally,  injuries  in  Revue’s  are  spotlessly  healed.  But  for  some  reason...

She’s  been  left  with  a  sick  reminder.

Distantly,  she  hopes  her  reclusiveness  doesn’t  spark  any  suspicion.  It’s  only  natural  to  be  tired  after  a  Revue  --  though  Maya  walks  around  as  though  nothing  had  transpired.  She  couldn’t  bring  herself  to  meet  her  eye  this  morning. But  her  friends  are  painfully  sharp,  as she’s  learned  both  from  experience  and  from  her  own  observations.

Maya’s  words  echo  in  her  mind.

                                             Accept  solitude  and  stand  in  the                                                            center  of  heaven.

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👿.     “     𝐒𝐎𝐅𝐓     𝐀𝐅𝐅𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒     ”     𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐄     .

a     collection     of     scenarios     that     involve     our     muses     being     ‘     soft     /     affectionate     ’     .     feel     free     to     specify     ,     or     send     ‘     SOFT     ’     for     me     to     randomly     generate     a     number     .     do     not     copy     &     redistribute     as     your     own     .

01. my muse pulls yours into a tight embrace .

02. our muses press their foreheads together .

03. my muse rests their head against your muses shoulder .

04. our muses hold hands .

05. my muse runs their fingers through your muses hair .

06. our muses share a bed .

07. our muses bathe / shower together .

08. my muse brings yours breakfast in bed .

09. our muses reunite after time apart .

10. our muses go for a late night drive .

11. our muses watching the stars together .

12. our muses cooking together .

13. my muse wiping cream / chocolate / food from your muses cheek .

14. our muses dancing together .

15. my muse throwing yours over their shoulder & carrying them .

16. our muses sharing inside jokes .

17. our muses out on a date .

18. our muses share a quiet moment together .

19. our muses have a movie night together .

20. our muses almost kiss .

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can you do my hw for me I'll give you kith

“I  don’t  have  much  use  for  a  ‘kith,’  but  a kiss  would  be  ample  payment!”

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God forgive me. My old self strains Against this new one.

Douglas Dunn, from “‘Scenic Tunnels,’“ Dante’s Drum-kit (Faber and Faber, 1993)

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i literally don’t care what happens in the movie as long as one of the insert songs is “you are a ghost i am a ghost”

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as much as i love junna... stageplay “the star knows” > anime “the star knows”

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kuro: “YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO BE WATCHING THE DOOR AIJOU KAREN. do you know what these are, aijou karen? these are a stage girl’s arms. a stage girl with dreams, with legs, with a head. she’s a banana. she’s a swizzle stick. you can use her as a pool noodle. and now i’m holding up her arms! ARMS! i’m holding them because you weren’t watching the door. a girl lost her arms, aijou karen. a girl lost her FUCKING arms. do you not know what has transpired while you were in orion watching hikari freeze? we had our own tragic revue today. oh my god. how could you do this to us? you literally shot us with an arrow like the apollo you are. and me? i’m artemis and i’m holding two fucking girl’s arms. and you’re apollo, disappointing everybody. LIVE WITH THAT.”

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“I  got  my  fucking  arms  ripped  off.”

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@pridechanges​  “Bitch  what  the  fuck”

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THIS IS EVEN MORE RELEVANT NOW

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tag dump !

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hello nana revue starlight,

hello saaya bandori

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as sweet as the hc is that nana has a super nice family i also cannot stop thinking about the fact that nana is one of the few, like junna who we know has bad parents, that refuses to go home over break...