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[einsteinapproved]

[ID: 4 arms holding hands. the arms are labeled "Intersex Rights", "Reproductive Rights", "Trans Rights", and "Disability Rights". The hands are labeled "Bodily Autonomy"

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every website is bad but tumblr is still the most functionally designed for my purposes artwise and bsky keeps getting worse so. i might come back but if i do i'll probably make a new blog and link it here when i do

as for life well things got worse before they got better but adult protective services are now involved so mom's behaving better and i'm on new meds that help with stability but they also kinda hollow me out and even at my calmest i still look at the state of the everything and feel discouraged and sad most of the time. depends who is fronting (the DID situation still not great and most of me is not sure how well i can cope with it in the long run)

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hospital

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update: still in hospital

medical, not mental, so I can have phone

too tired to explain everything surrounding events

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hospital

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I made it to friends house to crash for a few weeks, this will help

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posting that I will do my best to survive no matter what losing me dozens of followers makes me wonder if those people were legit hoping for an update where I was Dead or something

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still hanging on and for a moment the part of me with any will or determination to keep on keeping on in Some way no matter how bad it gets is "awake" and hoping it gets to stay awake for longer than just a few minutes

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mom picked the lock on my bedroom door to keep yelling at me about the crime of my gender and how I’m the problem not embracing the insertion of my genitals into every conversation I’m ever mentioned in while she’s the victim for doing it and it affecting me negatively after being told that’s how it is over and over and over and over and I’m hiding in my bathroom now the bathroom she eavesdrops in on my showers in through the garage wall anyway so no escape no privacy ever she’s still ranting through the one door she can’t pick but my headphones protect me from words I know would make even more suicidal than I already am thank you headphones

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Im sorry for being annoying, but i just wanted to check in and see if you are ok. You've not posted in a while so im worried!!

Not annoying; I just don't use tumblr anymore except periodic check ins for/respond to messages like these, actually, so people don't worry... thought due to recent events people being worried would be normal. I had started moving to bsky but I've not been so active there anymore either, because to answer your other question/how i'm doing/if I'm ok.... the answer is. not. really.

at all.

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(forgive me using an ask to further Extrapolate as Time Progresses)

hhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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all i can ultimately ask for from the people who have followed me a long time and Get It, is that if I don't make it, whatever you do, wherever your career might take you, never forget to advocate for the mentally ill and the disabled and trans people and all other those deemed disposable, even if it isn't Advantageous to do

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Im sorry for being annoying, but i just wanted to check in and see if you are ok. You've not posted in a while so im worried!!

Not annoying; I just don't use tumblr anymore except periodic check ins for/respond to messages like these, actually, so people don't worry... thought due to recent events people being worried would be normal. I had started moving to bsky but I've not been so active there anymore either, because to answer your other question/how i'm doing/if I'm ok.... the answer is. not. really.

at all.

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posting to confirm I’m alive

something terrible happened but it over and I’ll heal

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If you’re reading this I love you Never forget love

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updates on bsky now obvs but

relatives are now getting guns out to intimidate/end conversations and other relatives don’t care/won’t help till I Repent for being queer and I’m probably just gonn check into a mental hospital for my on good

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the relative who pulled the gun is now appalled the other relative didn’t comfort me when I went to them

just a taste of how fucked my family life is always has been the desire to keep as much as possible inside unknown eroding from sanity loss

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imagine being a christian so fucking awful at your own faith the christian who pulled a gun on a queer went "wait, you told them to fuck off when they went to you for a roof over their head bc i scared them with my gun, which i now admit i did as a Stunt and was fucked up to do and i shouldn't have done it? holy shit"

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it's kind of a you problem if you read "this is a problem that also affects me" and assume it to mean "i only care about this problem because it affects me. i would not care if it only affected you"

i've seen this a lot more often in reference to anti-trans legislature recently. people acting as though only trans women will be affected by it and then getting mad at trans men and nonbinary people for daring to mention we're also negatively impacted by it

can we just have a community please. i want a community. can we not fight over who has it worse all the time and just give eachother support

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still gonna try and go ahead with the hand painted wooden disc idea, which, once i get a feel for it and a handful of designs i can reliably recreate by hand, would be easier for me to do than commissions, but anyway, these are my first attempts with these materials, just to get a feel for it, some came out pretty well, but others it's an obvious first crack so a 'better' version will get made on another disc,

aside from that, i'd love suggestions of things to paint on the discs for more practice/to build up a big pile of decent ones, since the goal is to sell them for charity later

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while i work on these (please still offer any suggestions you can think of; you can leave links to your own characters, even, knowing i might experiment and make them into like. a de-digivolved design of themself to fit.) animals, objects, vibes, etc

in the mean time, here are two campaigns i want to focus on for now, that it'd mean a lot to me to boost/donate to if you can. you don't even have to rb this post to boost them, if you don't want to, i want results more than notes, you can just copy/paste and make a new post for your own followers, or share the links wherever you think a sympathetic ear who will give up the price of a coffee to help families who need food, medicine, and hope - remember than even small donations add up, and to even see regular donations, even if they're small, just being regular, no long weeks of checking for nothing, does a lot for the morale of those in these situations

Help Mohammed and his Family

Dear Supporters,Hello, I am Omar and I am raising emergency funds for Mohammed, a young man who supports his family in Gaza and needs our he

Help me save my family and escape from Gaza to Eygpt

My name is Alaa, and I am a mother of three precious children: Musa, who is 12 years old, and my twin daughters, Ella and Ellen, who are 8 y

[rawangaza]

This is the story of my four-year-old sister whose only crime is to be born in northern Gaza. I hope it will touch you, because I don’t know what to say anymore. I don’t know what to share about our situation anymore😓

PLEASE DONATE HERE

I have lowered my campaign goal because I have lost hope. I wanted to complete it before March when a new semester will begin so I could register for university again and focus on nothing but my studies. I wanted to rebuild our home so we would avoid the years and years of displacement we went through last time it was destroyed. Maybe I dreamed too big. Maybe my life isn’t meant to be rebuilt💔

Can we please achieve that at least? I won’t have a home, it’s okay. I’ll study in a tent, but at least I’ll be able to somewhat focus if our needs are met. Please, I’m not angry if you can’t donate. I understand. But please at least share, it helps a lot too💔🇵🇸

[rawansfamily]

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