Blood On Stray Papers

25 He/Him Just a collection of cringe and music that I like

[floralandfailing]

I need to lock back into midwest emo. It's been too long

[folktaylor]

u know what makes me lowkey sad? when someone says ‘i know it seems silly’ before talking about something they clearly care very deeply about bc u know that means someone gave them shit for caring that much about that thing before which is Fucked Up.

[queen-haiz]

or when they’re like “i know i talk too much, just tell me to shut up when u get tired” n they say it as a joke but u can see that they’re uncomfortable, n i get so sad n i wanna fight whoever made them feel like they’re not worth of being heard.

[bloodonstraypapers]

As a person who has used the “hey tell me to shut up if I’m being annoying” line way too often I will say, It’s really saddening and discouraging when your trying to have a conversation with someone and you can see the exact moment the interest in the conversation leaves them.

Like I know I have relatively niche interests and a touch of the ‘tism that makes me rant extensively about things I like, but also I’m not talking to just fill space or alleviate silence, I’m trying to share parts of myself with people who I enjoy being around. It’s even worse when I’ve met so few people who not only listen to my rants and opinions but also interact with them back and converse.

I’ve gotten more used to keeping my interests out of the conversation for the sake of not having anyone else feel like they need to fake being interested

[mournfulroses]

Louise Glück, from a poem titled "October," featured in Averno: Poems, originally published in 2006

[nwxxx]

For An Old Kentucky Anarchist (live) by Mischief Brew 

[midnightportals]

It’s always fuck ice and fuck Donald Trump.

[bloodonstraypapers]

Time for music recommendations that no one asked for!

I listen to music pretty emotionally? If that makes sense, like my taste in music is completely built up by whatever I was feeling at that time and how the music either fed into or alleviated what I was feeling. So my recommendations will reflect that!

Bruce Springsteen! I know a lot of my mutuals are into various alternatives subcultures and the only experience they probably have from Springsteen is hearing born in the USA on July 4th, but trust me when I say his music is so much more than that!

I discovered Springsteens music during a point in my life where I felt stuck, stuck in life, in my hometown, in a doomed relationship, and when I hear Bruce’s songs I can hear that feeling reflected back at me with the caveat that Bruce’s songs are about breaking out of that situation and trying to find something better and more free!

Born To Run and Thunder Road are must listens if you’ve ever felt something similar!

Springsteen’s music just encapsulates this feeling of freedom that I can’t really put into words, there’s a genuineness to it that is so palpable I feel like Bruce is one of my best friends and ever time I put on a record we’re having a conversation, and I ultimately leave the experience feeling understood and with this profound sense of hope.

My top 5 songs to recommend

1) Born to Run

2) the Darkness on the Edge of Town

3) The River

4) No Surrender

5) Backstreets

[bloodonstraypapers]

Growing up as a fan of Springsteen I’m more excited than ever for this new biopic, that being said even if it completely flops, Jeremy Allen White deserves some damn praise for matching Springsteens energy and vocals at least from what I’ve seen from the trailer! I was wholeheartedly convinced they just dubbed Springsteens vocals over the scenes at first!!

[edensmusicgarden]

“when you show up to my funeral, will you be wearing white or black” idc how simple this lyric is, it always devastates me. vocals have the perfect amount of dissonance as well to give it that exasperated, hopeless tone

[bloodonstraypapers]

This one lyric is what solidified my love for this song. The first riff is really fucking good and melodically it fits with the song, but this one lyric made me stop and reevaluate, not just the song nor the lyricists life, but my own and when everything is said and done, how will people think of me and my life when I’m gone

[mournfulroses]

Else Fitzgerald, from "Everything Feels Like the End of The World," publ. in 2022

[bloodonstraypapers]

Sitting at work being constantly reminded that I feel out of place and out of time in most of my surroundings. Being in your mid twenties is a weird time even more so as someone who suffers from terrible fomo.

I have friends that still party like they just turned 21, friends with careers the beginning of their ‘adult’ lives, and friends who have settled down and already have kids.

Yet here I am, the same age as all of them, stuck at his shitty job, starting school from square one in the fall and feeling more alone than I ever have before.

It makes me wish there would be this one singular moment where the world feels like it’s spinning the right direction again and also blindly hoping that the moment gets here soon.

[lestatfag]

STAY SAFE!! [ID: the Gilbert Baker pride flag with the words “Happy pride to all those who are unable to celebrate openly and safely. You are loved and seen!” in all-caps black text over it. /end ID]

[allergyriddenrat]

stay safe out there and remember: if you're not in a safe spot to come out, do not come out without a safe plan to get out of there asap ♥️

[amenomenory]

so relatable it hurts

[mayofetus]

[bloodonstraypapers]

This is such an underrated EP!

[whathappenedtothefaeries]

i hate midwest emo sometimes bc wtf do you mean tickets to a show are $10 AT THE DOOR but it’s in OKLAHOMA?? WHO TF LIVES IN OKHLAHOMA

WHY ARE THESE SHOWS DIRT CHEAP BUT ID HAVE TO FLY OUT TO MF IOWA… WHY WOULD ANYONE WANNA GO TO IOWA

[mobolover7-deactivated20251029]

If it's all the same, It's time to confront this face to face.

I'll be with you the whole way. It'll take time, that's fact.

[bloodonstraypapers]

Man. Can I wake up happy for once?!

Scratch that, I’m probably just being a melodramatic fucker

[bloodonstraypapers]

Growing up for me has been realizing that maybe you don’t get your happy ending.

Maybe it never happens or it passes you by

But maybe you can find a feeling of content in the happy endings of those around you, and that’s okay.

Being happy for others and not wallowing in the feelings of jealousy that they got their happy ending has been the biggest struggle for me, but it’s also been my greatest accomplishment