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i used to be able to look in the mirror and think, "gosh i do look darn cute" and maybe do a lil pose feeling all hyped and i miss that. i wish i had appreciated that experience while i still had it and now that it's gone i feel so so empty, and when it briefly reemerges on those rare good days my hopes are quickly dashed when I see the number on the scale

sknnygurl

i keep telling myself i won’t eat and then i do. it needs to stop. it will stop. if i did it once i can do it again. i will be skinny. i will be skinny.

butt3r3d-to4st

i remember back when i was like 105-107 lbs, my thoughts weren’t i’m so fat, i have to end this now. i had the regular body dysmorphia, but it was more like “i’m okay, but i won’t settle for okay”

now i’ve gained and i really, truly feel fat

i used to not be able to go a day without weighing myself, but now i have to force myself to do it once a week

i used to feel my ribs and hips jutting to the sky when i was lying down. now i just feel bloated.

i used to be happy and proud of how close i was to 100, how it felt like i could get there so soon. now it feels like it’s miles away

basically what i’m saying to myself is: never gain. it can still get worse. even if you feel fat now, you can still feel fatter. the only correct way is down

keeping-thin

Reblog this If: You’re ashamed of your weight Youve been called fat before You have thought of killing yourself You have self harmed You are trying to lose 10+ pounds

sadboihoursallthetime

I'm wearing oversized clothes because

A. I hate my body

B. I'm cold

C. I'm bloated

D. All of the above

coldbrewedaesthetic-blog

For anyone who needs it, this is your restart button

If you failed at anything (studying, a diet, etc) this is your new start. Right here is a cut and you will start over and achieve your goals!

lavender-miilk-deactivated20200

Me acting around people that I like the taste of pure unsweetened green tea and It isn’t, in fact, making me wanna end myself

lavender-miilk-deactivated20200

Any of y'all ever bought yourself a piece of clothing/an entire outfit and just yeeted it in the wardrobe, and from time to time you look at it and think

"Nay my child, Thy timeth hast not yet cometh"

skenotel

Me: hmmm I’ve been fasting for awhile maybe I’ve lost some weight!

Me: *takes off hoodie and baggy pants*

Me in the mirror:

tear-my-skin-off

lilithmaze1998

Being at a “normal” / healthy weight, with a healthy BMI is so weird. You’re not fat, but you’re not skinny either.

You have an eating disorder, but you invalidate yourself because you feel like you’re faking it since you’re not skinny enough to have a severe problem.

Feeling like a disgrace to the ana community which consists of beautiful skinny people - people you don’t belong among.

Feeling guilty for reblogging all these thinspo posts because your illness is not “real enough”.

Wondering why tf you’re ALWAYS cold when your body has plenty of fat to keep you warm.

Wondering why you feel dizzy when you skip another meal when your body l i t e r a l l y has enough stored energy to keep you “fed” for days.

Being in love with skinny jeans and oversized hoodies but they make you look fat and skinny at the same time somehow? How is that even possible???

Having your collar bones visible, but they’re not poking out of your skin enough, not the way they do on all these thinspo pics.

Feeling disgusted and ashamed to leave your house every time you get bloated, because, from a normal semi-flat stomach, you go to an 8-month-pregnant woman with twins.

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