"I'm sorry. I killed a spider.
I trapped him under a cup
And meant to slip some paper under
Take it outside and shake him off,
Free him.
But I forgot,
got distracted.
And when I saw the cup days later,
I realised what I had done.
I left it there for a month.
I didn't want to see him balled, warped little carcass,
The consequences of my distraction,
My lazinezz.
I don't kill bugs
it makes me feel guilty.
Just because I'm bigger doesn't mean I should get the final
Say, on a tiny life.
And when I forced myself to lift the cup after a month
I expected to see him curled, dead on the counter,
But there was nothing there.
So I turned it over;
And saw a ghostly silver web woven in the lip of the cup.
And the spider, resting, dead on top of it.
I sat and cried on the kitchen floor.
In his last moments,
He tried to make a home
Of the darkness I gave him.
@/cosima.333 on tiktok, The Spider Poem"
