The doctor, who knew a little more than I gave him credit for, had also suggested I should start taking walks. But there are two things I will never do, I would rather put a pistol to my head and pull the trigger, and they are: a) family therapy and b) walks. So, naturally enough, I didn't. What I did do, and it helped in an amazingly short time, was to start painting. I drove to Ystad, went into a painting shop and bought oils, canvas, thinner, brushes. I came home, sat down and painted. I have never done it before, I have only liked paintings, but now there I was, no idea what I was doing, no idea whether you could mix colours, no idea whether you could superimpose one layer over another, no idea what turpentine was for, but I didn't give a shit, to express myself in a way I don't really like, I am becoming more and more narrow-minded year by year, I just painted. And I became hooked. At the peak I painted eighteen hours a day. After only a week I began to feel better, and after two everything was fine again, at least as regards energy. Then I stopped, I didn't have the time, but ever since then I have thought I am going to do it, going to find time, because it is fantastically obsessive and challenging, and a very special feeling, seeing the colours in front of you, changing them, building with them in a way, layers and strata and contrasts and light - even if my paintings are a real mess. I have mentioned this to only a couple of friends and when they ask me what I paint, I have to tell them the truth, I paint exactly what a pensioner in Ćsterlen would, yellow corn, blue sky, perhaps a tree in the far distance, which is easier to do than a tree up close of course.
Home and Away: Writing the Beautiful Game by Karl Ove Knausgaard and Frederik Ekelund. Here we have Karl Ove in one short quote being a hilariously unreasonable ass about taking a walk, then fully embracing bad painting, in a book about soccer.