mind dump

Berusaha menuang setiap gelisah maupun asa yang melintas di benak.

[blueewaves]

everythings written out here is just purely reminder for my self, and please pray so i could do it for myself

[blueewaves]

i cant remember how i was so articulate in explaining and pouring my feelings into words, while now im just ranting and word vomitting everything

[blueewaves]

WHEEEEEEREEEEE ARE you 😞

[blueewaves]

barangkali cinta tak perlu dibayangkan dengan hanya hadirnya pasangan,

bisa jadi selama ini sudah melimpah ruah dikelilingi cinta, tetapi luput terlihat, karena tak sempat menyadari,

[banhmigoddess]

you don’t need to reinvent yourself this summer; you simply need to return to the things that make you feel most like you

[blueewaves]

2/06/2026

i feel my life keep resetting and i forgot how to do things

why i keep forgetting routines

its already 3 months in this new phase of living but i still havent truly figured out what suits best for me

I think i didnt carve time to ponder and evaluate whats going on with my life

Im truly grateful for decreasing workload that im able to breathe, laugh, scroll at my phone ( i never did this 6 months before, rarely responding chat in working hour or even looking at twitter or instagram)

I still dont know how to live healthy and structured... What does it mean to live comfortable life?

Im trying to read books and create something but the photoshop wont get set because i had to wait the admin to reply... Well maybe thats one thing better than yesterday, im trying to read books about graphic design fundamental

[mis6kkk]

your rizq might look different than others but it’s always there.

[stuckinapril]

[stuckinapril]

[blueewaves]

i still dont get it why some people hate others with no reason.... Agak triggering, dulu pernah dijauhin orang sekebon, tapi kalo dulu mah krn bocil otaknya blm jadi aja jadi iri-irian... Cm sekarang.. Oh gitu ya, yaudah sih sebenernya, cm kadang i cant bear walking with this person with nothing to talk or holding myself not to because im trying to make any convo and she just reply with most dry response ever, and some people just assuming us had a conflict... Im not the one that started it?????? I dont get it, things have been cleared, and the weird thing is, hal yg dia gasuka dr gue, dilakukan org lain kpd dia, and she totally fine with it??? Whats your actual problem??? yaallah gamauu lg disini boleh ngga diberi tempat yg lebih baik... Atau kalau emang blm skrg waktunya help me to find peace and fully detach with people' unpleasant actions towards me...

[blueewaves]

udah 3 bulan... Bener bener ngerasa capek karena lebih sering pulang malem

Pulang ke rumah cuma punya 1-2 jam untuk diri sendiri terus ketiduran

Yaallah capeknya :") gak tau kuat sampe kapan

Tapi makasih yaallah org org disini baik bgt meski pikiranku yg jahat sm diri sendiri

[blueewaves]

6 bulan, agar tetap waras akhirnya milih ngekos, mengurangi hari hari nangis di transportasi umum dan tatapan kosong + plenger kurang tidur... Semoga datang rezeki rezeki baik dan berkah lainnya

[blueewaves]

i have to learn how to hope not only cope

[blueewaves]

stop plenger baca brief plis😭

Sblm memulai segalanya baca basmalah lalu spare 5 menit memahami brief trs makesure chat manager dan atasan udh bener apa blm baru lanjut bekerja

Better overcommunicate n keliatan bloon drpd kerja berkali kali n lembur terus😞

#corporantlog

[blueewaves]

Berangkat lebih siang krn ngantuk dan yap ituh kereta beneran udh packed bgt gamau memejretkan diri plis😔

[blueewaves]

list prioritas:

-have a stable and bonafide job

-gaji 2 digit

-belajar naik motor n mobil

[blueewaves]

udah 3 bulan... Bener bener ngerasa capek karena lebih sering pulang malem

Pulang ke rumah cuma punya 1-2 jam untuk diri sendiri terus ketiduran

Yaallah capeknya :") gak tau kuat sampe kapan

Tapi makasih yaallah org org disini baik bgt meski pikiranku yg jahat sm diri sendiri

[blueewaves]

mungkin, mungkin ya,

Allah lagi pengen ngeliat aku usaha dulu,

cobalah tebar jala, post karya,

cobalah ketuk pintu, bertanya, terhubung,

cobalah buat karya,

sebelum nanti diberi kesempatan yang diimpikan, mungkin sedang ingin dilihat dulu, itu, mimpi yang ada dalam hati, ide, berbagai macam yang tidak kunjung direalisasikan,

Kalau semua itu belum diusahakan, barangkali mimpimu masih belum siap diberikan