Cold as Winter, Blunt as Reality

it is fate that brought you here.

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cigarette psychology

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PHOTOS YOU'VE TAKEN OF YOUR BOYFRIEND JUNGHWAN

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[blueheavenskisses]

Hi

It’s been a while since i opened this account. Wasn’t so sure if i still had access. let’s see.. well, I’m 24 in a month and in my last year of nursing school (hopefully). I’ve had many ups and downs. I’ve met good and bad people. I’ve made new friends and lost a few. 

I’ve also met this guy that I’m currently seeing - i think it’s been 3 months now since we started talking. He’s nice. He’s patient. but... I’m not really happy. He’s a good guy. At least that’s what I want to believe. When I get emotional, he calms me down - we don’t butt heads really - but i get this feeling that he doesn’t like me that much. Puzzles me why we still talk. I mean /I/ like him.. i like him enough to see where our relationship would go - but there’s this weird feeling i can’t brush. I don’t feel safe to open up to him anymore. I’m no longer comfortable. I feel like anytime, I’d go back to my old ways of bottling things up and distancing myself from this guy. I honestly never been okay - i just pretend. I don’t people to feel obligated of me. I am no one’s responsibility but my own - but sometimes... I just want someone to really see through me that I’m not okay. I just wish someone would stop ignoring me. I just wish that there would someone that would make me feel safe. REALLY SAFE - and not just at some random times and call it a day. I need someone consistent. I need someone who cares for me to get better....

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[blueheavenskisses]

it’s been a while

it’s been a while since i’ve opened my tumblr. I’ve always been looking for a place to express how i feel without having the fear of being judged. I am now 21 years old. when was the last time i opened my account? i cant remember but a lot has happened. Currently, i’m in an unknown place. I’m lost. I dont know what to do and i fear the reckoning of my own future. That’s it for today.

logging out xo

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anime_irl

[blueheavenskisses]

is tumblr still a thing? hmu if anyone can see this.

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Sangwoo and his many douchy smiles

[blueheavenskisses]

heard it was a kink

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Cemetery Junction (2010) - directed by  Ricky Gervais and Stephen Merchant