BUT STRONGER THAN SHE KNOWS.

ind. semi-selective rey , star wars sequel trilogy. muse and mun 18+. tracking 'bluesaber'.

[heavensghost]

[ehyri]

[violentwavesofemotion-deactivat]

I don’t know where you are, and where we are, only that we are part of each other.

Innokenty Annensky, tr. by Lubov Yakovleva, from “Petersburg,” c. 1902 (via violentwavesofemotion)

[rey-kryze]

INCORRECT STAR WARS QUOTES [3/?]

[andromaches]

[alannasroleplaymemes-moved]

Too Shy To Reach Out?

Send A Symbol To Explain Why We’re Not RPing Yet

♔- I can’t think of a plot for us and I want to figure that out first! ☃ - I’m not sure how our characters would meet. ☁- I’m worried you only RP with a certain group of people. ♛ - I wrote you a starter and you haven’t replied yet… ★ - I’m intimidated by how much you write ☂ - I’m intimdated by how often you post ☾ - I don’t know how to approach you ☄ - I’m super anxious about EVERYTHING ☀ - I keep hoping you’ll message me first…

[bluesaber-blog1]

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ID : WIFE * ( @bluesaber​ )

THERE WERE KIDS IN THE RESISTANCE. Ben has had some experience in looking after them although not a lot, he had a cousin who was seven years younger than him, he had looked after him when they were younger. They shared the same name. HE CAN’T PRETEND TO KNOW HOW TO BE A FATHER, but he knows that he would try & that’s all anyone can ask. He wants a family with her. He can tell that’s a difficult concept for Rey because she’s never experienced what being a family means.   SHE SPEAKS PLAINLY - AS SHE ALWAYS HAS. Ben has learned to recognise this now as now a command , but rather a certain truth & even a hope. His smile brightens, because it seems they are on the same page. They continue to dance, his mind racing ahead to the future but he knows it will be difficult. Nothing is certain. SHE BRINGS UP EXCELLENT POINTS. Conceiving naturally might be a difficult process, there was no certainty that they’d be able to & yet Ben knows they would love a child whether it was natural or adopted.      “Their are other options if we can’t conceive.” HIS VOICE IS SOFT, as he navigates this subject with Rey. His mother had been adopted by the Organa’s, they had been unable to have a child naturally, and Leia had become their entire world. HE’S BEEN TOLD THAT STORY OVER AND OVER, and held it close to him. Ben had later adopted Organa as part of his last name. Ben Organa - Solo. HE CAN SEE THE SMILE ON HER FACE WHEN SHE SPEAKS HOWEVER, and Ben feels proud, proud because she has opened herself up to hope, something that has not always been easy to her.             “                Really? i guess i’m going to have to prove that tonight.” He murmurs, smirking back.

would anyone trust her near their naturalborn child long enough to ALLOW that adoption ? rather than dash ben’s hope by QUESTIONING IT , she indulges in her happiness. it has been long-fought and hard-earned , AFTER ALL , and rey requires the practice in restoring her faith . clinging to BELIEF and JOY , rather than wiping it away , convinced it would quickly become an illusion . a trick of the mind . allowing herself so much FAITH had nearly broken her once , allowed for snoke to slip in through the cracks of her mind and corrupt her . she will not be made WEAK , or a PUPPET , again .

but she has missed out on much by guarding herself so VEHEMENTLY . she can see that now , just in examining ben . part of her MOURNS the future they might have had if luke had found her first . if she had been different . if she had never left JAKKU . but envisioning those shirked outcomes , wasted potential , is far too much for her to bear . 

❝  you are , ❞ she GRINS , an impish curve that carves itself into her mouth . but she becomes more serious a moment LATER as the band fades , an interlude into their next song .  ❝  you haven’t told me what you think . does that mean you want a family ? with me ? ❞

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ID : WIFE * ( @bluesaber​ )

HE HAS DESTROYED HER TRUST & HER HIS. They are both at fault although she seems less willing to concede. Ben cares enough about her that he will stop this in it’s tracks. He doesn’t want to spend their marriage fighting. AS ANGRY AS HE HAD BEEN AT HER ; he finds the reason that he is angry is because this wasn’t how he had envisioned having a future with Rey. He remembers standing in that throne room moments after the force had shown him a very different future.   Some would call him foolish - he was allowing her a chance to hurt him and she was supposed to be the enemy. DESPITE this truce, there was no trust between the resistance nor the first order but Ben hopes to establish that. Rey has , despite the way she’s gone about it, given them all a chance to survive and Ben thinks that was her way of proving how she felt about him. SHE EXPRESSES HOW SHE FEELS DIFFERENTLY, because she knows no other way. He’s slowly beginning to understand that what she views as romantic, he views as inappropriate.                          “I understand. I will not make you regret it.” A PROMISE. This was not like the vows that had been written for him. This would not be easy for either of them but he knows he has been too harsh on her, Rey was trying , in her own way. Ben needed to try too. When she gives him permission, he carefully with nimble fingers manages to unlace her dress, careful not to tear the fabric as she might of. HE’S CAREFUL, heart beating a little faster because this was knew territory, there was something intimate about it. Obsidian eyes find small & large scars, he has to stop himself from tracing them with his fingers, mind racing as to how she acquired then.

VICIOUSLY , she hopes it will tear , a mess of tattered fabric at her feet . as though ripping it from her might represent her LIBERATION from a marriage she feels she had no hand in creating , and the facade she has been forced to entertain before an audience . she looks nothing like HERSELF , peering back at her in the vanity mirror , but the fabricated supreme leader seems to slip away as he frees her from the constraining fabric . in its place , there is only rey .

her skin hasn’t lost its TAN , aglow with scattered freckles that coat her shoulders and splash across the entire CANVAS of her body . but she is more self-conscious of the fact that she has been built as a WEAPON . it’s written in how she holds herself , and every muscular , scarred line of her body . skin that has been damaged by snoke’s BURNS , blaster fire , and MORE . 

when the fabric pools at her feet and she steps out , rey TURNS with the expectation he’ll finally reveal his disgust , no longer able to endure pretending he ISN’T . but she finds nothing in his gaze but curiosity . her fingers go to her straps and slide beneath the SLIP she wears , but she decides against it , hovering . hesitating . SELF-CONSCIOUS , and hating herself for how weak she is in her reluctance . she shouldn’t care . she should take pride in being a weapon . but she only expects his DISAPPOINTMENT if he sees her as she is .

she swallows thickly , throat bobbing . ANXIOUS . she looks over him , eager to see that they’re both vulnerable so she no longer looks out of place . 

❝  it’s your turn . ❞ fingers find the edge of his uniform jacket , pushing it from his shoulders . and then she works on his tie , but her fingers pause at the buttons of his shirt , LOOKING to him for any signs of repulsion or unease . any sign he wants this to STOP . 

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[glowingangel]

me???? the jealous type ???? absolutely, yes

[arbutus-blossoms]

“Your mistrust of me hurts, Rey. And really, why wouldn’t I be curious about the newest recruit that seems so very eager to catch me?”

Prompt: Reylo AU where Rey is a newbie cop, and Kylo Ren is an ex-cop/detective-turned-crime lord. Based off the Fic by Kylo-Bae [x] I was inking Reylo artwork and I suddenly wanted to animate them in the rain during their first encounter-

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𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐔𝐄𝐃 𝐅𝐑𝐎𝐌 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄.

she might have been foolish enough to believe he had the audacity to CARE for her , if his string of questions didn't erupt from him like a relentless INTERROGATION . rey had to wonder if that was all this was : manufactured concern from a COP that just wanted to dig to the bottom of the mystery , and had no genuine interest in HELPING HER . everyone in this goddamn world only wanted to serve themselves . time with SNOKE had taught her that , watching as others nearly sold their souls for the power and prestige he could offer them .

for rey , she had merely wanted to BELONG , and a place and purpose for herself . he had been keen to EXPLOIT that desperation , all of that bottled rage at her ABANDONMENT and the neglect she had suffered , for his own sake . it had been a nest of VIPERS , and though she had escaped unscathed , they were catching up to her now. SLITHERING in the shadows , hoping to strike .

❝  no one can help me . ❞ it answers NOTHING and discloses no information . it would incriminate her , first and foremost , but that's a lesser priority than flip's SAFETY . in the short time she's known him , he has given the impression that he's a GOOD MAN with righteous ethics and a sense for justice . he doesn't deserve to be DRAGGED into a mess and made a target because of her , and rey can't believe anyone would see her as worth saving . neither would he , if he'd known all she had done .

❝  they're not going to kill me . they can't kill me if they can't find me . ❞ the implication was OBVIOUS . she intended to flee , and begin somewhere else . with a different name , MAYBE , to avoid her past catching up to her as it had now . ❝  you need to stay away from me . i'm not good for anyone . ❞ ESPECIALLY not flip .

                               @flipzimm.

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ID : REY * ( @bluesaber​ )

A WEAKENED SMILE IS OFFERED. Ben supposes he’s been so stuck inside of his head that he hasn’t noticed that she has been worrying to. Obsidian eyes lock upon her and his expression softened. “           Sorry, i’ve been so…” WORDS FAIL HIM. Ben takes a deep breath. Everything about this is all kinds of awkward. It wasn’t that the man was sheltered, it was more that he’d never really looked for a relationship. 

HE’S ALWAYS BEEN MORE FOCUSED ON HIS CAREER, on his doctors appointments, his therapy appointments. Everything else had taken priority. He tries to let her words instil some faith in her but it wasn’t that easy. “I know….we’re good cops….we know what we’re doing.” SOMETIMES THERE WERE MOMENTS WHEN HE QUESTIONED HIS OWN ABILITY, but never hers.  He sits down, deciding he’s not sure he likes this topic of conversation. Ben runs his fingers through his hair anxiously. FOR AS MUCH CONFIDENCE AS HE HAD AT WORK, it was behind closed doors he seemed to lose it. “No, i’ve never been married and i’ve never had time for a relationship.” The question seems rather personal, and he watches her carefully. “What about you?.”

no WIFE, no girlfriend . if he’s lonely in his solitude , he’s fooled HER . maybe they’re more alike than they thought , chasing satisfaction in their line of work ; if ben is fulfilled from his , unperturbed in returning to an empty HOME , however . . . she’s envious of his fortune , in that regard . 

nevertheless, RELIEF floods her . without a spouse, no one can accuse her of standing in the way of their marriage , SPLITTING UP a family for the sake of a charade to capture a criminal .that’s all it is , she convinces herself . she’s only being practical && considerate of comfort levels . 

his lack of experience still presents a CHALLENGE . her own is minimal , comparatively . with no frame of reference to follow and guide them through , like a makeshift manual for how to go about interacting && touching one another like a COUPLE , they’ll have to wing it entirely . but as ben has stated , they’re good cops. PROFESSIONAL , to boot. shouldn’t this be a simple feat ? 

it isn’t , as it turns out. she’s worked rougher jobs and come out worse for wear , but HERE SHE IS , hands going clammy as she rubs them on her knees.  ❝  does high school count ? ❞ she JESTS , trying to lighten the atmosphere around them . she && finn had TRIED , but the spark hadn’t been present , and he had found poe not long after . as DELIGHTED as she was , nothing less than supportive of her best friend’s happiness , she couldn’t help but admire their relationship . GROW JEALOUS over it , wishing she had anyone that would devote themselves to her as POE had done with finn . 

snapping herself out of those thoughts , she TENTATIVELY reaches out for him , but stops before she can take his hand . let him come to HER when he’s ready .  ❝  neither one of us knows what to do . we should practice . ❞ she LOOKS at his fingers then , and waggles her own .  ❝  can i ? is that okay ?❞ her fingers then brush HIS , but don’t dare to grab his hand without an invitation . 

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flipzimm‌:

ID : STRANGER * ( @bluesaber​ )

   HE’S INCLINED TO AGREE WITH HER ; but truthfully Flip had just wanted to get away from his own thoughts which were a swirling tornado at this point. Drinking in the dark wasn’t going to cut it this time hence why he was here. This wasn’t his first time here, he’d known it was very unlikely he’d find peace but hey, he could at least arrest someone for being drunk and disorderly if he felt really pushed.WAS HE REALLY GONNA BE THAT ASSHOLE?. He contemplates all of this as he stares in to space. It actually then occurs to him that he’s being spoken to. Wasn’t that what he’d wanted? a distraction from his thoughts?.    Almost as if sensing his thoughts, Maz peers at him from behind the bar. “You better behave yourself Zimmerman, my clientele don’t come here to be arrested              you know how much i hate having cops in here.” Her voice is low but the look she gives him is meaningful. “Relax, i’m just in here for a drink.” HE’D KEEP HIS BADGE TO HIMSELF. Unless he was pushed. His attention however is refocused on the young woman beside him. This in all honesty looks like the last place anyone would come to for a good time but Flip knows it’s designed that way TO keep the straight and narrow out.                       “See i knew that, yet i still came here.” The cop admits, somewhat amused by himself. Maybe he just likes the ambience. Yeah that’s it. A glass is pushed towards him and the cop frowns ; first of all he knows better than to just drink from somebody else’s glass. That was how you got yourself fucking roofied. BUT THEN AGAIN, he doubts Maz was going to let someone do that in her bar, she might not look like much but he’s seen her kick ass when needed. HE WEIGHS THE PRO’S AND CONS and decides rather recklessly that his night cannot get any worse. She turns away from him but he finds himself asking a question when he had an out for returning to silence.                             “Thanks              but why? seems to me you’ve got your own troubles.” SHE DOESN’T EXACTLY LOOK LIKE SHE’S HAVING A GOOD TIME, Flip wonders if she’s trying to run away too.

THIS NEAR TO HIM , maz’s stern warning doesn’t go unheard by rey’s sharp ears . a COP . snoke would have ushered her close to this stranger , once , were she still in her former employer’s grasp . insisted his cooperation might prove paramount in his next concocted scheme , using what pawns he could to manipulate the board and watch the pieces fall as his ambitions demanded . but she’s no longer that WOMAN , spinning webs around those that seem useful , intimidating those that think to STAND IN THE WAY of her objectives . a life built on lies and deceit had proven too cold , hollow and swallowing her in loneliness . 

she refuses to impart that knowledge on a stranger . without any foundation of trust , she’s unnerved at the prospect of sharing her secrets . he would judge her as DISGUSTING , tainted for the role she had played in underhanded politics . ANYONE would . a deserved criticism , for all that she’s done .

              in the end , she knows she has brought her solitude upon HERSELF . it’s the karmic punishment she        deserves , and that belief and her refusal to remain in one place long enough to dare to form connections has ensured she has remained a SOLITARY creature .

❝ drinking isn't going to solve my problems . ❞ and when she reflects on her own parents , how they had tried to trade her for their next hit and a vehicle , it becomes a less appetizing prospect .  ❝ nothing can . ❞

though she recognized it was OMINOUS , she made no move to clarify for him . the tight-lipped expression that formed appeared more like a grimace than the smile she had intended for it to become to direct them away from a conversation too heavy and UNCOMFORTABLE for her tastes . 

❝ besides , i prefer human company. not the kind that comes out of a bottle . ❞

[bluesaber-blog1]

hi guys!! i still have a cold; sorry i’ve been so slow. i should be around tonight or tomorrow to get caught up on asks and drafts. love you all  ❤️

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if you ever wanna ship with me just come to my ask and be like “listen dick face we bout to fuck shit up with a ship ok.”

[kyloren]

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