Blue the dead girl

| he/him/she | personal account, some occational fandom posts, 18+ | 21 | active july 2026 | taken🔒 |

[bluethedeadgirl]

[bluethedeadgirl]

Also gonna binge x files and twin peaks when I get home bc it's basically autumn

Also gonna keep working on decorating my house

Also also gonna get stable income so I don't go insane

[bluethedeadgirl]

On vacation with my wife and I love it so muchhhhh

[bluethedeadgirl]

Privating my account for the forseeable future 🙃

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[ghouls-on-film]

[bluethedeadgirl]

Speedrunning all my wisdom teeth coming in

[bluethedeadgirl]

I have a few things I'm glad I'm doing better with :)

I no longer carry sc1ss0rs on walks in case someone tries to get me

I can walk past roads

I can recognize signs of some episodes and actually warn people close to me

I can somewhat handle myself when it comes to things I need to avoid

These are a just few of the issues I started dealing with at around 18-19.

[bluethedeadgirl]

I have a few things I'm glad I'm doing better with :)

I no longer carry sc1ss0rs on walks in case someone tries to get me

I can walk past roads

I can recognize signs of some episodes and actually warn people close to me

I can somewhat handle myself when it comes to things I need to avoid

These are a just few of the issues I started dealing with at around 18-19.

[bluethedeadgirl]

I'm proud of myself for finally blocking the religous ads I had been getting.

I know it was something i had to do and I did it :)

[bluethedeadgirl]

I overdid it and walked around the house too much<\3(been pretty okay these past few days so???)

Anyways nauseous in bed rn<\3

[byjove]

There was a trend in the 40s and 50s (not sure if it predates that or if there are places that still do it) where you could get your child’s baby shoes cast in bronze or dipped in bronze and use them as keepsakes or have them mounted as bookends. Better than the resin slop of the modern day in my opinion. My great grandma had my grandpa’s baby shoes made into bookends ends because she loved him very much and he was her only child and it is honestly really cute. My mom got her dad’s baby shoe bookends when she moved out and they were in my living room my entire childhood, she had explained how they were grandpa’s shoes covered in bronze and I thought that was cool.

Then I went to an art museum and saw bronze busts of people and my tiny child brain thought the person’s dismembered head and shoulders were in there…

[bluethedeadgirl]

Reached my lowest point in self isolation

I svck at conversation💀

[bluethedeadgirl]

I'm going to be okay. I know it.

But I told my mom my tells just in case so she knows when to get me away from crowds, people all that

(Ty mom🙏)

[bluethedeadgirl]

Sometimes I'm genuinly confused how I got like this

I don't know much family history but surely I'd know if there was someone in the family like me?

I don't know how or what. It just happened. I was fine, then depressed, then all of a sudden i just started turning into who i am now. I know it's not anxiety. I mean probably some anxiety because constant paranoia about plotting and mind reading will do that to you. But it's not just anxiety.

Idk why I'm ranting on here. I'm confused and scared I guess. I don't really get help with it. Not for lack of trying. I have tried. Really REALLY hard. It's just not happening.

I think my family is confused too. I know they are. Because why am I on this spectrum? My sister kinda gets it. Not really. But WAY better than anyone else.

She has pretty severe OCD, I have autism and stpd. So there's some overlap, which is nice in a way. Because we get eachother.

[bluethedeadgirl]

Reread my diagnosis

Not stpd just schizo-typ

Welp.

[bluethedeadgirl]

I'm just going to relax for the night because my brain is going 1000km an hour and it’s deeply disturbing

[bluethedeadgirl]

I'm fine but also not because I'm about to be without income. Because my piece of sh1t doctor decided to go into psych insead of just k himself like he should've😋