a Soul in a Hospital

Haiiii. This is my little dump and literal trash fire.

[blumenkranz-soiree]

I really wanted to start posting here earlier (at the start of 2024 exactly, even if we take into account that I have made this blog earlier), but my tumblr is kinda broken (it doesn't seem to show my pictures from gallery and that makes me sad, because I wanted to make this an art blog), so I will be venting here sooo yeah.... I hope you find it relatable I'm a way. And my pfp i made myself so yeah, I can draw but can't show what I can do. Anyway, you're welcome here!!!

[highball66]

Hello king you can elaborate on DMC being gay? I'm so intrigued like yeah I fucking need that

Honestly, its just vibes and my personal opinion like if I had to pick the gayest Capcom IP, it would be DMC with RE coming in second place. I think a lot of this is due to the most fantastical elements of DMC that often lends to some very campy moments.

Some of the character's stories also overlap with the queer experience too-- likely not intentionally on the writer's part, but its something queer people can relate to regardless. Like Nero canonically has a shitton of religious trauma because he was raised in what was essentially the Vatican, forced to become a child solider as a result, but he was consistently othered and ostracized because he was labeled as "different." So his whole story in DMC4 is about a boy who doesn't fit in, who gets labeled a monster, who feels like no one will ever love him for who he is, and to top it all off he has a demon arm that he literally has to hide from people and he lies and says he has a broken arm to cover it up. Its similar vibes to a queer person raised in a religious cult/family forced to conceal their queerness but always being treated as "different" regardless.

And its similar with Dante too-- there's a whole episode from the canon 2007 anime where Dante is "outed" as a demon hybrid and his childhood friend turns on him as a result before coming around to the idea. Dante doesn't have the religious trauma component like Nero but he's got the same sense of being othered/treated differently for being a demon hybrid.

But even apart from themes and queer people being able to relate to these stories, the franchise is just very campy. Dante is rather flamboyant (and gets described as such in the DMC1 novel!!!), a lot of the cutscenes are very big and dramatic, the action is often over-the-top at times, etc. And camp is very heavily associated with queerness due to its conception, so thus I say the DMC franchise just feels very gay to me. It also doesn't help that the fandom is rather queer too-- I was held at gun point and forced to open Reddit (trying to solve a technical error w/ one of the games and though I loathe the platform as the fandom subs are often cesspools of bigotry, they do often have good solutions to technical problems) and the DMC sub seems... surprisingly chill? More so than I think just about every other gaming sub I've visited. The bar is a tripping hazard in hell, but I was surprised by the amount of comments that were mentioning headcanoning Dante as bi or Vergil as gay and everyone was just kinda like yeah I mean probably.

Oh and I almost forgot to mention the cherry on top: at one point, Capcom got the bright idea to attempt to "reboot" the franchise so they partnered with this other developer to make DmC and the premise of the game that they prepared an entire presentation for and gave at a fucking event was quite literally "we want to make a game where Dante isn't a gay cowboy" and then they showed the audience pictures of fucking Brokeback Mountain-- yes you did read that correctly, and yes the term 'gay cowboy' was actually used. So I feel like the existence of a game where the concept was "we try to make Dante straight" therefore implies the original DMC games are queer. And then have the design notes for the male main characters is shit like "we wanted to make him so pretty everyone thought he was a girl" or describing the characters as androgynous or flamboyant and shit in the novels like alright Capcom... we get it. Needless to say the attempt at the reboot crashed and burned and the 5th game went back to the campy gay roots and gave Dante a cowboy hat and there is an entire cutscene dedicated to him putting on said cowboy hat and doing a Michael Jackson dance for no other reason than because they could lmfao.

Anyway, they should just let the DMC characters out of the closet because the closet is glass at this point. Dante is bi, Lady's a lesbian, Trish is bi or pan, Nero's bi, Vergil's gay and probably some flavor of trans too if we're behind honest, Nico is canonically queer and probably a lesbian specifically... they're all queer, I know this in my heart.

[blumenkranz-soiree]

I'm buffled abd and I need to recollect my thoughts.

It's insane and not in a good way. Maybe I'll explain it later, maybe not. But.

I'm gonna drink myself for a bit.

[enushi-gengetsu]

アーカードの旦那とIKEAのサメシリーズ、長らく描いていないのに好きだと言ってくれる方がいらして嬉しいです。

そのうちまた描きます🦈

I haven't been able to draw Alucard and Blahaj's collections for a long time, but I'm happy that there are people who say they like them!

I'll be drawing more illustrations for this series!🦈

[blumenkranz-soiree]

I love idea of Leon being a big spoon and Dante is a small spoon. Like. Dante is hella big, he's taller than Leon, he's broader, but he's such a little spoon. He loves to be hugged but for most of times he couldn't even tell the truth to anyone. Sometimes he tries to be a big spoon, but only if Leon asks him too. And Leon is content with being like this. He likes to be a guard dog of Dante's sleep.

[blumenkranz-soiree]

today years old i realised that i never unlearned my suicidal thinking

i never imagine future with people that i meet. i never have any plans. i still feel dead. or like i am going to die very soon really soon. i don't care about people, i feel completely shut off. i never bother to compete with anyone or to try to support any meaningful connection. i let go people easily. i don't help them significantly either. when i was suicidal actively i tried reassure everyone that their live was valuable. now i don't. i actively autodestruct be it sabotaging myself in every little and meaningful way or doing something that hurts me to eve fathom. i am confident that no one will ever love me and no one will bother with helping me.

i didn't change it for years of fighting and i don't know how to really change it

i feel horrifyingly unhuman. how could i not be?

[blumenkranz-soiree]

i'm plagued by feeling that no matter i'm going to do i forever will feel inadequate excluded and filthy. i feel so filfthy. i feel genuinely disgusting and disgusted. i feel particulary rotten. i feel hollow and rotten. not even rotting but already done and dry rotten organics. i feel horrifyingly unhuman and inhuman.

and despite knowing this feeling for a very long time. everytime i am in horror of my deep prophanity and blasphemy. i can't explain this. it is what it is.

[blumenkranz-soiree]

i want to share my crp characters headcanons but...

they're too explicit. and with the state of fragility that we're in i'm scared to death to be accused of something like i love my beautiful awful traumatised children and i will kill for them but i love writing them realistically eith all the bloody details not for the edginess' sake but because me myself i have some fucking awful experiences that fuel these headcanons but i'm scared of people here and tumblr is the safest option other socials are just too crazyyyyyy this one is better and even here i'm scared gulp i'll guess i'll die

[multiversetenn-creepypasta]

MY MOTHER SAID I COULD BE ANYTHING

SO I BECAME JEFF THE KILLER

[blumenkranz-soiree]

not that i am okay exams are knocking on my door and yeah i have to complete my 19i9837534048 assignments and i don't have time but i will do it regardless because my sheer mental illness has brought me to uni and has walked me trough

i wish sometimes that i wasn't balancing on a tight rope between being hospitalised and losing my scholarship and on the other side of the abyss is just dropping out kinda not having any access because of the invisibility of my mental disabilities sucks so much to be honest because i need to compete with people who aren´t disabled as i am and sometimes they even mock me but fuck it we ball fuck it we ball i present myself as kinda awkward strange but well spirited fellow a little bit strange and unusualsomething about me is off-key but still profs find me kinda inspired and engaged the fucking show of masking every mental illness that i have developed is a skill by itself but after the exam era i will cry for month an d a half straight isolated in my own room except for maybe doing mandatary work but that´s all being invisible sucks i spiral so much chat fuck it we ball

[blumenkranz-soiree]

my hot take based on vibes

alexander anderson is kinda judge angels if she were utilised by the fandom AND ON STEROIDS🗣️🔥🗣️🔥🗣️🔥🗣️🔥🗣️🔥and maybe t but i see the vision i've connected two dots i didn't connect shit

[crp-confessions]

Here are some hot takes...

Most of the Slenderverse are just remakes of the big three, not even making unique things. Only in recent years we have seen diferent stuff, but once you see MH, TT or EMH, you kind of see them all. And most of the time aren't even that good.

Zalgo being reduced to a demon like creature with cults and a mythology reduced his concept in such a brutal way... less is better.

Same with Slenderman. The first two images are the remembered because the rest is just an overpowered monster. Again, less is better. Too many habilities make him look lile an omnipotent god.

Creepys like Jeff, E Jack, Jane or Toby aren't really bad stories, but they are so badly written that affects everything on it, making them look like dumb slasher killers.

That being said, we gave too much credit to what were initially Self Insert OCs.

You like it or not, the unfortunaly Slenderman Stabbing incident made the character an atemporal and culturaly important character. To the point that even people outside the internet knew about him.

The proxies are actually a cool concept for making OCs. The killers felt like repetitive and low polished Jeffs, but the lack of identity in proxies are kind of the point when we see how Slenderman is suposed to act with them. They are now puppets.

Any Creepypasta character creator have to face the fact that they will not have control on how the character is gonna be in the community. The lack of canon could be helpful or damaging to it, but it is inevitable. So if someone gets angry because of that, just keep with your own version and that's it. Deal with it.

Charlie's story in Slender the Arrival took too much space in the final game that I'm still even surprised the devs didn't just expanded on the original cast instead of taking over 80% of the game with a new story.

Slenderman should not have tentacles in the literal sense. He is not an octopus or Venom, it works better if the extra limbs are variable, like if someone have diferent interpretations on what they are seeing. Tentacles, branches, spider legs, extra arms, you name it.

Jeff's remakes of him being deformed are trying too hard. I know it's imposible to have white skin after a burn with flames, but have you consider Skin transplant?

It is fair if you wanna put Masky and Hoodie as proxies. After all, they were the ones who started all. What I don't like it's when proxies are too powerful, like Revenant, Redlight or Collective type of proxy. They are slaves.

Most of the creepypastas on the internet aren't even creepypastas. They are just horror stories that could be published anywere and are only famous because they were on the internet. I think a hood Creepypasta is that one who uses the internet format as part of it, like, you can't tell this story without the internet. Examples: Ted the Caver or Seed Eaters.

The Creepypastas without a concrete author and being 90% made by the comunity and popular perception could enter this format too, like The Rake, Slender, or heck even Jeff at some extension, Sesseur have nothing to do with the current state of the character.

People like it or not, but the fact that some went angry because the 2018 Slender movie didn't portrayed him good just shows that the statement of "Being a character that you can use whatever you like" is false, because we know now how to use Slenderman at his finnest, what are his limits in storytelling and what to do with him. Having him being an ancient god, eating organs or ripping limbs off, showing feelings, or heck, even being able to be defeated, just feels wrong. Parodies aren't included on this because those are meant to mock on the concept.

You can see the diference with some characters that are well fitted on this abstract concept, like the King in Yellow.

[toothwormfactory]

The cage!

[highball66]

RCS Leaves Scars?

RE9 Spoilers//

Interestingly enough, it looks like even with the cure, Elpis may leave behind some scars. It makes sense given that the RCS virus seemed to "eat" the skin and leave behind the black bruise-like marks. You can see it more easily on the models themselves but the "bruises" aren't just surface level, they're divots in the skin.

I'm not certain how permanent the scars will be, but Leon's seemingly going to have scars all over him after being cured. The same marks are visible on Zeno's face as well, and then you can see where the scars are left behind on Leon's hand. But given that Leon's infection was seemingly a lot more advanced than Zeno's... Leon probably going to be covered in scars, especially on his neck since not only will he have the scar from where Viktor cut him, but from the extent of the infection there as well. It looks hard to find on Leon's neck since we don't get any good neck shots after he gets cured and he's covered in so much blood and shit by that point anyway I'm not sure we'd even be able to see it.

[connectionterminated13]

"Go to sleep? I think you're the one who really needs some beauty rest." *Backflip kick's him to death*

[blumenkranz-soiree]

Not gonna lie it hurts to live in constant and perpetual awareness that you are different and that makes you ill in a way but like chronically ill. And the knowledge is sadness.

I am aware of myself and others but do i need it

[blumenkranz-soiree]

jacob frye is kinda autistic is my hill which I will die on

No further explanations .