EVIL bluudud

https://bluujob.straw.page

[bluujob]

“HEY ITS ME!!”

— — ☆ bluudud / sora , he / it / bluu , bodily 18 . more under the cut !!

im a fictive in a system, so if that weirds you out idk how to help you. like i said above, we r bodily 18 so be as weird to me as you want :P

im a darkship freak and a HUUUGE bluuguest fan!! if you like bluuguest pls interact

tagging system: #☆ .. livestream of consciousness (talking tag), #☆ .. donations (ask tag), #☆ .. bluujobs art (art tag, duh), #☆ .. fanboying (yumeship posting)

my strawpage is linked in the blog description, but you can also go here to access it ^_^

DNI: antis and those who also yumeship with guest1337 (nothing personal im just possessive)

USERBOXES!!! (ALL MADE BY ME)

[everybody-hates-griefer]

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[bluujob]

send things to my strawpage i BEG

[bluujob]

why is everyone liking my post about missing my boyfriend wha

[bluujob]

made a sideblog im gonna coin and reblog terms/ids on

@transfamousstreamer

[seraphour]

funniest anti in the comments.

😐

[i-got-a-penis-yall]

TRANS PEOPLE CONSIDERING SURGERY- READ THIS PLEASE GENUINELY I AM BEGGING YOU IT COULD SAVE YOUR LIFE

If you are getting gender affirming surgery, especially if it’s your first major surgery, PLEASE be aware that you can become SEVERELY depressed afterwards ESPECIALLY if you have a history of depression or suicidal ideation.

Post op depression is a natural reaction to the crazy mix of hormones your body goes through after major surgery as well as the stress and anxiety of recovery. Think of it like an adrenaline crash, but dragged out longer.

For me it kicked in about 6 weeks after top surgery and the worst of it lasted until about 10 weeks post op. EVERYTHING felt IMPOSSIBLE. None of the skills I’d been practicing worked. I thought everything was going to be bad forever. I didn’t attempt, but I was in the hospital. If it wasn’t for my support system I probably would have attempted.

This is not regret, but it can feel like it. I remain happy about my results to this day (going on six years later).

This is not you failing to maintain your mental health, but it can make you feel like a failure.

Things are not hopeless, but through the haze of this depression they can feel hopeless.

It can be terrifyingly sudden or it can sneak up on you. I didn’t even realize what was going on until after the depression finally passed and my mental health went back to normal.

I am writing this post because nobody told me about this before my top surgery. I was caught completely off guard. For my subsequent surgeries being aware has made all the difference. Being able to treat those symptoms as an expected and normal part of the healing journey has made them far easier to deal with. Because even when my emotions go to dark places I *know* they will pass. I have been able to tell the bad thoughts to take a bad seat and focus on healing.

PLEASE have a plan in place for if this happens. I know that this topic is taboo because of how often our mental health is weaponized against us, but I desperately want every single person getting gender affirming surgery to be aware of, and have a plan for post operative depression.

[bluujob]

i fucking love stalking people’s blogs so much

[bluujob]

i miss my boyfriend hhnggh

[permapapyrus]

SAME!!! WHERES MY SANS I MISS HIM SO MUCH!!! ITS BEEN 9 DAYS SINCE HE INTERACTED WITH MY POSTS!!!

[bluujob]

pats your shoulder… we will get thru this!!!!!!

[pandemiharmful]

r you ever abusively attracted to someone

likee… u arent romantically or sexually attracted to them but you do want to abuse/be abused by them??

even if sexual thoughts are involved, they are primarily in the context of abuse? does this make sense?

[brainsanalysis-deactivated20210]

Hello please reblog this if you’re okay with people sending you random asks to get to know you better

[bluujob]

incest yap below the cut

an incestuous relationship conceptually sounds lovely to me but… i only have a mom, tho im not into women. so that doesnt work out. i do have ck in the system and we are kinda like brothers… we share a room and everything… i think i could corrupt him pretty easily, hes very malleable, but i also just find him very annoying. so that doesnt really work out as a first choice option either, maybe as a last resort. n7 could be an option if i considered him a stepdad of sorts, but i dont, so thats outta the question. #WHATDOIDO

only sort of related but i love the trope (idk if ive seen it anywhere but im calling it a trope anyway!) where my mom facilitates a relationship between me n guest… ultimately hes my true love and nobody can come between that no matter how hard they try despite my want for anything even close to incestuous. i mean, he COULD pose as a father figure to me if i wanted him to… idk if hed be okay with that tho, it took a bit of coaxing for us to be in a relationship (that everyone in both our systems disapprove of) anyway so…

eh idk what else to say, that concludes my yappage for now

[bluujob]

i miss my boyfriend hhnggh

[seraphour]

ts frying me

[bluujob]

strapwgae

[labqueer]

I heard someone called Disney channel, Cartoon Network, and Nickelodeon "the big three" in terms of cartoon channels and it reminded me of the big three paras. So. Uhm.

F2u obviously, but please credit me if you repost them anywhere.

:3

I struggled a little bit with CN because I didn't have much to work with-

Edit: I made this version.

[bluujob]

transfamousstreamer

def: “ a transid in which one identifies as a streamer in a trans way, or wants to transition into a streamer ”

this was made with myself in mind (which is why its blue lol), but anyone can use it! if this id already exists, consider this an alt flag ig idk