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coiner of translockdown ; radqueer ; pandemic manifester. im problematic , deal with it ! пока-пока :3

[pandemiharmful]

меня зовут настя ᵎᵎ ૮ ․ ․ ྀིა

my name is nástja !!

1200 , radqueer coiner.

frill / vix / hy , permasick , permatween , permamanic , permalockdown , pandemiharmful , hEDS , FND , gastroparesis , cane user , crutch user , rollator user , wheelchair user , autistic , ADHD , BPD , NPD , HPD , ASPD , schizoaffective bipolar , slovene , russian , stalked , stalker , etc.

schrödingers identities , could be trans , could be cis . up for you to decide ;3

i was radfleur (still up, joined as a troll but eventually felt at home in the community.) , cultmaxxing , translockdown , permalockdown , and am now pandemiharmful :-)

i coined a lot of labels, but the big ones i coined were translockdown , permalockdown , circumlockdown , and pandemiharmful .

[nekochuuya]

How it feels being transwhite instead of transjapanese or transblack

[pandemiharmful]

i love you guys so much.

genuinely.

this is the only community that doesnt tell me who i have to be. especially in regards to my own mental health. everyone understands what its like to be sick here.

тебе люблю))

[pandemiharmful]

you know about hantavirus? seems like it's slowly getting worse and worse, any hope it could turn into a full-blown pandemic? -💙🎮

i actually dont think hantavirus will cause anything, and any hope is just fearmongering.

ive studied up on the virological components of hantavirus, but in short, there are a few reasons it isnt optimized for pandemic potential.

the way it replicates isnt optimized (it's a -ssRNA virus, +ssRNA viruses replicate faster.)

transmission requires sustained contact with the infected individual.

its TOO deadly. viruses with a 1-5% mortality rate are in the sweet spot, as any higher will usually result in the virus killing itself out. the best example i have for this is COVID vs. SARS, which are the same species of virus (SARS-CoV) and share 80% of their genome. SARS had a mortality rate of 10-15%, which meant with human involvement, it could easily be contained. COVID has a mortality rate of 1%, meaning its much harder to contain.

its not novel!! we know too much about it, meaning we know how to contain it.

unfortunately, we wont know about a virus outbreak until its too late.

[pandemiharmful]

were you the one that had a translockdown manifesting discord server ages ago?

perchance... (yes)

[pandemiharmful]

ngl i'm really glad you're back. (or at least semi-back?) you helped us realize we're permalockdown and your blog like helps us with our feelings of dysphoria in that regard so greatly. just do be safe going on/off your meds, it'd suck if we lost a prophet like you.

thank you for this :-) im actually working on a new subliminal where i focus on paragraph-style affirmations! i'm currently majoring in public health, so i've learned a LOT more

[pandemiharmful]

maniamaxxing so hard i consider taking my medication “t breaks” (i only take my meds when im depressed and even then its for two weeks MAXIMUM)

[pandemiharmful]

i feel a (hypo)manic episode coming on yay! ^_^

[pandemiharmful]

i wana be someones creepy older sister

i also wana be someones oblivious younger sister

i also wana be someones perverted little sister

teehe

[pandemiharmful]

PLEASE put perverted things in my asks i rlly want to read them rn

im so high

[masoboyy]

please be extremely perverted and creepy in my asks idc how bad it is i wanna know every bit of it hehe!!!

[pandemiharmful]

How do you trigger mania? /gq

do drugs

be extremely stressed

major life events

lack of sleep

high energy environments

so yes enough asks (especially anon asks) could stress me into mania /gen

[pandemiharmful]

do you still want mania triggering asks… i wanted to ask jic

yes!!

[pandemiharmful]

i turn extra proship when im high

[pandemiharmful]

getting diagnosed with bipolar made me so happy. even during my manic episode, all i could think of was how happy i was to be like that.

i love my mania.

i love my depression.

i love being sick.

[dissociative-drugs]

As a schizophrenic that looks terrifying hallucinations in the face and still thinks "hell yeah I'm schizo and that's cool asf" BASEDDDDDD and I'm so happy for you!!!

[pandemiharmful]

for me i experience less hallucinations and more delusions and grandiose thinking so its not even that scary for me ^_^

im glad to see other “crazy” people happy that they are!!

[pandemiharmful]

ABUSIVE ATTRACTION

attraction formed by the desire to enter an abusive relationship with a specific person. applies to both desires of abuse: abuser and abused.

does not necessarily have to overlap with romantic or sexual attraction, as the implication of any romance or sexuality is that stemming from abuse.

[pandemiharmful]

r you ever abusively attracted to someone

likee… u arent romantically or sexually attracted to them but you do want to abuse/be abused by them??

even if sexual thoughts are involved, they are primarily in the context of abuse? does this make sense?