yellow-tan all mixed everything

daily output blog • some kinda non conforming type • "they" bc i contain fucking multitudes • tired of english / seeing myself through westernized-ness • tail end of 18-24 age bracket • primary/aux blog to alexispadrigalim.tumblr.com

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playing w color channels before work

experimental (intimate?) (private?) (self?) portraits

and shooting the space between, as always

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experiments in visually ~capturing~* liminality

*as much as anything can be captured, seen, remembered whatever whatever etc etc everything only happens once 

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here there and everywhere

look at empty lots and what’s behind around near them, cos pretty soon they’re gonna be filled

gaps ‘ren’t all rotten teeth

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thinking about wtf to do with / in places i have fondness for but will never claim / see me and if that’s something i want anyway or what

unreciprocated feelings about place? 

#1001%diasporicpostteenangst continues

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indoor kinda day today, what with it hailing and sleet sleeting and all kindsa NE wintry mix shit

photo from the room i am visiting away from, back when it was dry hot 

trying to get back in a rhythm of posting

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pamilia

tricycle

thinking about the nerdua “love is so short, forgetting is so long”

but more like, being together is so short, but life and knowing each other is so long

autumnal longing / nesting like thinking about everything and everyone i miss

these short days and long nights are too internal / indoor

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nesting

even my room looks queer

#boithings

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almost what i wanted to shoot. not quite there yet, but idk, might be i just need to shoot it with a full frame. been trying for months haha

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some beautiful morning light and line(-)age 

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where i am in life

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pee en dub shit like rolling out of my room with the daylight-end, looking at dark trees and dark-rich colors

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"time of day” one of my profs always used to say

it’s that time of year, short days, watching late sunrises and early sunsets

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being in one of those noisy planes over the narrow bit of south seattle

in #1 i can see the house i’m living in! hahaha

#2 they’re doing some sort of cheasty construction in cheasty

#3 bridges! no tilt shift, just airplane window pane

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a little while ago on the stolen cali coast, near some dunes and deep friends -heavy ass warbling wobbly body bowel vibrating bass hits-

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feelings like - damn, being ~s.a.d.~ AND cold is fucking bullshit. winter is isolating af #diasporicTeenAngst #historicalClimateChangedDiaspora

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feelings or wjatever