my reasons for my self destruction
tw: ed
looking thin
looking fragile
looking delicate
looking like if you breath wrong i will shatter into a million pieces
looking sickly
being the lightest in the room
being the smallest size
"are you okay?"
"you need to eat."
"is there anything i can do?"
self-punishment bc i feel inadiquate
self-harm because i feel depressed
bodychecking helps my anxiety and i like feeling my bones
being the most important child
getting the attention that i miss
being the one my sister has to walk around on eggshells with
instead of the other way around
being thinner than my sister
being prettier than my sister
being better than my sister (i hav sister issues if u couldnt tell)
having real world responsibilities postponed
not having to be a "woman"
being tossed around like a doll
being as pretty as a doll
sitting on peoples laps
being the thin friend
being the skinny sister
always sitting in the middle because im the smallest
to hav something important abt me, to be something
skinny privlage
wearing my hobo clothes and looking good even still
to be cold all the time
to hav people giv me their hoodies bc im always cold
to hav friends that are nice and dont treat me like a therapist bc i obviously cant handle it
to get attention from guys
to get attention from girls
halo effect
bones<3
ugh 😩🩷
