I’m writing this because I was laying in bed at my grandma’s house thinking about how much I didn’t want to go back to my shitty job. They don’t pay enough, buuuuut I’m scheduled a handful of banquets, which are much more money apparently.. idk the lil shift I worked hopefully doesn’t reflect how early they’re gonna cut me this weekend. I know they saw me jump in there and get a hold of it.... so that’s exciting.
But next week I’ll be flying out to Los Angeles to visit & hopefully fall in love with it. There’s a lot of opportunities that are lining up nicely for me out there; an affordable apartment, a job that pays the bills, time to possibly get another job orrrr use that time to mainly focus on my YouTube and have time to myself, and most importantly, it’s a fresh start.
When I say a ‘fresh start’ I mean it in a completely breath of fresh air way. I’ll have the time and space to explore my freedom, work on my mental and physical health, and flourish. I’ll have the time to do these things that I have had on the back burner. I’ll have the time and space for self; to be able to continue on this self love journey. I’ll have the freedom to do my own grocery shopping which means I control what I eat to the fullest. My diet will consist of mostly organic items, if I can help it. My health insurance should reach all the way to Cali, so I’ll ge requiring myself to get back into therapy and follow whatever medical recommendations made by the doctor. That being said, I will also get to explore more of the medical side to marijuana. I would love to learn more about CBD. I get to explore a whole new way of living. I get to flourish into who I’ve been trying to break into for awhile.
I can’t wait to spend more time with some like minded family that’s two blocks away. Speaking of where I’ll live, let’s get into that. It’s a two bedroom, all to myself. Super cheap. Everything included. Walking distance (3/4 blocks) from Hollywood Blvd! I already mapped it out. There’s a grocery store within a 20 minute walk. There’s a CVS around the corner for all my CVS needs (quick grabs of essential things or a snack). I have all the restaurants I could imagine to choose from to eat (when I treat myself). I love the location because it makes it way cheaper to do the things EVERYONE wants to do. And that saves me money.
Oh, how am I gonna be saving while I’m out there since there’s all these distractions within such a close reach? Planning & budgeting. Most of the things I’m going to do will include continuing to implement the 50/30/20 rule with my adaptation of it. Then planning out when I’ll be going to do fun things (which includes things for YouTube unless work related) also helps me save money while still having fun. I don’t want to live too fast. I have to remind myself that it’s not going anywhere.
I’m also aware that a lot of this takes time. Such as getting a therapist, paying off my debt, building healthy eating habits, building healthy lifestyle habits, getting adjusted to a completely different side of the country, not to mention making sure I keep my head screwed on. As you can imagine, I have an outline of a plan on how to keep this together.
Starting with making sure this is the place i want it live when I go visit next week. If everything passes the test, it’s locked and loaded. If not, I can do almost all of these things in Chicago. After I come back to Minnesota, send along my insurance information. That takes at least ten days to process, so by the time I’m ready to ship my things and move permanently, my health insurance will beat me there. This means I can immediately look for a therapist within reach. Next, I’ll be saving up any money outside of the nannying to pay off (in this order) my tickets, my credit card, new school, old school debts, and obviously maintain food in my fridge. That will be the beginning of teaching myself more self discipline and doing more things that benefit my overall health, not just a moment’s satisfaction. Through my health insurance, I’ll get another gym membership. That’s a double good thing because it’ll give me something productive to do that doesn’t cost much and I’ll love the results. This goes hand in hand with maintaining healthy food in my reach/fridge. I’ll be cooking at least 5 times a week. Saves money, is fun, and healthier.
My mental health is my highest priority. But my YouTube is right under that. So I wanted to link them by using my channel to address some questions I knew I had and that other people ask me. Lately, I’ve gained more clarity as to what I want to focus on; a self taught, aspiring cosmetologist with mental health issues..... I know right. Perfect for me. I also want to check in with my spirit more often by going to church, doing worship, taking care of myself, and continuing along the journey I was put here for.
I know this was long. But man, this is a huge jump for me.
& honestly, I think I’m actually ready for it. It feels good.
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