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Broken heart/Stepping stone

To be young looking for love is the worst.. giving it all to every young man/woman you come across with words of gold, just to constantly get embarrassed and have your heart crushed. You say fuck love, fuck everybody you go into your little box of sadness crying your eyes out till you fall asleep. But the next day you wake up with the same feelings as tomorrow. You’re depressed as fuck wondering what did you do wrong? Where did you go wrong why can’t someone just stay.. why can’t they just be genuine and be happy with you? You said fuck love but deep down inside, you know that’s not what you want, NO. They ask you what you know about love what do you know at this young age? But what does age have to do with anything? No matter the age you have feelings too. You still thought he/she was different you still grew feelings for them, when they aren’t around you wonder if their okay. What’s going through their head? What their thoughts are, if what’s bothering them still is bothering them all because it hurts you to see them hurt. You cry for them, you pray for them, you ask for god or whoever is listening to heal their pain, sorrow, regrets to all go away. You hope they don’t do to you what the others did to you, and they tell you they won’t. That you’re different, not like the rest. They show you a sense of happiness they give you a taste of everything you wanted. You don’t judge them you look past their wrongs, faults etc. But then just like that, in a blink of an eye their gone. All is lost all you thought that you where building seems like nothing to them. It’s like someone took the dagger that was implanted deep within you, your heart your soul and planted it even deeper. So how do you not know what it is to love? No.. you do know what love is you just haven’t felt it yet. No one has shown you what love is even though they might say they do love you they haven’t shown you… you feel alone. Not cause you want love but you want happiness, some happiness to take you away from all the pain you feel inside, the lack of confidence the feeling that you’re stuck in the dark screaming for help and no one can hear you. You walk among  people putting a smile on your face, you put others before yourself, you listen to their problems, you give them advice, you support them. Let them in on a little bit of yours but not too much. Because no one will understand what goes on inside.. People judge too much and you’re not with that shit so you keep it to yourself and tell yourself to be strong. Be strong. Be strong.

You’re right you have to be strong! This is for you, this is for me this is for whoever who relates. We have to be strong, we have to build ourselves up and love ourselves. Stop looking at yourself and pointing out your flaws, start looking at yourself and start pointing out you’re beauty and be more appreciative of our flaws, shit make that flaw into a trade mark even. If you don’t love yourself then who will? Literally! I’ve come to terms with this and from this day on I say no more sadness, no more self pity. It’s time for us to take a “ Me time ”. We need to break away from trying to find love in others and letting our SUGAR go to waste. I remember back when I was in 8th grade and tried to commit suicide by a drug overdose. There was a doctor who told me to stop letting the wrong type of love drive me crazy. To stop looking for love and letting every one have a taste of my sugar.. He said to me “ If you let everyone have a taste of your sugar, they’ll take advantage of that and keep taking to much of their fill and when the right type of love would come there would be no more of that sugar for me to give.. My Spark my gold all would be lost..” I didn’t really pay attention to it but I always carried that with me for years and I’ve always know deep down inside he was right. I’ve always know that myself with my inner intuition. But it’s time for me to stop providing people with my sugar and keep what I do have for someone and people more deserving! What I’m trying to say is no one is perfect even the greatest of the greatest have flaws, have problems but they choose to overcome them and work to be better everyday! We have to learn to leave tomorrow in the past, we have to let go of the pain, the anger, the envy, hatred … All of it must be left in the pass. PROGRESSION is through growth, GROWTH is happiness, HAPPINESS IS LETTING GO AND LETTING HAPPINESS TAKE OVER ! If there something you want to do in life, if there’s a goal that you want to fulfill, a dream you want to come true take that step today to make that come true! Take this journey with me this is my step.. this blog is my step, me writing this first passage is my step into accomplishing my goal.. so I ask you, what’s yours ?