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17, reviews of books, i wish I could write, tbh I am in way to many fandoms to count just if u wanna stay, stay

[bookturtle]

REVIEW OF THE DARKEST STAR BY JENNIFER L. ARMENTROUT

This review is spoilerfree but I gotta say that it will make you curious tho.

Okay can we please start with something I can not get enough of called Luc. And yes i loved him even before the darkest star came out but how could you not. I know a lot of people think he is literally just like Daemon and Evie is exactly like Katy but that is not true. Yeah, Jennifer has a Faible for mysterious badboys with a heart-crashing secret but that’s a book trope you literally can see in a lot of romance / fantasy books. Luc is very caring and doesn’t tell Evie to stay away from him. He just tells her to stay away from certain things and people. That, of course, is very mysterious but something people could have expected. Daemon on the other hand was telling Katy like over half of the book (Obsidian/Lux series) to leave his sister and him alone. Katy and Evie aren’t the same too. Katy was very spirited and she never hesitated to say what she thinks when Daemon was going off on her. Evie isn’t really like that, she is more of a stubborn type who let’s you think that she is going to do what you want her to do but in reality she is doing the exact opposite. That doesn’t make her a bad character though. Just a very curious one who would do a lot to get answers. All in one the book was very good and really exciting. It was funny at one point and then it was making you cry at the other point. The problems that Evie, our main character, has to face are very rough and you often won’t like how she handles things but she is relatable and realistic. I would recommend the book to everyone and it’s not a must do to read the Lux Series before reading the Origin Series. Even though I would recommend the Lux series to, well, everyone. Jennifer l. Armentrout is a really talented writer and her books are worth reading.

(btw i’m sorry for my grammar mistakes! english is not my first language but i tried :) )

[moncheriprompts]

nonsexual acts of intimacy

a prompt list by @moncheriprompts

wearing each other’s clothes

holding hands

washing each other’s hair

falling asleep in s/o’s lap

cuddling in a blanket fort

sharing a bed

head scratches

sharing a dessert

shoulder rubs

reading a book together

^ reading to each other or separately—just reveling in other’s presence

caring for each other while ill

patching up a wound

taking a bath together

playing with each other’s hair

accidentally falling asleep together

^ laying practically on top of each on a couch and falling asleep while watching a movie

forehead or cheek kisses

s/o adjusting the other’s jewelry/neck tie/etc

back scratches

slow dancing

interlocking fingers while holding hands

[softer-ua]

Head canon that Kacchan, after his pride stops pushing Deku away, comes to the amazing realization that Dekus a walking ASMR machine and the perfect distraction from his chronic tinnitus.

Tinnitus is a persistent ringing or buzzing in your ear/s and is often the result of hear damage caused by loud noises, there’s no real cure or treatment but many people find background noise like music, tv, or a white noise machine beneficial in distracting them from the sound and giving them some relief.

Dekus may mumble but each word is always clearly and fully pronounced, and I think once he learns to trust that people are not only willing but wanting to listen to what he’s got to say he’ll stop rushing to get everything out like his words are coke and mentos. Instead he’d have a steady rhythm when he speaks, and a slow almost melody just for kacchan, but his mind will never be any less full. It’s the perfect combo, someone who needs to fill the silence and someone who needs the silence filled

Comfort Winter Fic🥦💥

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Katsuki isn’t a fan of the winter. Not only does the cold make his job harder but it makes his days off harder too.

It the first heavy snow of the season, muffling the usual city noise, it’s too cold and too quiet in this shitty apartment.

Dekus not home yet and he won’t be for several more hours, Katsuki should be enjoying one of the few days he has to himself and maybe planning dinner if he feels generous, but he simply can’t when his body’s betraying him like this.

Theres a constant high pitched ringing in his ears that he’s learned to live with but when everything else goes quiet like this.… this kind of silence acts like an amplifier and it makes his skull throb in time to his heartbeat.

He’s got all the lights off and has concooned himself in a big ass quilt on their couch. He even got that stupid white noise machine that Deku gave him last Christmas going but he can still hear the ringing above it. He’s actually not sure if the shitty thing is helping or hurting, like his brains trying to drown out both and can’t. He hates this, he feels weak, like a failure sitting here in the dark fighting back tears all because of a headache with an attitude. He knows crying adds pressure and makes it worse but he can’t stop it. He’s exhausted and hurting, and all he wants is to fall asleep in their stupid, too quiet, dark ass, lonely apartment and wake up when Deku gets home and makes it stop being all those things. But he can’t and he hates it

Katsuki lays there for what feels like an eternity, when he feels a cold hand thumb away a tear. Blearily he opens his eyes to see Deku floating next to him, familiar green warmed by the glow of their electric fire he hadn’t noticed Deku turn on. And for a moment there’s a break in the ringing as his focus narrows down to the sound of Dekus heavy breathing from the strain of controlling Float. He can’t help the sniffle that leaves him, the level of love and understanding that shines in shades of green never fails to floor him.

Deku, having noticed how dark and quiet their home was when he walked through the door enacted float. He knows how Kacchan likes to try and nap away these snow storms, so he tried his best to be quiet as he went about taking off his winter gear. Then noticing the lump of quilt on the couch and lack of kitchen activity he decided to put in an order with their favorite diners app. Then he summersualted through the air over the couch and turned the fire on to warm it up a bit more in here. He turned around to admire his cozy bf and considered leaving him on the couch or carrying him to their bed.

Bending down he got a good look at Kacchan to figure out how deeply asleep he was before doing anything to disturb him. But now that he was closer and it wasn’t so dark he could see tear tracks glistening on his Kacchans cheeks. That’s when he noticed the white noise machine was going, and he felt his heart squeeze.

He hated that he couldn’t make that damn ringing go away, he had no idea how Kacchan stayed so strong and focused in everything he did while fighting something like this every minute of everyday. Unless he was in a hyper focus a microwave beep coil completely ruin any focus he had. Without thinking he reached out to rub one of the still falling tears away.

Ruby eyes blinked open at him, bringing a natural irreplaceable smile to Dekus face. Even in exhausted and in pain there was a clear fierceness smoldering in crimson depths that never failed to set Deku soul on fire.

Then Kacchan sniffled and Dekus body moved on its own, dropping down on the couch just behind Kacchan and pulled him and his blanket caccoon into his lap. He placed a kiss on his forehead and began subtly rocking them as he hummed contentedly. He felt more than heard Kacchan release a small sob. Deku held him a little tighter and tells him what he orders for dinner, Kacchan clings to him and burrows his face into his chest. So Deku begins whispering a long tangent about everything and anything that happened to him that day.

He keeps going until he can feel Kacchan fully relax into him. Then he gives his explosive bf’s temple another kiss and asks if he wants to him to keep going or if there’s anything else he can do for him.

“Just fnish your story, Nerd.”

[mockedspace]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Complete Fandom: 방탄소년단 | Bangtan Boys | BTS Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Kim Taehyung | V/Park Jimin Characters: Kim Namjoon | RM, Kim Seokjin | Jin, Min Yoongi | Suga, Jung Hoseok | J-Hope, Park Jimin (BTS), Kim Taehyung | V, Jeon Jungkook Additional Tags: Fluff, Attempt at Humor, First Meetings, Alternate Universe - Non-Famous, IKEA, meet ugly, Cussing, Play Fighting, But real, that ends well, no injuries Summary: Jimin just wanted to have a simple trip to IKEA, nothing more. He didn’t expect to get into a fistfight with the hottest man he’s ever laid eyes on over a blanket. Or to get kicked out, resulting in a meatball date and potentially more.

[tempenensis]

The Japanese have an interesting concept of "self". Unlike in western society where self is very much independent and very limited to one individual regardless of how they connect with the society, the Japanese regard self as something interdependent and very much connected to the facets of society. That's why they have a proverb that everyone have three masks; the one you show the world, the one you show your family and closest people, and the one you never show anyone.

For Itadori, his self can be separated as "Sukuna's vessel" and "a jujutsushi". The two of his self are very much contrasting, and with them, come different treatments. His identity as Sukuna's vessel is very much inadvertent and that's what the jujutsu society regards him mainly as - and with it, comes the death penalty. Itadori himself doesn't deny this identity, as this comes as a consequence of his action, however unexpected. However, Itadori with his motivation to save people, he wants to be regarded as a proper jujutsushi, where acceptance will come to him from the group of people he know affiliated himself with. Thus, Itadori's conflict is not only directed to his outer self, but also to inside himself, where he battles to keep hold of his self as "Sukuna's vessel".

The interesting thing about Tokyo school, and what makes them a lot different from the outer jujutsu society, is reflected highly in how they accept Itadori. Itadori is accepted easily among them as fellow jujutsushi because most of the students also have complicated, rather marginalized, background - for example Maki who was discriminated by her clan, Inumaki who was considered outlaw by the jujutsu authority, and Panda who is a being not found anywhere else. They bond over the way the wider jujutsu society would rather have them away from their sight. And the gathering of outcasts in Tokyo school probably only can be possible because of Gojou's influence.

So if the wider jujutsu society focused more to Itadori's self as Sukuna's vessel, Tokyo school focused more on his identity as a the same jujutsushi. And noone is more accepting and more clear on this other than Fushiguro.

With the way he raised, Fushiguro is probably more than just familiar with the traditional way of the jujutsu society. For Fushiguro, the self that attached to him by jujutsu society is the heir of Zenin clan's inherited technique. And same as Itadori, what Fushiguro want to be regarded as is just being a normal jujutsushi. As he repeats again and again, all he wants to do is to save people, albeit in a more selfish way than Itadori, who he thought deserves to be saved.

Fushiguro chooses the people he wants to save; and among them are Itadori. Itadori sill alive and breathing is the reflection of Fushiguro's self as a jujutsushi free from the influence of jujutsu society. He saves Itadori, in contrast of how the tradition would like him to kill Itadori instead. In a way, Itadori is a reaffirmation of Fushiguro's way and self in being a jujutsushi; a very different self than how heir of Zenin's clan would be seen.

When Sukuna first incarnated, Fushiguro reacted as how any traditional jujutsushi would; to exorcise it immediately. Fortunately, Fushiguro's conscience wins and from there on, he never regards Itadori as Sukuna's vessel. Fushiguro thoughts Itadori as someone of the same age, his classmate, his friend, fellow jujutsushi, but he never regards him again as the dangerous Sukuna's vessel who he must keep his distance from. And in a way, he reaffirms Itadori's choice to be acknowledged as a jujutsushi, rather than known as Sukuna's vessel.

Even after Shibuya, even after Itadori choosing to stay away from Fushiguro because he was afraid Sukuna will take over, worried about what Sukuna might do to Fushiguro, Fushiguro still extends his hand to Itadori. He says to Itadori to save him, to lend him his power. And for a jujutsushi, whose main identity, task, and obligation can be boiled down to saving someone, for Itadori whose motivation is to save people as many as he can, there's no greater affirmation for his self as a jujutsushi than to know that his power is needed.

And so, for Itadori and Fushiguro, they are the affirmation of being "a jujutsushi" self for each other.

[if-music-be-the-food-of-love]

“I Want it All” is a year old today, and I think I might cryyyy. I can’t believe it’s been that long. This fic has gotten me through some rough times, and it’s my baby. I love this au, these characters, and their story, and I’ve met so many wonderful people because of it. 💕

Look for a chapter update in the next 2 weeks, hopefully sooner. 

[julianottheastrologer]

First House:

Physical stature, general appearance, character and temperament, complexion, form and shape, constitution , action, will, ventures

Fifth child; mother-in-law, great grandchildren, childhood in general

Important for matters concerning health; one should examine the 1st, 3rd, and 8th houses to ascertain the probable life span (IG:@madaamsaturn)

Health, vitality and energy, habitual thinking, natural disposition and tendencies; personality and struggle for life, success or failure in attempts.

Head and upper part of the face; brain, skin, acne, brain, breath

Name, fame, reputation.

Happiness or misery

Demise of partner, speculative activities of father

General candor, dignity and honor, general well-being and prosperity.

People in the country, person asking the question.

Virtues, longevity

View occupants and aspects to Ascendant to determine fortunes and misfortunes in life

Appropriating other's money, gambling on other's money.

Gains and profits to younger siblings; fame , reputation, and patrimony of mother.

Higher studies, life in a foreign place or connection with stranger's to native's children, danger to maternal uncle, speculation of father, neighbors of elder siblings and elder siblings short journeys.

In Horary, the first house represents the person who is asking the question

Second House:

Artha (wealth) house, food, right eye, face, neck, glands, nape of the neck, throat and throat ailments

Speech and ability to express his/her thoughts verbally, family, close relatives of the native: (grandmother and grandfather, wife, mother, children, brothers, sisters, all close relatives).

Voice and vocal chords

Money matters, currency, fortune, profit and gain or loss, one's power and resources, worldly attainments, possessions of value, jewelry, precious stones and metals, documents, bonds, securities, stocks and shares, promissory notes, mortgages, bank balances, and exchangeable negotiable assets, law suits, extravagant or economical, loans, money lent or borrowed, national wealth, banking activities, revenue, money of the querist.

Efforts in acquisition of wealth, miserliness or liberality, rank, position.

Share of profits to partner.

Death of individual, common diseases of the natives father.

Ability to express one's thoughts, softness of speech, oratorical abilities.

One's reputation regarding sports.

Second marriage. The second house is eighth to the seventh (representing the first wife), and normally after the death of the first wife one marries for a second time. (Some Astrologer's prefer to use the eighth for the second marriage, as the eighth is seventh [spouse] from the second, which is the death of the first marriage.

Vision or power of observation, right eye, memory, imagination, nails, tongue, nose, teeth, cheeks and chin. (IG:@madaamsaturn)

Protection of others, family members, close dependents.

Clothes, gold, good silver, pearls, rubies, minerals, corn, cereals.

Gains to native, but losses to younger siblings and their changes, mother's gains and her elder siblings,, profession and success of children, long journey to maternal uncle, purchase of a house, land, or vehicle by elder siblings.

Danger to partner, death of partner

Illness of grandchildren

Third House:

Mental inclinations, ability, memory, intellect, inclination to study, restlessness, mental confusion.

Arms, fingers, dexterity, adaptability, co-ordination, hands, throat, shoulder blade, collarbone, nervous system, lungs

Correspondence, communications, books, letters, papers, writings, accounting, mathematics, press

Courage, firmness, valor, bravery, prowess and heroism.

Younger brothers and sisters, cousins, kindred, casual acquaintances, neighbors, short travel. (IG:@madaamsaturn)

Eating unspoiled or pure foods, edible roots and fruits.

Vehicles, bicycle, bus, train, or railway, boats, car trips, boat trips.

Rumors, gossiping, carrying tall tales.

Post Office, telephone, TV, telegraph, radio, telecommunications, computer, airmail.

Library, bookstore, mediator, messenger, reporter, publicity officer, editor, journalist.

Change of residence, signature, signing contracts or agreements.

Neighboring countries, treaties, roadside places, partition of property.

Illness of Mother-in-Law

Father-in-Law

Children of friends

Fourth House:

Mother, one’s home, home life, residence, domestic environment, grave

Breasts, digestive organs, digestion, lung problems

Emotional disturbances

Conditions at the end of life, one's final illness; illness of friends

Private affairs, secrets and secret life

House, fields, pastures, farms, mines, immovable personal property, property damage from floods (IG:@madaamsaturn)

Real Estate, buildings, ancient dwellings, monuments,

Banks, schools, colleges, public buildings, mansions, entrance into a house

False allegations, trust

Small wells, water, milk, ponds

Vedic and secret texts, herbs, caves

Where stolen property is kept

Graves, hidden things

Fifth House:

Progeny, inclinations, pleasures, artistic talents

Gains to wife, gains to business, partner’s luck

Recreation, entertainment, amusement, sports

Romance, courtship, love affairs

Acting, drama, music, dance

Cards, crossword puzzles, games

Lottery, gambling, stock market,

Banquets, festive occasions

Kidnap, rape, licentiousness

Good morals, discrimination between virtue and sin (IG:@madaamsaturn)

Chanting of Vedic hymns and mantras, religiousness, spiritual practices

Wisdom, profound learning

Enormous riches

Sixth House:

House of sickness, disease, exhaustion

Dietary habits, food, food allergies, digestive nerves, colon, untimely meals

Clothing, hygiene, sanitation

Favorable results in competition

Debts or borrowing money, miserliness

Employees, tenants, servants, subordinates

Enemies, obstacles in any undertaking

Maternal uncle, short journeys of the mother (IG:@madaamsaturn)

Insanity, intense anguish, incessant eye trouble

Theft, calamity, prison

Purchase or sale of conveyance by younger brother or sister

Sanitation and public health

Loss to the partner, investment or purchases made by the partner, loss to the partner

Separation from the partner, secret enemies of the partner

Occupation or business of the partner

Danger to one’s elder brother or sister

Seventh House:

House of marriage, union, or legal ties

Those with whom the native transacts

Litigation, duels, arbitrations, war and foreign affairs, open warfare

Fines, divorces, legal bondage, contracts

Break of journey, influence in foreign countries, honor and reputation achieved there

Danger to longevity (IG:@madaamsaturn)

Recovery of lost property, description of the thief

International relationships, international trade, public meetings

Mother’s immovable property, mother’s vehicle

Adopted child

Second Born

Secret enemies danger, difficulties, death

Badhakasthana for people born in Dual (Mutable) Signs (Ge/Vi/Sg/Pi)

Associates and friends of father, partnership with father’s friend

Eighth House:

Longevity or span of life

House of Death

Second marriage, eighth being seventh [spouse] from the second - eighth [death] from seventh [marriage] - with second being eighth to the seventh. Some Astrologer's prefer to use the second house for the second marriage; please reference second house information above. (IG:@madaamsaturn)

Inheritance, legacies, wills, insurance, gratuity, unearned wealth, dowry

Death – natural or unnatural, drowning, fire

Accident, suicide

Mystery and misery, misfortune, sorrow and strife, worries and privations

Delay and dejections, disappointments and defeat, loss and obstruction

Blame and ill-repute, danger from enemies, corruption

Wrong actions, theft, robbery, fighting

Surgeons, medical officers, health inspectors

Slaughter houses, butchers, coroners

Public mortality and death rate

Infection, flood, famine, fire, diseases

Earthquakes, natural calamities or grief

Financial relations with foreign countries, the nations exports and imports

Surrender or loss, debts due to foreign countries, territory of another country

Public loans, public debts and interest rates, deficit budget

Estate duties and public sales

Insurance money of the deceased

Difficulties in journeys

Ninth House:

Wisdom, faith and divine worship, devotion to God, higher communications

Religious and philosophical beliefs, philosophy, devotion

Fortune, invention, discovery, exploration

Churches, temples, mosques, places of worship, pilgrimage to holy places

Meditation, intuition, spiritual preceptors, dreams and visions

Father, Guru, short trips involving spouse

Legal arbitration, law, legal departments

Immigration and emigration

Long journeys, air travel, sea voyages

Publishing of books, long distance communications

International affairs, import and export, national trade, circulation of money (IG:@madaamsaturn)

Charities, visits to holy places sacrifice, good conduct, penance

Wells, tanks, water sheds, vehicles of servants

Children’s pleasures and speculative benefits ; pleasures derived from sports (5th from the 5th)

Mother’s illness, spouse of younger sibling (brother or sister in-law), friends to elder sibling

Hospitalization of Mother-in-Law

Badhakasthana for people born in Fixed Signs (Ta/Le/Sc/Aq)

Tenth House:

Reputation, character, morality, honor, dignity, and public esteem

Profession, occupation, business

Name and fame; power and prestige

Success and status, credit and conduct

Rank and renown; ambition and authority

Worldly activities and responsibilities

Promotions, advancements, employer, superior

Government, judge, honor from the government, seal of authority

Doctor, medicine, prosperity, teaching

Thighs

Adopted son, Father’s self-acquisition, retirement

Health issues of children; debts incurred by children (IG:@madaamsaturn)

Maraka house to both Mother and Father

Mother’s opponents

Mother-in-Law

Danger to younger siblings

Head of the State, Presidents, National Leaders

Losses to elder siblings and secret activities of elder siblings

Eleventh House:

House of friends, society, community, associates, admirers, supporters, advisors, well-wishers, close acquaintances

Hopes, wishes, realization of dreams, wealth

Devotion to God, fortune

Gains, success in undertakings, profits, speculation, writings, incoming wealth

Pleasure, prosperity, progress in attempts, Trusts

Cure of disease, happy news (IG:@madaamsaturn)

Elder siblings, paternal aunts and uncles, brother in law

Left ear, right foot, left hand, knee

Mother’s longevity

Father’s short journey’s

Birth of Children, children’s competitor’s, partner’s pleasurable pursuits, speculation

Recovery from ill health; discharge from hospital

Victory over enemies; freedom from misery and pain

Jewelry, silk

International friendships, government policies and planning, exchange of amenities

Government loans, electric companies, gas companies, museums, estates

Stores, associations, societies

Badhakasthana for people born in Moveable (Cardinal) Signs (Ar/Ca/Li/Cap)

Twelfth House:

Losses, impediments, hospitals, prisons and imprisonment, areas of confinement, Asylums, nursing homes, mental hospitals

Separation from family; going to a place far away

Hidden house; hidden side of life; fear from enemies

Termination of employment; unseen or unexpected troubles

Sound sleep or not (3rd house shows one’s awakening from sleep, the 6th signifies trance, the 9th house relates to dreams).

Sorrow and sin; poverty and persecution; limitations and restrictions

Mental pain and agitation; anger, deceptive actions

Feet, left eye, bodily injury, mutilation, bodily harm

Fears, secrets, solitude, silent suffering, inferiority complexes, self-undoing (IG:@madaamsaturn)

Secret plots and schemes, conspiracy, envy and malice, treachery

Intrigue and deception, fraud, scandals, secret sorrows, disgrace

Rape, poisoning, crimes in general

Suicide, murder, or assassination, banished persons, treason, spies, underground movements, secret and occult societies

Exile and extradition; lost goods never recovered, long hidden wrath, disobedience

Obstacles, misery, and misfortune, unseen and unexpected troubles

Waste and extravagance; expenses

Bed comforts, pressures of money, unusual expenses

Drudgery and deception

Litigation, danger, difficulties, and disappointments to children.

Success in places that are remote from the place of birth

Success with large animals

Sickness of spouse; long journeys of mother

Younger siblings profession

Father’s permanent possessions

Psychic research, occult investigations, detective work

Popularity and prosperity

Greatest self-sacrifice, unselfish deeds, seclusion, social barriers

Donations, charity, institutions and associations with same

Sources: As it was in one of my old drafts, I couldn’t find it.

Repost guidelines: I already have a IG, so if you repost let’s do a collab, my IG is @madaamsaturn or I will ask you to delete it!

I took this list to save it because I saw many different ways to see the same house and I was thinking of making a post about each one, in the future I can do it but at the moment it's not my priority.

In the list there is a mixture of one more type of astrology and maybe it doesn't only give coherent answers using it, but without trying it is impossible to know.

[lyrebirdswrites]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapter three of the royalty au!! In which isolation takes its toll on Megumi; he finds solace in Yuuji, and the stars.

[softer-ua]

Head canon that Kacchan, after his pride stops pushing Deku away, comes to the amazing realization that Dekus a walking ASMR machine and the perfect distraction from his chronic tinnitus.

Tinnitus is a persistent ringing or buzzing in your ear/s and is often the result of hear damage caused by loud noises, there’s no real cure or treatment but many people find background noise like music, tv, or a white noise machine beneficial in distracting them from the sound and giving them some relief.

Dekus may mumble but each word is always clearly and fully pronounced, and I think once he learns to trust that people are not only willing but wanting to listen to what he’s got to say he’ll stop rushing to get everything out like his words are coke and mentos. Instead he’d have a steady rhythm when he speaks, and a slow almost melody just for kacchan, but his mind will never be any less full. It’s the perfect combo, someone who needs to fill the silence and someone who needs the silence filled

Comfort Winter Fic🥦💥

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Katsuki isn’t a fan of the winter. Not only does the cold make his job harder but it makes his days off harder too.

It the first heavy snow of the season, muffling the usual city noise, it’s too cold and too quiet in this shitty apartment.

Dekus not home yet and he won’t be for several more hours, Katsuki should be enjoying one of the few days he has to himself and maybe planning dinner if he feels generous, but he simply can’t when his body’s betraying him like this.

Theres a constant high pitched ringing in his ears that he’s learned to live with but when everything else goes quiet like this.… this kind of silence acts like an amplifier and it makes his skull throb in time to his heartbeat.

He’s got all the lights off and has concooned himself in a big ass quilt on their couch. He even got that stupid white noise machine that Deku gave him last Christmas going but he can still hear the ringing above it. He’s actually not sure if the shitty thing is helping or hurting, like his brains trying to drown out both and can’t. He hates this, he feels weak, like a failure sitting here in the dark fighting back tears all because of a headache with an attitude. He knows crying adds pressure and makes it worse but he can’t stop it. He’s exhausted and hurting, and all he wants is to fall asleep in their stupid, too quiet, dark ass, lonely apartment and wake up when Deku gets home and makes it stop being all those things. But he can’t and he hates it

Katsuki lays there for what feels like an eternity, when he feels a cold hand thumb away a tear. Blearily he opens his eyes to see Deku floating next to him, familiar green warmed by the glow of their electric fire he hadn’t noticed Deku turn on. And for a moment there’s a break in the ringing as his focus narrows down to the sound of Dekus heavy breathing from the strain of controlling Float. He can’t help the sniffle that leaves him, the level of love and understanding that shines in shades of green never fails to floor him.

Deku, having noticed how dark and quiet their home was when he walked through the door enacted float. He knows how Kacchan likes to try and nap away these snow storms, so he tried his best to be quiet as he went about taking off his winter gear. Then noticing the lump of quilt on the couch and lack of kitchen activity he decided to put in an order with their favorite diners app. Then he summersualted through the air over the couch and turned the fire on to warm it up a bit more in here. He turned around to admire his cozy bf and considered leaving him on the couch or carrying him to their bed.

Bending down he got a good look at Kacchan to figure out how deeply asleep he was before doing anything to disturb him. But now that he was closer and it wasn’t so dark he could see tear tracks glistening on his Kacchans cheeks. That’s when he noticed the white noise machine was going, and he felt his heart squeeze.

He hated that he couldn’t make that damn ringing go away, he had no idea how Kacchan stayed so strong and focused in everything he did while fighting something like this every minute of everyday. Unless he was in a hyper focus a microwave beep coil completely ruin any focus he had. Without thinking he reached out to rub one of the still falling tears away.

Ruby eyes blinked open at him, bringing a natural irreplaceable smile to Dekus face. Even in exhausted and in pain there was a clear fierceness smoldering in crimson depths that never failed to set Deku soul on fire.

Then Kacchan sniffled and Dekus body moved on its own, dropping down on the couch just behind Kacchan and pulled him and his blanket caccoon into his lap. He placed a kiss on his forehead and began subtly rocking them as he hummed contentedly. He felt more than heard Kacchan release a small sob. Deku held him a little tighter and tells him what he orders for dinner, Kacchan clings to him and burrows his face into his chest. So Deku begins whispering a long tangent about everything and anything that happened to him that day.

He keeps going until he can feel Kacchan fully relax into him. Then he gives his explosive bf’s temple another kiss and asks if he wants to him to keep going or if there’s anything else he can do for him.

“Just fnish your story, Nerd.”

[simonsnowichooseyou]

This excellent essay was posted by @goodbyedandelion and reposted on Instagram—however their account sadly seems gone now. But it is in rememberence of their Tumblr spirit that I post a continuation to their essay!

EVEN MORE Reasons Why Carry On is so groundbreaking as a YA Fantasy/Romance

Misconceptions/Character Complexity

A large topic in YA Contemporary is gossip, but I feel like fantasy doesn’t touch on this as much. Think of how others perceive one another in Carry On. Early on we learn that Simon, for example, saw Penny as different because of her race. But of course, we quickly know this isn’t true.

But what about Agatha? In Harry Potter, for example, Lavender Brown and other feminine characters are often looked down upon because of their femininity. We often as a culture perceive beauty as overcompensation for what’s inside. Sometimes Agatha is looked at in the same light in Carry On, but when we see things from her POV, we realize that Agatha is perhaps the smartest one there. Maybe she’s not Penny Bunce-smart, but she has the survival instincts that Penny lacks.

Agatha isn’t the only one. Baz looks cold and unfeeling from others’ POVs, but we quickly learn that he is a boy with a soft heart that’s been hardened by his past. Everyone thinks he cares about nothing but we know he cares about his mother and how she’d feel about him; his father and step-mother and siblings; Simon, of course; Bunce, in his own way; he even cares about flowered suits and dramatic entrances! We think Bunce is nerdy and perhaps annoying, but we learn she’s very sweet and like a mother to Simon. And the mage. Ugh, the mage. We think he cares about Simon but we learn that for every bit he cares about Simon, he cares about the war more.

Rowell doesn’t allow any character to be simple, stereotypical, or as they appear. My sister, for example, was saying that Baz sounded like a stereotypical gay man in the media. But he’s not, is he? He might love fashion but Rowell does not make him simple or stereotypical. Everyone is so complex, and she uses the multi-POV to not just show us their complexity but also the complexity of how they are viewed by others.

Woman on Woman Drama/Anger

For years and years, only one woman was allowed to have a true seat at the table in films. Take Indiana Jones, the original Avengers, and Star Wars for example. This woman was often made to be the sex appeal or romantic interest, but I’ll save that for another day. Because of there only being one spot, it set a precedent that women in media needed to fight with each other to take that spot, thus depriving us of women getting along!

At first, I was worried Rowell had fallen into this trap. Bunce thinks Agatha is simple and too feminine, Agatha thinks Bunce is a major pain in the ass. Their dislike for one another is complicated in that they’re essentially two different types of feminism battling it out, and half of their fight was about Simon and their roles in his life.

But in the end, Penny and Agatha create a relationship that exists outside of their relationship with Simon. Penny sees Agatha’s strength and resilience; Agatha recognizes Penny’s harsh exterior for what is is. When Agatha moves away, they text without his even knowing. Penny is the one that decides they need to check on and save her. In the end, penny and Agatha fight alongside one another.

Rowell didn’t just give us a feminine friendship—she showed us what we’ve been doing, and how to get from Point A to point B. I think it’s the most underrated part of the series.

True Friendship

It might sound bad, but I truly believe a lot of today’s media ruins the idea of friendship. I just feel like none of the portrayals are realistic. Friends are either joined at the hip and have never fought (toxic) or never get along (also toxic). The fact that Baz and Penny and Simon and Penny and Agatha and Penny can get into fights but still continue to love one another platonically is really heartwarming to me.

Trauma/Mental Illness

I remember getting to the end of Harry Potter and thinking “he went through all of that and we’re just supposed to leave him now?” We see some remnants in the most cursed play ever: The Cursed Child. But more than trauma we see someone who looks back on the days they risked their life everyday with *longing.* While that’s about the most Harry Potter thing Harry Potter has ever done (and the most canonical part of that play) it’s so unrealistic. You’re telling me Harry grew up with nothing and was an amazing father—minus a few spats with his son. You’re telling me Harry was able to hold it together emotionally after fighting for his life from ages 11-18 without a therapists help? You’re telling me Harry lost two father figures in the ministry of magic AND spent 7 years going through what amounted to a lesson titled “the government is corrupt” just to be a part of that government!?

Wayward son isn’t like that. Wayward Son shows us what happened to Simon afterwards, and it’s not peaches and cream. He had therapy, he quit therapy. A lot of us have been Simon on that couch, and we all needed the Baz in our life to drag us across a metaphorical America. Wayward Son is hands-down my favorite book. Realistic depictions of mental illness, check. Subverting our expectations of after the end, check. Reading it feels like taking a road trip, check.

As OP mentioned, Simon is a beloved chosen one because he’s just so wrong for the role. He’s not levelheaded where he should be, he’s bold in all the wrong places, he couldn’t possibly maintain a professional relationship with the coven. Meanwhile his super-hot enemy Baz was the absolute perfect choice to be chosen, but he was completely passed over. And part of this chalks up to how Simon became so powerful—fate isn’t twisting its whims this way and that. Simon is only chosen because he was a Petri dish experiment-gone-wrong baby. When Simon asks the fates why, really he should be asking the mage. There’s something delightful about the fact that Simon was made. The chosen one was made, and in the same process, so was the greatest threat.

De-escalation

I think it’s clear by now that Carry On is a great book, Simon Snow is an amazing series, and Rainbow Rowell sure can write. But I feel the need to point out that the end of Carry On wasn’t well-received by everyone. I recommend the series to everyone I know and some people are really disappointed you don’t get a big magical battle at the end. Some people think Simon filling in the humdrum was a cop out. But I disagree. I felt it was thrilling to witness a book where war was as stupid in fantasy land as it can be in real life. This is the first fantasy I’ve ever read where they find a better way to handle conflict than senseless fighting. It’s emotionally rewarding, to me, to see de-escalation. To see conflicts fixed before they start to be huge problems. It was a risky choice for an end, you have to admit. But Rowell pulls it off amazingly.

Nothing is Wrapped in a Bow

A day will never go by without me thinking about the fact that Simon Snow Salisbury doesn’t know who his parents are. Or how Baz will never know what exactly happened with his mother—whether she really ended herself to avoid vampirism and whether she would’ve done it to her too. We’ll never even quite understand the mage’s plan behind fix the humdrum and get an all powerful boy wizard on his side. Rowell doesn’t wrap everything up. She gives you closure as often as she gives you something to ponder. The ending of Harry Potter was so controversial, I think, because it spelled out so clearly much of what was happening. And what you didn’t learn in that epilogue, Rowling released later through Pottermore and interviews. That’s fine and dandy—but there’s something to be said for ending Simon Snow’s books with questions. Not infuriating questions but rather things that I’ll always ponder—that will shed new light on different situations depending on how I look at them. Rowell sets a precedent that you can fill in Simon’s world with your imagination while also reminding us that life doesn’t have endings. Not really, the way books to. Rowell is one of the few writers of today’s fantasy, I’d argue, who’s okay letting things go unanswered. There’s always a thread of fantasy and magic going. It’s something that will keep Simon alive in my heart for many, many years to come.

So yeah, that’s what I think about when I think about Simon Snow. It’s not nearly as coherent as the original post but I hope you enjoy it.

[elan-and-dragonboy]

Carry on according to Simon:

Carry on according to Baz:

[angelsfalling16]

Signs that you’re in love with your roommate:

On page 6: you describe his magic as lighting “a match inside your heart”

On page 7: you say “he looked fine to me – not a hair out of place”

On pages 14-18: you mention him multiple times while talking about things you miss (before even mentioning your girlfriend)

On page 14/15: you describe how much better he looks than you and everyone else

On page 23: you think about him and his ability to do magic when your life is in danger

On page 27: he’s the first thing you think about when you get to your room

On page 28: you lay on your bed and try to catch the scent of him

On page 28/29: you’re talking to your best friend, but everything you say/think is about him

On page 39: you admit to watching him while he sleeps

On page 40: your best friend mentions how much you watch him while he sleeps

On page 43: you talk about his pajamas and he’s the last thing you think about before falling asleep

On page 50: you struggle to think of reasons you can’t leave, and he is the first coherent thought to come to mind

On page 77: you’d want an explanation if he was holding hands with another guy but not when he held hands with your girlfriend

On page 77: the first thing you do at the welcome-back picnic is look for him

On page 81: he’s the first thing you think about when you wake up

On page 86: you argue that you know him best

On page 88: it feels wrong that he’s gone

On page 91: you count the weeks he’s been gone

On pages 96-97: you drill a teacher about where he is

On page 98: you don’t stop looking for him and methodically search the woods for him

On page 99: you agree that he has pretty eyes (but not that he’s dead)

On page 102: you admit to following him around for a year

On page 124: you’re failing the two classes that he should be in with you

On page 138: you talked about him so much that you’re friend had to set a limit on how much you were allowed to talk about him

On page 139: you know it’s his handkerchief before you see his initials

On page 145: you’re “just lying in bed, thinking about” him

On page 145: you say he’d be “bloody perfect” if he weren’t a vampire

On page 146: you’d do anything to bring him back,

On page 150: you know his face as well as your own

On page 150: you stand so quickly when you see him that you knock over furniture

[I’m tired, so I’ll finish this tomorrow. Feel free to add anything that I may have missed.]

[ao3feed-renga]

The Painter and The Skater

by Tinabedin

An AU where Reki is a sick painter, who meets the skater Langa.

Or Just a hospital Sk8 the infinity AU.

“The Moon is beautiful tonight.”

Words: 12311, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Series: Part 1 of Angsty Fanfictions >:)

Fandoms: SK8 the Infinity (Anime)

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: Major Character Death

Categories: M/M

Characters: Kyan Reki, Hasegawa Langa, Sakurayashiki Kaoru | Cherry Blossom, Nanjo Kojiro | Joe, Chinen Miya, Higa Hiromi | Shadow, Kyan Masae, Kyan Koyomi

Relationships: Hasegawa Langa/Kyan Reki, Nanjo Kojiro | Joe/Sakurayashiki Kaoru | Cherry Blossom

Additional Tags: Angst, Fluff, Fluff and Angst, Sad Ending, Insomnia

source https://archiveofourown.org/works/30990296

[suhyla]

Super helpful Ramadan guide for any students out there by @sahraisha on Instagram!

[amalasdraws]

What's your top 5 best Iwaoi fic ?

OH damn…his is hard. Cause tbh I don’t really have bookmarks or really use my AO3..so I often forget about fics. Not that I really forget them..but like..man..my brain is a sieve and if you ask me on te spot I can’t really come up with names.Let me see..I might forget a ton and I’m always bad with top 5s..no matter the topic. Like the worst when it comes to chose…QWQ

But yeah..my top something iwaoi fics in no particular order

But my number one is def:the courtship ritual of the hercules beetle by kittebasuHello yes Help please. I love this fic !! Love love love!! I also love the other iwaoi one by the author..but Hercules Bettle really kills me!! I love it!!

mint by tothemoonAhh a wonderful fic that actual made me cry cause its so sentimental in a way and just the whole atmosphere!! QWQ I love! And I also really love the other fics I read so far by the author!! For example how to let your planets align   

Often I go by authors..and then have several fave fics by an author..so wth 2 fics by Kittebasu and 2 or 3 by tothemoon I already would have my 5 :D

I also really like the oneshot Routine by snoqualmie! The author also has some other oneshots I really enjoyed!

I’m also very very weak for Cj’s drug au. You bring out the worst in meseries by thunderingskiesSo sad and heartbreaking..and hurt and comfort an cats!! It’s not one finished fic but a collection of oneshots and more a series.

Lately I’m also reading Stump and all by NotThatIWillEverWriteIt and maybe you know but Im a sucker for slice of life and rough themes and hurt and comfort..so I really enjoy it.

I also just recently read a fic where Oikawa lost his memory.. and suddenly, we were strangers by izayas which I also really enjoyed.

Man..I really could name more..I’m so so bad with top 5. Like..soo soo bad. Right now I am forgetting some of my top 5 I’ve reread already some time ..but I remember more some more recent ones I read.

Ohh and I have to name this one..cause I love this au and I love that Stevie wrote this for me and damn I love this fic!! I#m biased but yes yes its good!And He Thinks…    by Toffle

Ahh there are really some more..but I’m already over 5..and this is not a real top 5…But Hercules Beetle and Mint are really in my top 5 and high up! Hercuels Bettle my number one!

The take from this..I suck at top 5s. I’m sorry Anon, this is prob not what you asked for (/)//(/)

And to be all shameless and self promoting I have this one oneshot I really like and am proud of ..and one day I want to write a part 2 and 3 for it!! Oikawa Tooru is a lot of things, but cute   

Ahhhh and I love Icarus by Crollalanza

Ahh and so many oneshots by other authors..and just authors and just..help..what is a top5?!?!

[haikyuu-writings]

haikyuu ao3 fic recs

some loved writings i enjoyed on my quest to find amazing fics (and i was not disappointed) this will be continuously updated !

(uhh i didnt specify the ratings since i only made this for my friend, but ao3 always has ratings and specific tags, so browse through those before you read :) )

open tab  -  daisuga  -  inc; 529k  -  bartender! daichi and artist! suga w fun dialogue!!

but for me, there is a storm  -  kagehina  -  comp; 276k  -  pacific rim au

all the small things  -  oisuga  -  comp; 12k  -  sweet runthrough w old acquaintance at a grocery store

national hot dad alliance is now calling…  -  mostly gen  -  comp; 58k  -  memey funny lighthearted stuff in a texting fic

crowchildren  -  kagehina  -  comp; 58k  -  beaut heartwarming angsty fantasy-ish kinda tale about crowchildren who carry souls of the dead to the final resting place

sunshine harbour  -  kagehina  -  comp; 110k  -  hinata goes missing 1 day n kags sets out to find him, but he ends up in a mysterious town w a shit ton of secrets

bell, book, and candle  -  daisuga  -  inc; 647k  -  magic fantasy world where suga is an exorcist/supernatural hunter n ends up fixing up everyones shit

in transit  -  kagehina  -  comp; 4k  -  lighthearted fluff and soft feelings from second years! kagehina

rewards program  -  bokuakakuro  -  comp; 8k  -  bokukuroo buyin random shit @ the convenience store where akaashi works everyday

i’ll wait with you in rain or snow  -  daisuga  -  comp; 75k  -  super fluffy cute wholesome daisuga adopting wolf kids (the hinatas!!) (no a/b/o)

i like the way your clothes smell  -  kagehina  -  comp; 74k  -  fluffy teen boys being teen boys (+ awkwardness)

lips like sugar  -  iwaoi  -  comp; 8k  -  iwa gets kissing lessons from oiks

tea-stained polaroids  -  bokuaka  -  comp; 5k  -  photographer! akaashi + a very in love bokuto

love in the time of wifi  -  bokuaka  -  akaashi gets a crush then asks advice from online friends (namely, user HootHoot17)

right in the head  -  bokuaka  -  epic zombie apocalypse au

twitch  -  kagehina  -  comp; 72k  -  hinata has tourette’s syndrome (uncontrollable tics + twitches); angst w a happy ending

come and get lost with us  -  kagehina  -  comp; 150k  -  wholesome char development of kags, a thief, who ends up at some secluded camp in the woods

darlin’, your head’s not right  -  iwaoi  -  comp; 13k  -  childhood friends + lots of teasing (iwa pledging to marry oiks) (oiks never letting him live it down)

[updated 02/12/18]

bang! now we’re even  -  bokuaka  -  super hawt n cool spy au that is too good to be true

undeniably special  -  bokuaka  -  lighthearted friends to lovers where kashi just feels like kissing bo

better than spy films  -  bokuaka  -  bo scavenges for food at kuroo’s place n finds smthg better than food

come morning light  -  kagehina  -  angsty apocalyptic setting i have yet to finish

he may suck at beer pong but he slam dunked my heart  -  kagehina  -  refreshing college au w/ frat boy hinata

come and take a walk on the wild side  -  asanoya  -  asahi just moves in and noya’s pet tarantula is on the loose (CUTE AF MUST READ)

and when we touch, the stars explode  -  kenhina  -  fluffy modern magic au what more can u ask for

let’s do it like they do in my furry animes  -  kurotsukki  -  crack fic w wayyyyy too many memes 

by any other name  -  tsukkiyama  -  yama is sick of people asking him if tsukki is single (fluff, not really angst!)

[updated 04/01/18] 

(u can guess my current otp atm nfjkjfsdn)

how (not) to share a bathroom  -  oisuga  -  each dorm has a connected shared bathroom + passive aggresive sticky notes convos ensue

but with a whimper  -  oisuga  -  the fake dating au u need after discovering oisuga

oh mercy me  -  oisuga  -  the mature fic u need after reading the fake dating au one  oikawa opens his phone during class n stuff goes south from there

sweet sunshine  -  oisuga  -  the fluffy counterpart of above (im joking, but this is a soft, sweet texting fic)

drawn to you  -  iwaoi  -  oiks has a secret crush on iwa n tries to talk to him, BUT IWA THINKS HE’S A FAN surprise he’s a secret shoujo manga author

shooting stars and satellites  -  yamatsukki  -  nostalgic au where tsukki goes to tokyo for uni, loses touch w yams, and sees him again after 4 yrs

upstairs  -  bokuaka  -  neighbors au where where bo is stuck w an unfairly attractive neighbor who he can hear moan every night

let’s do it like they do on the infomercial channel  -  kagehina  -  everything u dont want to read in the form of a crack fic

[edit 07/30/20]

this post is blowing up again pls feel free to rec me some too in my submissions/replies, or mayhaps check out my one shots on my tumblr? <3 hq fanfic nation rise we still going strong

[druck-in-love]