rewiring in progress

Out with the worthless old, In with the upgraded new replacement.

[cartomaniac]

A Scar is All You Are.

[borderlinebannanas]

Not a scar, a wound that will never heal

[tbfhprincess]

“You are what I have been waiting for, the person I should have been with. But I stop myself from having feelings. I stop myself from thinking we have something special. Because not only do I not want to lose you, but I don’t want to lose myself again.”

— not for another heartbreak.

[missblack22]

It fucking sucks to find out you’re not as important to someone like you thought you were

[destroymylife]

[borderlinebannanas]

I've expended untold energy, effort and personal resources in the pursuit of something, someone,. Anything at all that will always be there for me. Even my BPD has ghosted me at times. Well I have finally completed my Quest. I have found my personal Holy Grail

PAIN

[they-found-me-idk-how-deactivat]

Hazbin hotel is a cool show btw 100% would recommend

Check it out on yt

[borderlinebannanas]

I NEED THIS KIND OF SUPPORT IN MY LIFE.

[filthygrandpa]

Posted this in the wrong group sorry

[perfectfuckdolly-deactivated202]

this is what bpd feels like

its sending a message and feeling your chest get tight and your body go cd and numb because they didn’t read it right away. your activity is off? your rear receipts are off? you’re trying to hide the fact that you’re ignoring me. why don’t you just tell me to my face that you don’t want to talk to me. a minute goes by and i want to bite through my phone and kick a hole into a wall. how the fuck do you disappear after just a few minutes? you’re ignoring me. you’re talking to other people you like more than me. i cant believe i thought we were friends. you dont even like me. i clench and let go of my hands over and over as i both fight the urge to scratch away at my face and send you 10 more messages until i SEE that you replied to someone’s comment. if you have other friends, then how is it possible for you to have a friendship with me? you can’t love me and someone else, not equally. you either love me more or you love them more. and clearly you love them more since you replied to their comment and not my message. you’re just going to forget about me altogether. i might as well just block you now. on everything. if you loved me enough you’d find a way to contact me. that’ll show me how much i mean to you. even if you did it the last five times, memories are like skin that i shed and i only feel what’s happening right now. and if you don’t do something to show me you care right now, then you never cared at all. i have to bite my tongue to stop myself from lashing out on you. i don’t want to beg to be loved. this is why everyone leaves me, i can’t be loved at all. no one loves me, so why am i alive? no one thinks i’m interesting or important enough to talk to. i hate you so fucking much. you broke my heart and you happily chat away with your other friends while i break apart. i feel my emotions so intensely it’s hard to believe you couldn’t notice. you don’t care enough to try to notice. i knew it, you ended up wanting me gone like everyone else. well i can’t take it anymore. at this point, i’m engaging in self harm and its only been 5 minutes since you replied. my emotions build up to the point where they physically need to be released, my eyes hurt from crying. just as i’m about to double text you and blow up on you, you begin typing, and tell me you were using the bathroom. i don’t care, because in my mind i’ve been abandoned by you, so i will explode with rage.

[30-minute-memes]

[the-memedaddy]

meirl

[borderlinebannanas]

[borderlinebannanas]

[borderlinebannanas]

[4am-reflections]

my heart doesn’t ache for you anymore. i never thought that’d be possible. it was a far off dream of a better reality i never believed i’d get to live. somewhere along the way i learnt how to live without you and now it isn’t even a conscious thought, it’s just something i do as easily as breathing. freedom has never felt so good.

a goodbye forever// 4am

[borderlinebannanas]

Not there yet but moving in that direction..the pain, the disappointment, the confusion, the betrayal,...etc all work together to push you out of my heart. My soul.

[filthygrandpa]

meirl https://ift.tt/2NldPI7

[anxietyproblem]

[purplebuddhaproject]

“I think it’s important to realize you can miss something but not want it back.”

— Paulo Coelho (via purplebuddhaquotes)

[borderlinebannanas]

But how can you be sure that you brain isnt telling your heart that to protect it.

O