this isnt about you

hi, i'm em and i have too many thoughts

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You are fucking awesome ok? Like shit dude, you are the equivalent of golden hour sunlight streaming through windows and making everything look like magic, and shit.

you are such a kind soul. thank you for this 💙

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love for me has always had teeth, it bites and tears and leaves scars long after it’s over.

but with him love is the caress of a summer breeze, gentle and refreshing and healing from the harsh cold of the winter nights.

love isn’t supposed to hurt. it’s supposed to heal.

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the right love is the most beautiful love

oh god it is. the right love makes all the wrong ones seem worth it

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I've been reading a lot of your post, you have such an amazing gift with words! I couldn't write down my feelings if I tried! You sound pretty awesome. I hope you are doing alright. Head high!

thank you so much love, all the love to you

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he has me writing poetry again. i thought i had lost that part of me long ago.

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you have given me the love i have spent my entire life dreaming of. one filled with laughter, peace, truth. it’s coming home to you and you knowing exactly what i need without me having to say a word. it’s teaching me that you never have to be yelled at; that i am enough without having to dim myself down. it’s the quiet moments that bring me calm instead of the anxiety stillness has always instilled in me. you are the answer to my hearts every question. my truest love.

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Your series of "to the one who loves...next" and the "voicemails" post has been my solace in times when I've lost more friends and loves than I can count. It's actually the 10 year passing of my best friend and ex-boyfriend of 4 years and these writings are comforting like a thick fuzzy blanket on a snowy day. I guess what I want to say is thank you for sharing your beautiful works.

my writings will always be there for those who need them. all the love to you my friend, know those we lose never truly leave us

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How long have you been writing for? :)

i’ve been writing poetry since 2014 but writing i’ve done my entire life. as a kid i made up stories to entertain my little sister

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heyy, uhh, how’s your day? i hope everything is going well! i just want to say that your poems helped me to have the courage to make my own. you know, about love. i understand this feeling of loving someone for years and years... it inspires us in so many things. anyway, your blog is perfect and i love it so much!! all the love and affection in the world for you 💕

thank you so much for this. it’s been a while since i’ve been on here and i forgot how much i love this community and the support and love people share with each other. never stop writing, the world needs to hear the words you have to say

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6 year old me would cry if she knew there is nothing wrong with me.

8 year old me would be so proud i found friends who genuinely enjoy having me around.

10 year old me would love that i talk to my dad regularly now.

12 year old me would cry knowing that i found a man doesn’t hurt me.

14 year old me would lose her mind to know i was right about him being the one i would spend the rest of my life with.

16 year old me would be so proud that i fell in love with myself.

18 year old me would love that i’m doing well in school for the first time in my life.

20 year old me would lose her mind if she knew i had the courage to leave the relationship that made me lose who i am.

22 year old me is proud i’m still here, still trying, and can’t wait to see what the rest of my life will bring.

ode to my younger self

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it’s you.

it’s just you.

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You are strong

You are beautiful

You are loved

you are so incredibly kind thank you

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there’s this thing about getting older, life changes in the blink of an eye. i could have sworn we were still the love struck teenagers who believed their love could concur the earth. blinded by their feelings, convinced the power of their love could do anything. but looking at us now things have changed. we will never be those kids again. but i love who we are now. who we are becoming.

4am

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Tumblr keeps suggesting your blog. I have cleared the notification about 50 times and every damn day it suggests it again. So I guess we're friends now. Hello, friend.

hell yes!! welcome to the club! hope you stay a while friend 🥰🥰

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Whatever you’re going through, you got this!

thank you. i just miss my friend but it’s okay stuff happens yeah know

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i know i hurt you. but my god you hurt me too.

4am

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i don’t know how to tell you that i feel like you don’t need me anymore. we went from sitting on facetime every night catching up and ranting about all the shit going on in our lives to barely speaking. i know he makes you happy. i know you love him, i just thought you loved me too.

i miss my best friend// 4am