[borderlinethin]

🥀CHOOSING RECOVERY IS A VERY BRAVE THING TO DO🥀

ABOUT ME :

lottie - 23 - pisces - infp - 5’11 - uk

i have bpd, depression, anxiety and anorexia.

please only follow if you are 18+ - (if i accidentally follow u and ur a minor pls tell me!) and have an ed!

ACTIVE APRIL 23

sw: 195 - cw: 165 - lw: 135 - gw: 140

ive had this disorder for 10 years and its pure hell, i really really urge you to seek help from someone you trust 🤍 recovery is always worth it.

[unbotheredmuse]

[podle5]

why not both?

[borderlinethin]

ALSO. ive kinda gone no contact with my fp. not like in a mean way just in a ‘this is really unhealthy on my end and youre treating me like im nothing’ way. its been 2 weeks since i have messaged her and even then i was drunk soooo.

[borderlinethin]

the fact ive gained 30lbs since my lowest weight is so terrifying to me. obviously i know i am healthier physically but mentally i dont really feel much different recovery wise. just cos im ‘weight-restored’ doesnt rly mean shit.

[borderlinethin]

so im attempting ✨recovery✨ kinda thats why i havent rly posted much

[akindplace]

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[borderlinethin]

stuck in a binge cycle :-)))))) killl meee

[chronicallyonlinesworld]

[identityarchitect]

there are like five rules to life and those rules are

1. eat 3 meals a day & keep a snack on u

2. always have a non alcoholic drink with you

3. never trust anything you think about your life after 8-9pm, if you’re getting close to your sleep time but not at it yet, or if you’ve been awake for a while

4. do a little something for urself every day

5. interact with a Beast at least once a day (human, feline, canine, lizard, bird, etc)

and the secret 6th rule:

6. if you can’t do all of those rules, just do the ones you can

[caesarsaladinn]

every morning i wake up and make the worst possible time management decisions anyone has ever made

[anxietyproblem]

[catsbeaversandducks]

Low Resolution Cats

Via Sad and Useless

[sa-dnesss]

[faeriedreams]

i’m a girl but also like a horrible unsolvable problem

[flowerais-deactivated20211031]

reasons to live:

the next season of your favorite show. discovering new songs to play on repeat. cozy evenings where it’s easy to fall asleep. the scent of your favorite perfume or candle. daydreaming about places you want to go. reading something in a book and feeling everything click. the days where everything is golden and nothing is perfect but you see the beauty in everything and that’s enough. bumping into a future best friend by accident. finding beauty in solitude. sipping hot tea or coffee on a quiet morning. hiding in a cozy library. collecting flowers or ticket stubs. closing your eyes to a song on the train. smiling at a stranger and having them smile back. the beautiful colors of trees and flowers. exploring a world in a video game. seeing a fluffy dog and petting a cat. feeling the light breeze and watching the ocean as the sun sets. eating ice-creams and slices of watermelon in summertime. dancing alone in your room. making people happy just by existing. gazing into a starry night sky. knowing that anything is possible regardless of your past. knowing that you don’t need to have the answers to everything. knowing that every day is a new beginning and good things are always around the corner.

[borderlinethin]

so on top of endometriosis, my ed, and all my other mental health issues, the doctors say i might have fibromyalgia too. gonna have blood tests and my joints checked and stuff soon. its literally never endinggggggggg

[resilient-cherub]

I’m too sensitive for this earth. I wasn’t made to exist.