This is my new page for Boreal’s music, because the other one has personal stuff in it too and I just want this to be strictly about the music. Also I forgot the password.
First, I'm slowly getting back into making music, and yes Boreal is coming back for sure, but it'll be different. It's extremely hard to find time to work on music with three kids so it's moving very slowly, but it is happening. My idea with Boreal is to move away from the concept album style and to just make songs for what they are, instead of trying to make the whole album a linear story. I think that way it’ll be less stressful on my end and I’ll have more enjoyment in it because of that.
Second, I'm also currently world building my own novel. You can find out more on that on my other Tumblr page 'Tales of Nâdar', but there is also another musical project I’m starting up that will accompany this novel. It’s going to be in the same style as Boreal, Atmospheric Black Metal type, but focused on the stories in my world.
Third, I’ve been going through a kind of cleansing of myself, in the sense that I’m no longer deeply depressed. I’ve put a lot of my strength and focus the last few months into changing myself for the better, moving on from bad memories and focussing on the good ones. Writing my novel has brought back some really nice memories of my late grandmother and how she opened up my world to Tolkien and many other fantasy type stories. I’ve been taking therapy that’s been allowing me to really focus on good memories and ignore the bad ones. It’s been working slowly but I’m getting there. So me getting back into Boreal is something I’m kinda challenging myself with. Boreal, to me, is filled with horrible memories and really deep depression. I want to come back to it and at least give it a better ending. It was always my dream to start my own music, I did that with Boreal, but I let it end so badly. I wanna make it my goal to fix that and to continue with how the dream started.
And it started with a walk through the forest. It was meant to be my last walk through that forest. I was going to kill myself that day. I’d finished work and walked through the trees and found the spot that I wanted to die in. Minutes before I sliced my throat, a lady came up behind me. She walked up to me and gave me a rock. It looked like any old rock, but she said ‘special rock, makes you happy’. And then she left, and I just sat there and cried. That single moment meant so much to me, and changed my whole perspective on life. Before then I didn’t believe in anything beyond the pale, but after that moment I fully realised that this woman must’ve been my guardian angle. I had never seen her before then, I didn’t see her until she came up behind me, and I sadly never saw her again. But it was all way to much to be a coincidence.
That was when I started making my music, that same night. I still have that rock that she gave me. And that is where my love of nature came from I think. Whether my guardian angle is still around or not, she gave me a part of nature that she’d described as being special, and it was incredibly special to me as it saved my life.
Wow, that took a deep turn. Anyway, Boreal’s back up and running, I’m writing a book, and I have three kids with no time on my hands. And I wouldn’t want it any other way.
