Men Who Can’t Love (Final)
Pairing: Jungkook x Reader
Genre: Angst
Word Count: 4.3k
Summary: You are finally doing okay without Jungkook in your life, but he can’t be happy without you.
A/N: Hello guys! I’m finally done with my first story! I want to thank everyone who’s been following along. This is the angstiest chapter so, hope you enjoy!
It’s only been a few weeks since his life took an unexpected turn but it felt like years. Jungkook was genuinely trying to work things out with W/N in hopes to give his child the best life he could. Some days he would treat her to breakfast in bed, give her foot massages, and even do every chore there was. If his wife was now carrying his first child then he had to treat her with utmost care making sure she didn’t do too much.
Things were going well with his company too. With the new marketing strategies that his partner suggested they’ve seen an increase in their revenue. They were doing good financially but things were more stressful than before. Employees were being more demanding and having to deal with this along with his personal problems were taking a toll on him. Not to mention Y/N. He couldn’t stop thinking about her as much as he tried.
Every morning his thoughts are full of Y/N while he gets ready for another day of work. Just remembering her warm smile was enough to get him through the day. He missed her so much but he couldn’t bring himself to visit her.
Knowing he had no self control when it came to Y/N, he tried to stay away. He has been working too hard to restore his relationship with his wife to let it all go to waste. His child did not deserve that.
“Hobi get up” you nudged him until you scared him awake, “I’m starving let’s go get dinner. My treat!” you shot a smile while getting dressed. Today he came over unexpectedly like always and you hadn’t even eaten lunch yet.
“Aghh Y/N.. can’t you give me like ten more minutes?” he groaned and pulled the sheets back over his head. “I’m so tired, those kids always wear me out so much.” He had just recently started working at a dance academy that focused on hiphop which was his specialty since he’s been dancing all his life basically.
“I know, I know. But I also know how I get when I don’t get my daily dose of food so.. SEE YA” you said and ran out the room. He immediately jumped up and started collecting his clothes from the floor, “Noooo wait I’m hungry too! Don’t abandon me!!” he rushed and got dressed before you left him.
Lately that’s been your life. Go to work, come home, and meet Hobi later in the day. You forgot how funny he was and having him around really helped you keep your mind off Jungkook.
Hobi always has the most interesting topics to talk about and it honestly motivates you to get your life together. He found a job where he gets paid to do something he loves and you couldn’t be happier for him. He also keeps talking about this certain girl he just met at the academy. You knew his frequent visits will eventually stop once he finds the guts to ask her out.
Right now he’s keeping your lonely self company which you’re completely grateful for, but if he ever settles down with someone you would be happy for him. He’s a great person and deserves nothing but the best, and sadly you’re not the one destined give him that.
“Hey baby?” W/N calls out for Jungkook who is downstairs vacuuming, “Are you hungry?” she asks as she hears him coming up the stairs.
“No not really I already ate at work. Why? Do you want something to eat honey?” he says and sits down on the couch in front of their bed taking a break from cleaning.
“Well I was kind of craving a chicken sandwich. Lately chicken is the only thing on my mind” she laughed into the pillow to hide her face of embarrassment and Jungkook couldn’t help but smile. He was reminded of old times.
“Don’t be shy it’s okay. Our little child wants it so I’ll go get it” Jungkook said as he stretched his back before getting up “I know a good place.” he walked towards the closet to grab a coat. “I’ll be right back, okay?”
The line at Chick-fil-A was ridiculous! ‘I mean I get it, it’s Friday night and everyone is out but today of all days it had to be packed’ Jungkook complained to himself and pulled out his phone.
He was scrolling through his Instagram feed looking at all his friends post and seeing how happy they looked. ‘Why can’t I be happy too?’ he sighed and looked up from his phone. For a second there he could have sworn he saw your face further ahead in the line. Was he imagining things now?
You used to always drag Jungkook to this place because chicken was what you lived for and this was your favorite spot to eat at when you wanted something quick. Even now.
‘Some things just don’t change’ he leaned back on the wall as he reminisced. He just wanted to walk up to you and ask how your day was or something. Anything just to talk to you. But wait.. Who was that next to you?
You were standing next to Hoseok and he was making you laugh like always. Perhaps looking a bit too comfortable with you to Jungkook’s liking. The line moved up but you didn’t notice so Hobi lead you forward with his hand low on your waist. Jungkook rolled his eyes at the gesture.
“What are you getting Hobi?” you asked but he wasn’t paying attention to you.
Hoseok caught Jungkook glaring but tried to not be obvious and simply looked away. “Hobi?” you nudged him.
“Oh you said something?” he asked and looked up at the menu.
“Yes I asked you what you were getting dummy.”
“Well I don’t really come here often now do I pretty lady?” he booped your nose, “So I’ll just get whatever you get.” he said looking back but Jungkook was nowhere to be found.
Jungkook was fuming. He couldn’t bear staying there a second longer and stormed out opting for the drive thru instead. He still had to get his wife that chicken sandwich she craved.
But why was he so angry? He couldn’t understand it. Sure he missed you but what what this feeling? It wasn’t even something he should be mad about.
Seeing you with another man made him want to go and yank you from his arms. Who did he think he was? Touching you like you were his. What he hated the most was that he couldn’t do anything about it. You weren’t his girlfriend to begin with and he already had too much on his plate. Why couldn’t he just be happy?
Jungkook finally got that damn sandwich that his wife so conveniently craved today and headed back home. He was so not concentrating on the road and had a heart attack when he nearly rear ended the car in front of him. “Fuck! What’s up with all these red lights!?” he hit his steering wheel.
‘Music always helps, right’ he turned up the radio in an attempt to calm down and distract himself. It sure as hell wasn’t working but he was already pulling into his driveway anyway. He quickly made his way to the house not wanting anything else but to sleep.
W/N heard the door shutting loudly announcing her husbands arrival. “Hey he’s here. I’ll talk to you later okay? Bye, take care.” she hung up and made her way down.
“Here’s your sandwich.” Jungkook grabbed the brown bag and tossed it on the table making his way upstairs.
“Aren’t you gonna eat with me?” she looked back at him “Let’s eat toge..” Jungkook cut her off.
“Do you not listen to me?? I told you I already ate. And I hate chicken sandwiches!” he slammed the door behind him.
Of course he doesn’t like them. He only liked them when he ate them with you. But now you’re doing the same things you did with him with another guy. ‘I guess she already forgot about me’ he sighed and leaned against the door.
“Are you serious?! I can’t believe she made a move before you Hobi!!” you hit the table and continued your laughing fit that brought tears to your eyes.
“Okay, okay laugh all you want” Hoseok said looking around at all the people that were now staring at you. He leaned closer to tell you something privately, “but don’t you think that’s hot as fuck tho?” he shot you a smug smile when you finally looked up and took a sip of his coke.
“I mean yeah she’s my hero and all but what happened to you? Did you forget about all the messages you sent me?” you noticed his lightly colored cheeks deepen in color.
“I know but that’s another story Y/N. I actually feel nervous around her you know?” he said looking out the window. “Just the way she carries herself. She’s so confident and it makes me want her even more.” he touched his forehead dramatically. “You should see how much patience she has with the little ones we teach. I wonder if they ship us?”
“Oh my God Hobi I’m sure they do now eat your sandwich before it gets cold.” you pushed his untouched food closer to him. “So where is she taking you?”
“I don’t know actually. She said it’s a surprise so that’s exciting..” he said before taking a bite, “Wow Y/N this shit tastes better than you!”
“Did you really just compare me to a sandwich?” you shot him one of those looks he does when he’s disgusted. “Speaking of that.. I don’t think we should fuck around as much anymore.”
“Why is that?” he said looking a bit surprised, “You don’t love me now?”
This kid. Why is it so hard to have a serious conversation with him? Boy were you gonna miss him.
“No Hobi it’s not that but I think you should dedicate yourself to her. And only her.” you said giving him a serious expression.
“Yeah i guess you have a point there. BUT HEY!! We’re still gonna be friends forever right??” he was actually serious this time. “You’re honestly one of my coolest friends..”
“Of course Hobi!” you said and started throwing your trash away, “Are you done? Let’s go.”
The next day Jungkook wakes up to an empty bed. ‘Hmm where is she..’ he thought as he went to the bathroom to wash his face. It was supposed to be his day off but he doesn’t feel like staying at home trapped with his thoughts.
He decides to go make breakfast for him and W/N. But wait.. the door is locked. Did he accidently leave her out last night? ‘Ugh I’m such a dumbass.’ As he makes his way downstairs he sees the brown bag where he left it yesterday. She didn’t even eat it. W/N was downstairs too laying on the couch.
He walks up to her sleeping form. As much as he nudged her he couldn’t get her to wake up. ‘She must of not gotten a good night’s rest’ he says and carries her bridal style up to the bedroom. She’s as light as ever, is she not eating enough?
Jungkook goes back downstairs and cooks up enough eggs and bacon for two people. While eating he contemplates sending Y/N a message but quickly stops himself. He was already an asshole to W/N last night, he didn’t have to do this to her as well.
“I should get her flowers sometime.. maybe she’ll like that.” he said and put on coat, getting ready to leave.
Just like you thought, Hoseok stop coming over as often. And when he did it was to chit-chat and catch up which you were totally okay with. His company was the only thing you wanted anyway. Although he rarely came over because now he had other priorities.
Honestly you were not as lonely as you thought you’d be. Of course having your family far away didn’t help but at least you were doing well on your own.
Jungkook still crossed your mind every now and then but you weren’t sad anymore. Closure would have been nice.. yeah, but now you were over it. You didn’t want to see him. That would just break you again.
What would you even tell him anyway? Hey why did you leave without saying anything? That’s kind of fucked up.’ Noooo that’s stupid. You would sound crazy. He probably doesn’t care about what you have to say.
Jungkook was so excited and couldn’t wait to go home. He bought the biggest and prettiest bouquet of flowers for W/N and he felt like he was finally doing the husband thing right. Perhaps things could actually work out and he can be happy with his child and W/N. He felt proud of himself because now his baby will have a happy family to be raised in. That’s all he wanted.
He arrives home earlier than usual to surprise W/N and quietly makes his way to their bedroom hiding the bouquet of flowers behind him. Midway through he hears her talking. ‘Did she invite a friend over?’ he thought and kept getting closer until he could make up the words she was saying.
“Yeah I can’t believe how easy it was Jenny. He fell for it with no questions asked!” he heard W/N laugh and stopped walking up the stairs. What is she talking about?
“What do you mean why? I don’t have or want a job and his company is finally reaching the six-figures! Best believe I’m not saying bye to that!” she said and got up to grab her glass of wine from the coffee table.
‘Wine!? How can she be drinking wine right now??’ Jungkook was about to go in and confront W/N about drinking wine but stopped when he heard her speak up once again.
“Well I don’t know when exactly. Once I have him wrapped around my finger again, I’ll fake a miscarriage or something. I mean I can’t come out clean Jenny.” Jungkook had enough and walked into the room to sees W/N in her silk robe sipping on some wine, and talking on the phone.
He drops the flowers to the ground and the thud got W/N’s attention. She quickly tries to hide the glass of wine like Jungkook hasn’t already seen it.
“Fake a miscarriage? W/N what are you talking about, are you not pregnant?” Jungkook said in a soft voice trying to choke back his tears.
“No Kookie of course I am, why wou..” she was cut off.
“No don’t even try to cover it up. I heard you!! I heard everything you had to say. What a disgusting bitch you are.” he said surprising himself with his choice of words while W/N was incredulous to what was happening right now. Did she really just admit to everything?
“Here I am like a dumbass trying to work things out with you for OUR CHILD that doesn’t even fucking exist. Just because you want my money? You’re pathetic. Worst than I thought.”
“Jungkook please let me explain” W/N said getting closer “you don’t understand!” she tried clinging on to him but he just kept backing away from her.
“Get off me already! I don’t want you!!” Jungkook walked to the bed and grabbed W/N’s phone throwing it at her feet. “Call your friend Jenny again. Tell her how your plan just backfired and that now you need a new place to stay in.” he told her with the darkest gaze she’s seen on him. This was the first time she’s ever been scared of Jungkook.
He went to grab a leather jacket, “Pack your things. You better be gone by the time I get back.” he said as he put it on, walked down the stairs and slammed the door. The walls trembled with the force he closed the door with. W/N could hear one of their wall decorations fall on the ground breaking and she throws her glass of wine to the wall.
Why? Why did Jungkook have to find out and ruin everything! Only if she wasn’t stupid enough to be speaking it out loud. Even if she thought Jungkook wasn’t home. But she can’t call Jenny. How embarrassing would that be?
W/N began packing her bags. She didn’t know where she was going but she couldn’t bear seeing Jungkook again. She felt so humiliated and seeing him would only make it worse. She grabbed everything in sight that belonged to her and put it in her luggage.
She couldn’t help but get nostalgic while packing. With a blurry vision she looked around the room that felt so empty without her things. She loved this place so much.. It was hard to think this would be her last time seeing it.
Before heading out the door she stops and slowly gives the house a final scan. Everything was designed to her liking. It was so simple and minimalistic. But now it’s not hers anymore.
Jungkook had left his home without a destination. He just couldn’t stand being in her presence anymore. He was slowly achieving happiness until it all came crashing down like always.
How could W/N do something like this to him? He was right all along. She wasn’t the same person she was when they got married. She no longer had life goals. Always wanting to stay home and do nothing. So used to an easy life and having everything laid out for her. How can someone live like this?
Tears started rolling down his face. The betrayal of his life sinking deep within him. He didn’t have a place to escape to anymore but all he wanted right now was to hug you and tell you how stupid he was for not reaching out to you. If only you knew how pathetic he’s become.
Deciding he’s given W/N enough time to pack and leave he heads back home. His headache was killing him and he couldn’t stand driving aimlessly anymore.
There’s a deafening silence in his home that makes him feel suffocated. He’s not used to this. Everywhere he looks reminds him of how he imagined his little child running around having the time of their life. His creation, so tiny and beautiful. But it was all a lie. That only makes his heart hurt even more. He was so used to the idea of being a father that he had anticipated his child so much.
No he can’t do this. He needs to get out of here.
Jungkook mindlessly texts you.
You jumped up when you saw his contact name pop up in you screen. He was the last person you expected to message you on a Tuesday night. What does he want? By the looks of it he seems sad. Why didn’t he talk to his wife, was she out of town or something?
And he wanted to come over?! You didn’t know how to feel about that. You’re not his toy that he can use whenever he pleases. But he said he wanted to talk.. maybe that’s not a bad idea. Ugh what should you do??
Before you regretted it you sent him a text giving him permission to come.
Oh but look at you! Your hair is a hot mess and your lounging outfit wasn’t the cutest.. Well whatever. Who were you trying to impress anyway.
“Y/N!” you heard a broken shout from the living room, “Where are you?” you peeped from your room door.
“Oh it’s you? Omg you almost scared me to death Jungkook! Ever heard of knocking?” you said sitting down on your favorite spot of the couch. “Whatever you need to say, make it quick. I’m busy watching my drama” you said trying to sound as uninterested as you possible.
Jungkook couldn’t believe his eyes. It was you, finally. Everything about you was perfect right now. Especially your messy bun with the random strands falling effortlessly on your face. Just the sight of you was enough to let him breathe peacefully for once.
Giving him the cold shoulder after not seeing him for so long was honestly the hardest thing ever. He looked so good in that white t-shirt and his fluffy hair, ugh you loved his fluffy hair. You slowly looked up at him and noticed how swollen his eyes were.
“Jungkook what happened to you? Why were you crying?” you suddenly forgot about your facade and walked over to him. This was your first time seeing him like this and it broke your heart.
“Y/N.. I missed you so much. How could I have left you? I’m so stupid. And for what? That crazy bitch?” he said as he dropped onto the couch averting his gaze from yours. You had no idea what he was talking about but did he just say he missed you?
“She lied Y/N! She trapped me with her lies! And my baby.. ” his eyes were starting to water again. “My baby wasn’t even real!” he said throwing his head at his hands in defeat. He didn’t want to break down in front of you.
“Jungkook calm down” you said sitting down next to him and rubbed his back. He was very distressed, you thought it’d be better for him to get some rest so he can properly talk. “It’s okay we can talk about it later. You need some rest right now” you said guiding him to your bed.
It felt silly tucking him into bed but he was already drifting into sleep. You didn’t really feel like it was right to stay with him so you made your way out the door, but before you got further away you felt him tugging at your wrist.
“Don’t leave Y/N..” he said quietly but you continued walking instead. He didn’t let go of your wrist so you looked back at him. He looked so cute in his sleepy state, almost like a child.
“Please?” you heard him say.
A loud bang startled you awake. You give yourself a big needed stretch on the bed before sitting up and looking at the clock that read 11:36pm. When did you even fall asleep? There’s another loud noise coming from the kitchen so you decide to get up and investigate.
You find Jungkook trying to work the oven, “Jungkook why are you making so much noise?’ you say before yawning and rubbing your eyes.
“Oh sorry Y/N did I wake you? I just got really hungry so I helped myself to one of your frozen pizzas” he gave you a cheeky smile, “but how do you work this thing?” he said looking back at the oven like it was alien technology.
He was like a completely different person than from earlier. You help him turn on the oven and prepare the pizza together. He seemed to be enjoying himself, smiling at you often. You both sit down on your dining table to talk while you wait for the pizza.
“So you’re saying that your wife faked a pregnancy?” you say, shock evident in your face.
“Don’t call her that. I’m filing for divorce as soon as possible.” he said with a serious tone.
“I was so used to the idea of having a baby on the way. That’s why I didn’t contact you. I was trying so hard to prepare myself for my kid.” he said looking down at his hands.
It was hard to think of something comforting to say. You could only imagine how much pain he had to go through.
“It broke my heart to know that I was waiting for nothing all along” he sighed.
”All this time without you made me realize how much I need you in my life Y/N..” he grabbed your hand and interlocked his fingers with yours.
You weren’t over what he did to you despite the situation so you were about to let his hand go but you heard him speak again.
“Y/N I love you.” he looked at you with sincere eyes.
Your heart started to beat faster and you were suddenly nervous. What just happened? Is this a dream?
He squished your hand a little to get your attention. He wanted a response. What should you do? Of course you loved him back but he’s a man who can’t love. Was he serious right now? You can’t confess your love to him this quickly.
“Jungkook I..” you were about to say it but the oven timer interrupted you, “Pizza’s ready!” you quickly got up and ran away.
“Damn baby this pizza tastes amazing!” Jungkook said with his eyes closed as you focused on the drama you were watching earlier. “But not as good as you..” he said looking at you with a smug face.
You laughed harder than you intended to, “Stop comparing me to food!!”
“But this is the first time I do?” he looked over at you with suspicious eyes, “By the way, who was that guy you were with at our usual place?”
“Huh? What place?” you said trying to stall.
“Our chicken sandwich place Y/N!” he whined like a child, “I saw you there with another guy. He wasn’t even as cute as me.” he said pulling one of the pettiest faces.
“Ohh Hobi? Haha he’s just a close friend of mine.” you told him nervously and took another bite of your pizza. You weren’t about to admit how he fucked you in the same bed Jungkook just woke up from.
“Hmmm a little too close I’d say.” he drops his pizza and makes his way over to you, “Now c’mon we got a lot of catching up to do” he smirks down at you before picking you up and giving your ass a spank playfully.
“Jungkook my pizza!” you say as he drags you away.
“The pizza can wait baby, but I can’t.”
He carefully put you down on the bed and passionately kissed your lips like his life depended on them.
You thought you were over him but having him close to you one more time made you appreciate him that much more. Finally he was yours, and yours only.
