he would not fucking say that

idiot savant, 23, any prns

[shanesmouth]

ilya gesturing from inside his sweatpants

[lucylehane]

Jacob with some spot-on Ilya character analysis (and general thoughts on sex-as-self)

It's Open With Ilana Glazer

[bug-mp3]

Jacob Tierney in his new podcast interview confirming Ilya is basically as inexperienced as Shane is when they first hook up, thank you for speaking and confirming the truth 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

[francisforever2014]

[lesbianlandry]

the duality of shane

[sunnypeachyy]

Hudson Williams | Met Gala 2026

[gayhockeyshow]

[vanityfaire]

mens professional ice hockey is truly THEE losergirl sport. obsessively physical. sweat everywhere. intricate superstition rituals and blood sacrifices to gods who can't hear or don't care. hating your father. eating like your mother. going into the gladiator arena every night literally green with envy that everyone else is somehow faster and smarter and better than you. getting that one lame little gametime win-- arm cocked back and firing like a sniper, gunpowder on your stick, artificial windchill biting the back of your neck as your man collects your pass, landing the dirtiest filthiest most teeth grinding hit-- and suddenly a friendly face wearing familiar colors is crashing into your arms and licking your cheek and calling you a beauty. you're beautiful. holy shit. you're really beautiful.

[boyguilty]

i don’t think you understand, the most compelling part of shane hollander’s autism and how husdom williams portrays him is that he doesn’t know!

there is such a specific experience of having low-support needs and therefore going undiagnosed, especially within a highly specialized field, especially in a hypermasculine space.

everyone else, especially Ilya, is, to some degree or another, preforming a idea of masculinity, of what it means to Be A Hockey Player. they are themselves but a heightened version and when the game ends, they are able to leave the act behind.

but for shane, he IS that persona. his identity is Hockey Player. and you can tell!!! on the ice, hudson changes how shane carries himself and how much more visually he emotes. he’s put down all the work of navigating social dynamics and monitoring how others perceive him (which mind you, he doesn’t know he’s even doing)!! and that’s part of what makes him so good at hockey!! not that hockey is his special interest but because he’s wicked smart and clever and he’s not worrying about all this other shit anymore.

there is no way in hell that man would be emotionally literate enough to identify that feeling or even articulate that his every day feels like a performance and the performance feels real but i think hudson williams do such a fantastic job of letting shane wrestle with that cognitive dissonance.

[boyguilty]

let it be known that while i don’t think shane realized ilya was flirting at first i do not think shane didn’t know, ya know?

to me shane makes sense as kind of guy who probably knew he was queer, if not gay, and filed it among many of the other things he probably knows about himself but doesn’t do anything about

maybe it’s the general autistic apathy, maybe it’s a mindset of anything outside of hockey doesn’t matter, but either way, he knows. he is undeniably flirtatious with ilya but never past what is acceptable, never beyond what could be taken as just being friendly.

because while he does know, he also knows the circles he runs in, for so long i think he genuinely believed that he would meet a cool girl and yeah, he’d always be attracted to men or whatever but it wouldn’t make a big difference at the end of the day.

because here is the thing, shane is deeply acquainted with self-denial. but he is also ragged with insatiable wanting.

his flirting in the alley is him wanting, his “fuck off” in the shower is him wanting, every “come to the cottage”, ever sext, everything he has ever done and will ever do is in service of an empty pit in his stomach that will never be filled.

and i think it’s why he loves hockey, bc he wants and he wants and it always has more to give him, more games, more cups, year after year. always more, always better.

and in between those wins is ilya, who shane sees as infinite. i think the moment where shane realizes ilya has been flirting back, that ilya wants him too, when he makes it clear to shane that it is okay for him to want it, that’s the moment that like alters shane’s trajectory.

i think it’s very interesting to see how many people view shane as like either passive or meek when all i can see when i look at him is that under the flat affect is a man, alone in a room, screaming

[dntat-makesthings]

If our boy Shane Hollander was diagnosed.

[barbie-verse]

thinking hudson williams is hot is the most embarrassing reputation ruining annoying thing I could have done tbh like ohhh my god really? tall big muscles golden skin pretty hair and big brown bottom eyes kind man is hot? god fucking really. are you fucking stupid I hate myself. oh you think shane hollander is hot? fucking shane hollander? groundbreaking type shit going on here oh my god he’s tall should we tell everyone he’s tall and he's kind to people and his eyes twinkle wow she thinks the attractive man is attractive. you and everyone else. is pizza your favorite food too. fuck you. everyone look at her she thinks SHANE HOLLANDER is hot boundaries are really being pushed over here should we get her a medal because she thinks Mr Smile is easy on the eyes. “hear me out” and it’s a fucking marching band. should we call people magazine. vanilla. I DISGUST myself. summer blockbuster. I should be killed

(insp)

[extraaa-30]

[farmgf]

[sisaloofafump]

POV you’re at the 2017 MLH All-Star game in Tampa and Hollander just scored

[boyguilty]

let it be known that while i don’t think shane realized ilya was flirting at first i do not think shane didn’t know, ya know?

to me shane makes sense as kind of guy who probably knew he was queer, if not gay, and filed it among many of the other things he probably knows about himself but doesn’t do anything about

maybe it’s the general autistic apathy, maybe it’s a mindset of anything outside of hockey doesn’t matter, but either way, he knows. he is undeniably flirtatious with ilya but never past what is acceptable, never beyond what could be taken as just being friendly.

because while he does know, he also knows the circles he runs in, for so long i think he genuinely believed that he would meet a cool girl and yeah, he’d always be attracted to men or whatever but it wouldn’t make a big difference at the end of the day.

because here is the thing, shane is deeply acquainted with self-denial. but he is also ragged with insatiable wanting.

his flirting in the alley is him wanting, his “fuck off” in the shower is him wanting, every “come to the cottage”, ever sext, everything he has ever done and will ever do is in service of an empty pit in his stomach that will never be filled.

and i think it’s why he loves hockey, bc he wants and he wants and it always has more to give him, more games, more cups, year after year. always more, always better.

and in between those wins is ilya, who shane sees as infinite. i think the moment where shane realizes ilya has been flirting back, that ilya wants him too, when he makes it clear to shane that it is okay for him to want it, that’s the moment that like alters shane’s trajectory.

i think it’s very interesting to see how many people view shane as like either passive or meek when all i can see when i look at him is that under the flat affect is a man, alone in a room, screaming

[boyguilty]

let it be known that while i don’t think shane realized ilya was flirting at first i do not think shane didn’t know, ya know?

to me shane makes sense as kind of guy who probably knew he was queer, if not gay, and filed it among many of the other things he probably knows about himself but doesn’t do anything about

maybe it’s the general autistic apathy, maybe it’s a mindset of anything outside of hockey doesn’t matter, but either way, he knows. he is undeniably flirtatious with ilya but never past what is acceptable, never beyond what could be taken as just being friendly.

because while he does know, he also knows the circles he runs in, for so long i think he genuinely believed that he would meet a cool girl and yeah, he’d always be attracted to men or whatever but it wouldn’t make a big difference at the end of the day.

because here is the thing, shane is deeply acquainted with self-denial. but he is also ragged with insatiable wanting.

his flirting in the alley is him wanting, his “fuck off” in the shower is him wanting, every “come to the cottage”, every sext, everything he has ever done and will ever do is in service of an empty pit in his stomach that will never be filled.

and i think it’s why he loves hockey, bc he wants and he wants and it always has more to give him, more games, more cups, year after year. always more, always better.

and in between those wins is ilya, who shane sees as infinite. i think the moment where shane realizes ilya has been flirting back, that ilya wants him too, when he makes it clear to shane that it is okay for him to want it, that’s the moment that like alters shane’s trajectory.

i think it’s very interesting to see how many people view shane as like either passive or meek when all i can see when i look at him is that under the flat affect is a man, alone in a room, screaming

[cuppydogshane]

Ilya voice no hollander I like this wallpaper. is fantastic. Yellow is not usually your go to choice but I like when you get a little wild :) Just curious why there is woman moving illusion in the print though