BPD Sonic Thoughts

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Trigger warnings for suicidal thoughts, heavy self hatred, and a whole lotta angst

hai. i wrote abt shadow having bpd. im fine /srs

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thinking abt bpd shadow by the way. do you think he hates sonic because hes his FP

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The summer already feels like a dream that never happened...

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The unbearable guilt of existing.

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I'm so fucking mad

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Sometimes you can feel you're splitting, and you let it happen anyway. Gleefully even.

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BPD culture is people always assuming the worst of you...

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When people try to fix your NPD by withholding attention 🫠

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Why is it when they upset me, people think they should leave me alone or shut me down. This is literally the LAST thing you should be doing unless you want me to become even more upset or permanently damage my trust.

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That terrifying moment when you ask "Do you hate me now?", and they actually take a moment to think

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I wonder if people on my main are confused where all the bpd-related recs and posts on their dash come from

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Am I someone to be ashamed about to them?

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There's nothing worse than death, and I'm not afraid of death anymore.

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Me: I'm too paranoid People: you're too paranoid Also people: *do shit I was paranoid about*

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If you give me a syringe right now and tell me whatever's inside will kill me quickly and painlessly, I'll stab myself with it in a flash.