harbinger of destruction

32. I follow from trapqueen1994

[bpd-witchling]

I don’t think I’ll ever love someone like I loved him.

God why do I still think of you? This is torture

[lillipuppy]

Pour the alcohol down my throat until I'm not coherent anymore and then ask if I still love you

The answer will always be yes, every single time, even when all my thoughts are completely washed away ♡

[kosmogrl]

[bpd-witchling]

Do you know what it’s like to feel weak?

[bpd-witchling]

I was loved then. A goddess in chains, a comrade. Now there’s just blank faces of the fallen, listening to my echoing cries unable to console, incapable even

They are all husks of their former selves

[bpd-witchling]

I’m ready to be rose and the void again and end this existence. I was foolish to have those years of hope.

I heard from my angel again. We can maybe end this together like we spoke over all those years ago. My angel since when I was fresh into this world eyes opened. Will I finally make that trip to you across the world? Will we finally embrace and find peace in our togethered end. There was never any hope for either of us. Please stay with me now that you’re back

I can cook for us. Bake every yummy treat. Have a week of beauty and then go to sleep forever. The world was never made for us.

Angel you were there when I tried to leave, you said you’d accepted it. But I woke and I’m here and time has passed and I need to again

[danielhowell]

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[intrusivethoughtsgeneral]

happy bpd awareness month 

[girls69satanic666]

[sparkleguts]

how to feel like an angel

- set yourself on fire - chainsmoke expensive cigarettes - slice up your arms until theyre more blood than flesh  - tape your mouth shut and speak through violent acts  - go outside at 2.16am and scream at the sky  - get into a fistfight in an alleyway and spit blood on the figure lying near-unconscious on the pavement below you. make them thank you for it   - do a shot of vodka and remember how the burn feels like flying too close to the sun - lie in the dark crying. theres no one there to comfort you. youre a soldier and theres no one there to comfort you 

[scarymansion]

[bpd-witchling]

I must say I make a cute boi

[bpd-witchling]

God I was so tiny

[bpd-witchling]

I wish I could go back in time to when this site was safe and ours and we all talked and weren’t so alone

I miss you all

[dwtective]

They call me the avoider for reasons I don't really want to talk about

[bpd-witchling]

Ooops I did it again

I created huge walls

and lost some more friends

Oh

[bpd-witchling]

I feel selfish even texting her that I’m upset and feel let down. I need my friend to do more. I feel like I’m a waste of time. I’m so tired of hiding my feelings

[bpd-witchling]

Posting here cuz I have no one to talk to. My best friend of 27 years is really letting me down. She got engaged recently, I’m so happy for her. I’ve met him once. She’s living with him now and obviously is going to be more busy. I’m handling that. My grandpa died this month and I just recently broke up with my partner. She was supposed to visit last weekend but she never set an alarm and ended up sleeping through the day. She says sorry and then I don’t hear from her for days. She texts me saying there’s been some drama with his family. She asks me if I can hang on Monday. I have worked the same schedule for over a year and i always work Monday to Wednesday. Her schedule varies a lot so I let her pick the days we can hang. I’ve told her this multiple times. I just don’t feel important to her. I’ve put my feelings aside so many times bc I want her happy and stress free. I just wish she made some time for me. Like we could have talked on the phone the day she overslept. But she just disappeared. I know I’m not a top priority but am I priority at all? Literally all the years of friendship mean nothing