one of my favoriteeeee buddie things is when eddie is forced to say something to buck about HIS feelings. not chris, just him. and every word feels like it's dragging up blood with it, every syllable is gritted out or awkward, eyes not quite catching. 'it's not nothing'. 'you do matter to me.' not so easy when it's about you, is it? better to pretend that it's about anyone else, instead.














