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ABBYYYYđ„čâ€ïžâ€ïž Iâve been alright!
Iâve moved to a new apartment, got a part time job as a school counselor as I study part time for my masters in mental health counseling! Itâs been a bit of a wild journey for me, and I managed to get a crush on the most emotionally unavailable man ever đ but listen weâre ballin! healing that anxious attachment and whatnot đ
How have you been darling? Iâve missed you â€ïž
lmfao it absolutely boggles my mind when people think shit is this deep. what are you gonna do with screenshots about TUMBLR DISCOURSE? be so fr rn im so tired lmfao
this is my contribution to @notroosterbradshaw 's #hello december playlist challenge! my song was 'white christmas' by bing crosby - so feel free to listen to that to get in the mood!
what to expect in this fic: Bradley couldn't remember the last time he hadn't spent Christmas on some type of naval base. After all, he figured it would be better to work through the holiday than sit all on his lonesome. Lucky for him, his girlfriend of two years has other plans this Christmas. You can expect northern lights, snow lanterns, a little good ol' whimsical fun in the Swedish wilderness!
warnings: afab!reader, she/her pronouns, christmas content, santa clause, reindeers, foreign countries (if you're not swedish), mentions of ditching a plane, mentions of security measures on planes (listen, I couldn't help myself. I used to be a flight attendant), mentions of alcohol, l-bombs, random information about swedish christmas tradition, fluff, whimsical stuff.
disclaimer: this was such a fun challenge! and I went a little self indulgent and figured I'd teach y'all some swedish christmas fun! I added some links along the way to help visualize some Swedish stuff that people perhaps have not encountered before. enjoy!
Bradley was sat by the window seat of the Airbus A330 from Chicago. Glancing over to his side, your head had already settled on his soft, hoodie-clad shoulder. During your previous flight from LAX (in a smaller Boeing 737-900), youâd been granted the window seat. On this longer flight though, Bradley had offered to sit by the emergency exit over the wing.
The flight attendant had looked so relieved it was almost comical. They were always surveying their passengers, and he was grateful that they took the extra step to make sure able bodied and stronger looking people were sat at the emergency exits should they need to evacuate.Â
His girlfriend had given him a small smirk as heâd sat down at the emergency exit seat, and he could tell she was about to tease him light-heartedly. âOh, Iâm a pilot,â youâd giggled, soothing your words with a soft kiss to his shoulder. Bradley had only offered you a smile back, and as he felt the aircraft vibrate for takeoff, heâd smirked and decided to annoy you further, leaning over, letting his lips ghost by your ear as he murmured:
âV1,â as the aircraft hurtled by the last safe speed for which the runway would allow it to stop in case of engine failure or error
âRotate,â he continued, right as the nose rotated and started itâs ascent, mimicking the words currently spoken in the cockpit by the first and second pilot. Heâd snickered as you rolled your eyes, muttering âShow-off,â before turning to read your book. That had been at the beginning of your twelve hour flight, which was now soon coming to itsâ close - with you snoozing softly on his shoulder.
He glanced over to the other emergency exit across from him, where a woman in her late 40âs sat with a crossword. Bradley had heard her tell the attendants that she too worked as a crew member, and was very familiar with the procedure should they need to make an emergency landing, or ditch.
Just the thought of ditching this enormous plane made him shudder. He was quite glad that heâd never attempt it in his jets. More often than not, even with a bigger, slower flying aircraft, landing on water was tricky. If the water was rough, a bigger aircraft like this sometimes broke off in the middle. It wasnât impossible though, and he spent a good 5 minutes thinking of successful ditchings before kissing the top of your head, inhaling the sweet scent - one that instantly brought him peace and comfort. The rest of your flight to Stockholm Arlanda airport was uneventful, some turbulence here and there but it was to be expected.
As Bradley took in the sight of you snoozing on his shoulder, he couldnât help but smile. Bradley hadnât asked for leave from work over the holidays since heâd joined the Navy. There was never a reason for him to be home over Christmas, and most years heâd actually ask if there was any available work for him, just so that heâd have something to do on what most would consider one of the more cheerful days of the year. The exception had been last holiday, when youâd asked him if he wanted to come around for dinner with your parents to celebrate Christmas; the year before that your relationship had been relatively new, and youâd exchanged gifts on the 26th instead.Â
So, last New Years, after a few too many drinks - Bradley had confided in you his secret of having worked during the holidays since his early twenties - and that heâd often been stationed somewhere there really wasnât any snow, and how he really wished for one of those White Christmases that you saw on TV. Bradley would be the first to admit he got sappy when drunk, but your response had been so sweet - promising him a white Christmas next year, and he was almost sure he heard you swear that heâd never have to spend Christmas alone again.
And so, a few days into the new year, the two of you had begun to plan the journey you were currently on. A journey that would take you deep into the Swedish snow, up in the north where a small village called JukkasjĂ€rvi lay. Youâd decided upon it together, both agreeing that staying a night in the iconic ice hotel was a sure thing for the Christmas bucket list.
Bradley knew his girlfriend had spent the entire year researching everything Christmas-related in Sweden, and he also knew she was dying to tell him every single thing sheâd found. The two of them had scoured the internet for fun things to try whilst in Sweden, and theyâd narrowed it down to a list they figured they would manage during their two week stay.Â
The first week was for exploring, experiencing their bucket list, and lastly, Christmas. The second week would be for lounging, relaxing and just generally enjoying each otherâs company in the wooden cabin they had booked for themselves for the second week. Bradley had insisted on one of the cabins that had a sauna, because he desperately felt heâd need one in the cold climate.
You had teased him, asking him if he knew that it was tradition in the northern countries to sauna in the nude, and then roll in the snow in between sessions. He told you promptly that he did not know that. It sounded almost like a torture tactic. After heâd told you so, youâd forgone telling him about the use of smaller tree branches as whisks to whip against your back. He wasnât ready for that information yet, youâd decided.
As you successfully landed at Arlanda airport, the two of you sleepily made your way underground for the next part of your travel itinerary. Youâd decided that you might as well take the night train to JukkasjĂ€rvi as soon as youâd landed, and youâd only have to switch to a bus when you made it to Kiruna, a town that lay only 30 minutes away from your final destination.
Getting comfortable in the bunk bed youâd booked, Bradley smiled as you snuggled up against his chest and fell fast asleep. Bradley, however, found himself too excited to let sleep grasp at his consciousness just now. He was spellbound as his eyes gazed out at the gray night sky, already seeing thick snowflakes falling around the moving train. But soon, the warmth of your body, the gentle rocking of the train, and the flurry of snow outside the window of the compartment had him lulled to sleep.Â
Bradley was fucking freezing. Of course, he had anticipated that the Northernmost cities or villages of Sweden would be cold, but this was beyond anything heâd ever experienced. He was surprised to find he liked it. It kept his head surprisingly clear as he inhaled the icy air.
He was suddenly glad the two of you had researched extensively what type of gear youâd need to sleep in a hotel made of snow and ice, because his wool thermal underwear, his fleece midlayer, his balaclava, warm hat and mittens kept his body sufficiently warm in the coveralls the ice hotel had provided you.Â
He snuck a peek at you, where you stood, enraptured by the guide that had welcomed you. The guide had first informed you that the temperature was about -15 degrees celsius, which meant that it was roughly 5 degrees fahrenheit. The guide then started telling you about the Polar nights, or as they called it, mid winter nights âOh my god, Bradley that sounds magicalâ you whispered to him, your voice laced with an endearing amount of excitement.
He smiled down at you and squeezed you close to his side to show he was excited too. The polar nights were a period of time in Lapland where the sun never dared to show itself, the guide expressed, and the only light they got were two hours near noon that they called âblue hoursâ, when the night sky turned a little lighter blue, and the white snow reflected that soft light to make it illuminate the nature just a little bit. Your eyes were twinkling excitedly, and Bradley thought he might not have seen anything more beautiful in his life.Â
You were looking up at him, giggling softly as the hot breath made wisps of smoke appear in the cold air. âYou have ice in your mustache, Roos,â you murmured, in awe of the fact that almost every single individual hair of his mustache had ice crystals on them, on the bottom from the moisture of his lips, and the top from where he exhaled warm air onto it.
Rooster was pretty sure he could feel the hairs in his nostrils freezing as he inhaled - it was a weird sensation, but something he got used to surprisingly quickly. âYeah, well your eyelashes are icy too,â he mumbled with a quick smile before nudging your side, to make you turn your attention back to the guide.Â
The guide was smiling at the two of you, explaining how the inside of the ice suites were actually about -5 to -7 celsius due to the insulation that the snow and ice provided (Bradley thought that sounded like a contradiction if he ever heard one), which was about 19 degrees fahrenheit.
As the tour ended, the two of you made your way into the hotel. Bradley was blown away at the detail with which the artists had sculpted ice to look like art. He could hardly voice how in awe he was, which caused him to just gape and stare at the interior. You, on the other hand, were ohh-ing and ahh-ing and pulling on his hand to drag him further in to explore the ice bar, and the ice church. The two of you shared a very cold drink in one of the bars icen glasses, giggling and sharing an excited kiss over the first drink of the night.Â
âHappy holidays, Bradleyâ you sighed happily, leaning your body into him. Bradley was used to having you close, so the distance your thick clothing provided had him whining softly at not being able to have you closer to him.
âHappy holidays, my love. This is already above and beyond any of my wildest dreams right now,â Bradley confessed into your beanie clad head, pressing a soft kiss to the fabric, hoping you felt the sentiment of it. It seemed you did, since you offered him a breathtaking smile that had his heart doing double time somewhere under all his layers of clothing.Â
âWe canât forget to watch for the northern lights tonight!â you reminded him softly, sipping on your drink. He shook his head, smiling at your eager tone. âI wouldnât miss it for the world, sweetheart,â he had listened to your calculations, and the general knowledge youâd picked up about the aurora borealis, and he hoped youâd get to experience one tonight.Â
After a chilly night in the ice suite, you spent the rest of the week in your booked warm hotel room, enjoying fancy dinners during the evenings (which, admittedly, didn't always feel like evenings due to the almost constant darkness), treating yourselves to glasses of prosecco and wine. Giggling with each other in the room beforehand as you dressed up fancy. Bradley alternated between slacks and a button-up, and full blown suits. A favorite of yours was his navy blue one, that he wore tonight, on the 22nd of December.Â
âHave I told you that you look gorgeous in this?â you said, voice a low murmur as you slung your arm around his neck in the elevator on the way to the dining hall.
âNope,â Rooster smirked, dropping down to give you a breathtaking kiss âBut thank you, sweets. You look real handsome,â he teased, noticing that you referred to him as the endearment he most used for you - âgorgeousâ, switching up the endearment to the one you most used for him - âhandsomeâ. But heâd have likened your look to âbeautifulâ in all reality, because thatâs what he could best describe your deep green attire, hair and makeup all done up and pretty.Â
As you sat down to eat, you figured youâd go over the plans you had for the morning. Bradley had been looking forward to this one all year. Youâd booked to go sledding, to see the reindeer farm located on the native Swedish land.
Bradley and you had spent countless hours searching for the perfect place to be able to interact with the reindeer, and the perfect opportunity seemed to be close enough, with a museum of the SĂ mi customs and cuisine, which gave you a two for one experience - culture and some good old fashioned Christmas experiences.Â
âWhat if we see Santa?â you exclaimed excitedly as you raised your glass to your lips. âWhy would you say that?â Rooster furrowed his brows, feeling like he mightâve missed something important here
âRoos, he lives here!â his girlfriend exclaimed, as if mortally wounded that he did not know that Santa Clause resided in JukkasjĂ€rvi. âI thought he lived on the North Pole?â Bradley laughed, and you shook your head vehemently âNo, babe. The Swedes insist he lives here, in Lapland. Of course, I saw some forums argue he lives in Finland - but I choose to believe he lives here. Wouldnât it be great if we saw actual Santa?âÂ
Bradley could only smile at your satisfied smile over the rim of your champagne glass, a determined twinkle in your eyes. He loved the fact that you were kind of whimsical, trying to make this a real White Christmas for him to remember - and he couldnât exactly help that it made his heart grow three sizes.Â
âAnd how is it that you know this then?â Rooster inquired, smiling softly as you took a bite of your meal. He had an inkling that youâd gone all in for the research, to surprise him with fun facts during your trip. Your bashful smile confirmed his suspicions.Â
âWell, I might have read up on Swedish Christmas traditions - wouldnât it be fun to follow them? Iâve even booked their Christmas smörgĂ„sbord!â Bradley couldnât help but throw his head back and laugh at the excited sparkle that hid beneath your lashes, his chest filling with warmth for his girlfriend again. âThereâs a Christmas smörgĂ„sbord? Is that tradition?â he inquired curiously.
âYup! There sure is. They have small sausages, meatballs, of course, and a ham that they eat with sweet mustard - and some weird pickled herring. Iâm a bit wary of those, but we have to be brave, Bradley. We have to show the vikings weâre one of them,â your soft giggle mingled with his laughter, as the soft voice of Bing Crosby meandered through the dining hall, singing about White Christmas as the snow fell peacefully outside of the window.Â
âIs that on the 25th, then?â you shook your head no, âSwedish folk celebrate Christmas on the 24th. Which makes sense if Santa lives here! Heâll do these countries first, and then come to us. I knew that man couldnât possibly do the whole world in one day!â
As dessert was served, and your glasses began to empty, the two of you were feeling giggly, sleepy and all around filled with warmth and Christmas cheer. As you stood up after having paid, Rooster wrapped a large arm around your frame, pulling you into his chest to place a lingering kiss on the top of your head. âThis was one of the best ideas weâve ever had, darling,â he murmured, placing a couple of more kisses against your temple as you slowly made your way up to your room.
Cold, biting air nipped at Roosters cheeks as the sleigh moved forwards in the snow. It was a clear sky today, which heightened the chance to see the auroras considerably, youâd told him happily after the two of you enjoyed a lengthy breakfast together. Youâd made Bradley try some Swedish spread called âkaviarâ to which he retched for a good three minutes, before he swore revenge upon you, making you giggle as he pretended to glare at you.Â
Bells were softly jingling as the large horses trotted along the small streets through the tiny village, headed towards the snow clad boreal forest. Bradley was squinting to see the houses that lined the streets. Some of them had snowmen and women in their front yards, but many of them had weird, cone shaped little snow buildings by the entrance to their homes.
He furrowed his brows, pointing with a mittened hand in the direction of one before he asked out loud âWhat are those little lit up things? Are those made of snow?â he watched as you turned your head to inspect them too, before the driver of the carriage half turned and smiled.Â
âThose are snow lanterns,â he spoke, before gently saying something in Swedish to one of the horses to calm it before continuing âtheyâre made out of snow. Mostly children will make them by making snowballs, and arranging them in a cone shape. Their parents will then put a candle in the cone as the dark falls, and it works as a pretty lantern the children can watch from their windows before they go to sleep. Some parents tell their children thatâs how Santa will find their houses.â
Bradley thought to himself that if he ever had any children, heâd make snow lanterns with them to make sure Santa and his reindeers found his house. The smallest stitch of sorrow settled deep within his chest, before he caught sight of your face - looking as enamored as he was by the idea of snow lanterns.Â
âMaybe we could make one later?â Bradley told you softly, smiling down at your bundled up form. âSadly, the snow is too dry to form anything. They mustâve made these earlier in the year, when the snow was still wet.â the driver said before turning around completely to steer the horses into a narrow path in the woods. At this, your face lit up, and Rooster could tell that that was something you had read up on.
âRoos, did you know that the native people of Sweden are said to have about one hundred different lexical words for snow? Like the quality of snow matters!â you looked so beautiful like this. The soft light of the day, the crystal white and sparkling snow whirling all around your face, cheeks cold and eyelashes frosted. He had to take a deep breath to settle himself, a lopsided, goofy smile on his face. âIs that so? What type of snow is this then?âÂ
âWell, seeing as itâs so cold, Iâd say this is probably the powdery sort. The kind that when you throw it at someone, it just dusts away in the wind. I would guess that to make snowmen and snow lanterns, youâd need the heavier, wetter kind that falls in the beginning of the season, when itâs not below freezing,â you surmised, and Bradley just chuckled, ruffling your hat on your head âThatâs my smart girl!â
As you approached the reindeer farm, Bradley could practically feel you vibrating with excitement beside him, and as the sled came to a stop, Bradley jumped down, offering his mitten clad hands out to you to help you down.
His heart stuttered a bit at the breathtaking smile that had formed on your lips, and he opted to seize you by the waist, lifting you down instead. Your happy peal of laughter as he spun you once, made a large grin appear on his lips as well. âHi, baby,â he murmured, as your arms snaked around his neck, leaning down to peck his lips lovingly before he let you down.Â
The afternoon on the 23rd was spent petting and feeding the reindeer, cooing over how absolutely sweet and adorable they were, eating candied almonds you bought (and learning they were popular here during Christmas), had a glass of mulled wine each with almonds and raisins in it, and learning about native Swedish customs and culture. As the two of you meandered towards the end of the little market they had put up, suddenly Bradley heard his girlfriend suck in a heavy gasp.
âBradley!â you whisper-screamed, jumping up and down whilst pointing towards the thicker forest a bit away.
There, between the thick cover of pine trees, a soft gold light was moving slowly in the thick snow. Bradley furrowed his brows, staring more intently as he caught a glimmer of red flashing in the soft light.
âOh my God, Roos!â your voice was borderline hysteric with unbridled, childish excitement, and Bradley himself couldnât help but feel somewhat the same way as you. There, in the woods, was undoubtedly a man, who was quite large - his thick white beard decidedly not a fake one.
One of the reindeer close to you, heard the ruffle of movement and it snapped its head around to look at the man. It slowly turned and started walking towards the man, and both yours and Bradleysâ jaw dropped as you faintly saw the man chuckling, a small piece of parchment sticking out of one of his deep, worn pockets.Â
Bradley hardly wanted to blink, but he had to gauge your reaction - were you seeing this!? Were his eyes deceiving him? But no, as he looked at you, the same stunned, wondrous facial expression was on your face as well. âBabyâŠâ Bradley said incredulously, and when his gaze returned to the spot where heâd seen the man and the reindeer - they were gone.
âWas thatâŠ?â Bradley started, and you only nodded mutely, completely flabbergasted at what youâd just witnessed. âI need a moment,â you told your boyfriend and he nodded, only letting one small laugh escape his lips as he shook his head - a new found twinkle shining in his amber eyes as the two of you ordered a cup of hot chocolate, Bradley opting to have the smiling girl clad in a GĂĄkti (a traditional dress for the SĂ mi) fill his cup with a minty liquor as well.Â
As the two of you sat in the carriage on the way home, silence stretching through the darkness of the night, the moon illuminating the snow enough so that every single detail of the landscape was still dimly visible, you finally spoke.
âThat was the real Santa Clause, wasnât it?â your voice sounded revered, and serious. âI am so fucking sure that that was the real Santa, didnât you see the reindeer approach him!?â Bradley could barely contain his mirth âShh, Bradley! No swearing!! Heâll know!â you hissed before triumphantly saying âI told you he lived here!â
âOh, fuck! Shit, I meanââ he laughed at himself âI wonât swear anymore,â before silence fell between the two of you. However, the night wasnât completely silent anymore. Aside from the soft noises from the horses, and the bells jingling softly, a peculiar sound met their ears.
The driver smiled softly âI believe weâll see some northern lights soon,â you gasped softly at the drivers words âOh my god, I read that some people can hear the auroras,â and as soon as the words were out of your mouth, the sky exploded in shades of green, blue and at some spots violet as well.
The sharp intake of air from you was the only thing filling the night, except for a peculiar crackling sound. It was so overwhelming, seeing the lights dance slowly across the expanse of the night sky. Bradley had never seen anything more beautiful in his entire life, and as the sled slowly came to a stop, he noticed that his tears had already frozen on his cheeks.Â
When youâd admired the aurora in awed silence for a few minutes, the driver softly had the horses come to a walk again, sensing that staying still for any longer would have them freeze. However, the lights were still slowly dancing back and forth over the skies, and Bradley was sure heâd have a kink in his neck from the way he couldnât bear to rip his gaze away from this phenomena.
All at once, Bradley could understand why the SĂ mi, and natives in his own home country might believe that a higher being was sending them omens through the lights. They were breathtaking, and if he hadnât known the science behind the lights - he was pretty sure he too would believe that they were otherworldly. Perhaps heâd choose to believe they were either way.Â
The two of you reached your room, drawing a hot bath before peeling your clothes off. When youâd warmed up a little, the two of you chattered excitedly about what youâd experienced that day - arguing over who had been the nicest this year.
âListen, I am one hundred percent sure Santa saw me give Hangman the last piece of the birthday cake earlier this year!â
âBradley, that was his birthday cake!âÂ
âSo then it was pretty nice of me to let him have it, right?â
Waking up on the 24th, Rooster nuzzled his face into the crook of your neck, inhaling your sweet scent as you slowly came to consciousness. âMerry Christmas, Roos,â your soft voice had a sleepy hint to it as your fingers carded through his slightly longer locks.
âMerry Christmas, love of my life,â Bradley sighed happily, placing soft kisses to your exposed neck as his arms wound tight around your midsection. The two of you lay wrapped in each others embrace for a big part of the morning, before exchanging a single gift with each other.Â
Later that day, you joined the other residents in eating a Christmas smörgĂ„sbord, listening to Christmas songs, and lastly, dancing around the large tree that sat in the lobby. Drinking Christmas ale, mulled wine and sparkling cider. It was the best Christmas Bradley had had for years, and as the jolly type of music wound down to a beautiful Swedish rendition of âO Holy Nightâ transitioned into âWhite Christmasâ, Bradley once again embraced you, swirling you around in a slow dance.
His lips found yours in a kiss that felt as if the northern lights had exploded within the two of you, and were dancing merrily between you.
âThank you,â Bradley murmured against your lips âfor giving me the best Christmas of my life,â he continued, pulling back to admire your beautiful, twinkling eyes.
âThank you, Bradley,â you replied softly, squeezing his hand before resting your cheek on his sweater clad chest, swaying softly to the tune of the beautiful song that rang out in the winter night.
a/n: ahhh!!! I hope you guys liked this one! I added links to give a visual to things that not everyone knows of or has seen before. I hope it wasn't distracting! Please let me know what you thought of this whimsical little fun fic! <3 lots of love to those who don't celebrate christmas, or have a hard time with christmas as well - I love you so much<3