Kinda diary

Bravemonk’s blog. I write my thoughts here, mostly for myself.

[brave-notes]

I AM CRYING

BECAUSE FRIENDSHIP IS SO SACRED

LIKE, THESE PEOPLE TRUST YOU

AND YOU TRUST THEM

AND YOU HAVE FUN TOGETHER

AND GO THROUGH SHIT TOGETHER

AND I CRAVE THAT

I NEED THIS

[brave-notes]

STRANGER THINGS 3

STRANGER THINGS 3 IS FUCKING AWESOME

I LOVE CHARACTERS

I LOVE THEIR OWN STORIES

I LOVE THE 80’S AESTHETICS

I LOVE THE SOUNDTRACK

I LOVE HOW THEY ALL TEAM UP IN THE END

I LOVE HOW MUCH ATTENTION THE RUSSIANS GOT

and the most important:

I LOVE JOYCE AND HOPPER ❤️❤️❤️

[brave-notes]

Я устал

Я устал лежать в этой больнице

Меня задолбал мой сосед

Он слишком навязчивый, жалкий и страшный

Когда уже я вернусь домой

Я так хочу домой

[brave-notes]

Мне больно

НЕНАВИЖУ СТОМАТИТ

НЕНАВИЖУ КОГДА БОЛИТ ГОРЛО

НЕНАВИЖУ КОГДА ЗАБИТ НОС

НЕНАВИЖУ БОЛЬ ВО РТУ

НЕНАВИЖУ БОЛЕТЬ АНГИНОЙ

КОГДА ЭТО ЗАКОНЧИТСЯ УЖЕ

[brave-notes]

So much time is being wasted!

Excelling in classes is the bare minimum that I should be doing!

I want to try things out: photoshop, video editing, 3D design, vlogging.

Along with that, I want to eat healthy, ride a lot, run, lift, try veganism, travel...

I will not do more work on my class projects than I have to anymore. Time is priceless, and other people cannot take it from you.

Plan for now: go home strictly at 6 pm. Whatever is not finished, is not finished.

I need to work on myself!!!

[brave-notes]

I feel poisoned.

I need clarity in my mind, and that requires some willpower, like: don’t spend that $60 right now, don’t eat that third pancake, order some fruits or veggies, go for a walk, hit the gym.

I can do it.

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Ay. I’m gonna lose my fat, become super confident, wear all the dope ass clothes that are chilling in my closet now, and feel happy. You feel me?

This will be when I realize that all of this fatphobia is bullshit, and I can choose to be happy any moment.

[brave-notes]

13.11.18 - some thoughts

I got my new pc up and running, still not sure about many things (whether my GPU warms too much, is my ram enough, etc).

BUT, I would like to stream. And also learn photoshop. I think these two go well together.