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Nothing like I expected but everything I ever needed

Maybe I am naive and possibly innocent but I want to be with just you. I don’t like to think of what once was. What once possessed you or once was yours when I was not there. I want to be yours and I want you to be mines. I want it to last for a long time. If it was not possible in the past, let’s make it possible now and tomorrow and until the day we can’t.

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my new dream is you

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Aunque pense ir a verte por la ultima vez cuando te vi sabia que eso no iba terminar asi.

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Me dijistes que me querias abrazar y acepte. Pense que seria como la primera vez y que me abrazarias y immediatamente te fueras pero esta vez cuando me dejastes ir me tomastes de la cintura de nuevo para envuelverme en ti. Senti que mi cuerpo ocupo un hueco en el tuyo que aparecia que antes no vi. Tu pecho y tus brazos fuertes y me hicieron sentir debil. Me habia sentido fuerte toda la vida hasta que me abrazastes como que fuera el vaso mas fragil que existe.

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update

I’m 24 and living in a place I never thought I’d live. I’m living in the south. It has been hard. I moved me a month after graduating college. There were many times I wanted to go back home to my cousins, my sisters, my parents, and my church. But I stuck it out. I received a position as an aba therapist for 15 hours/wk but this wasn’t enough. I then after a difficult decision took another job that was better (more benefits, hours, experience). That was hard too. I had to meet people I thought didn’t like me and the atmosphere was different. I stuck it out there. A year and 4 months later, I have improved so much in my field and even got a promotion and like the people I work with. This place has become a second home.

I also started grad school and I like it. This was also a difficult decision and it’s been hard but I want to stick it out and see what happens. I eventually fell in love with someone that had been pursuing me for over a year. This is also difficult. I don’t see him as much as I should but still find myself clinging to him. I’ve started to depend on him but can’t too much.

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Dad gracias al SEÑOR, porque El es bueno; porque para siempre es su misericordia.

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Grad schools to apply to

Mercy College (NY)

Georgia State

California University of Pennsylvania 7k tuition

University of Massachusetts–Amherst: Amherst, M $13,000

Eastern University (PA) 6k

Got in to Georgia Southern’s master program

#mythoughts #wrote this list long ago thought id post as a reminder #in the future

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I agree. Somewhat. College is way too overpriced and frankly, you could probably learn as much or more, from reading textbooks. However, 4 years dedicated to improving yourself sounds pretty amazing. In the workforce, mistakes are not tolerated. Mistakes are a cause of whether you earn a paycheck or not. Going straight into the workforce does not guarantee passion but rather labor. College is a place to be educated not only in what you read in a textbook but what you learn from other fascinating people you meet. A place where mistakes are okay because it's "just college" and now is the time to make them and learn from them. It's a place where your become passionate about.

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Se que me he enamorado de ti porque cuando no te veo me falta el respirar. Mis manos tiemblan a abrazar mi propio cuerpo buscando el calor del tuyo que nunca he sentido. Se me olvida el tono de tu voz y su risa. Igual cuando te veo me hace dificil respirar porque me parece que te he soñado y no quiero despertar. Respira. Suspira. Exhala. No te puedo tocar tus manos pero te veo. Me conformo ver tus labios y escuchar mi nombre en el susuro de tú voz. Parece que esa voz es un instrumento unico. Si fuera un instrumento seria una mezcla de el viento por la ventana en la mañana, la sonrisa de un niño y un violin. Sus ojos casteñanos me miran y cuando volteo al otro lado y lo miro otra vez le veo una sonrisa que bailan en sus ojos pero brincan a sus labios. El me quiere tocar tambien. Su ojos lo dicen. Pero los conformamos con mirarlos como que el tiempo nunca pasara. Gente entra y sale y yo con mis brazos cruzados cuando siento el viento pasar lo miro. Y el me mira. Y ese respirar se va. Suspira. Exhala. No se que pasara mañana. Cuando te volvere a ver otra vez. Pero no quiero perder tu vista en este momento. Creo que pagaria miles de dolares para expermentar este momento otra vez. Estoy enamorada de ti porque antes respiraba por yo misma. No dependia de nadie. Suspira. Pero...Exhala. Creo que esos dias no existira más. Suspira. Exhala.

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