Love's a bitch

[breakupstuff]

if you don't love her little things, don't love her at all

[wartortles-deactivated20180708]

your 12th emoji is how you'll die

[breakupstuff]

💔- that says something

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[breakupstuff]

I hoped things would turn out different between you and I but I realize now that I need to just leave you behind. I've found that there is no purpose in watering a garden filled with dead flowers. everything comes to an end and this is ours. one way or another you'll become just another soul I used to think I knew.

[khanti-karuna]

Day 1: I cried so hard that it scared my father; he spent the night outside my bedroom door just to make sure I didn’t stop breathing like a newborn in her crib the first week Day 2: I went to work and cried in the bathroom Day 3: I believed I was cured, now I think my mind was playing a cruel joke on me Day 4: I told you I missed you and you replied with “thank you” Day 5: I saw a picture of you on Instagram and it lit my throat on fire so I burned your love letters over the flame Day 6: I smoked weed with a boy on his back porch and he asked questions you were afraid of but still I couldn’t kiss him on his couch Day7: I couldn’t sleep because I kept dreaming of you kissing other girls on your couch Day 8: I gave you all of your stuff back and you thought I looked like a warrior but really I went home and cried an entire ocean into existence Day 9: I laughed without you Day 10: I kept finding excuses to text you and you kept ignoring me Day 11: I cried until my stomach heaved itself up and I slept next to the toilet in case those nasty dreams came again Day 12: since when is heartbreak so goddam romantic? There’s nothing pretty about losing feeling in my knuckles after squeezing my hands so tight to keep from texting you Day 13: I could never squeeze them tight enough; I could never have imagined that you would be so good at letting me fade Day 14: the doubt makes my spine feel less like vertebrae and more like a giant icicle (you never loved me) Day 15: I found out you had replaced me and it flicked at my bruises but my ribs didn’t break Day 16: I told everyone about you and they said you were stupid for leaving but I think you were stupid for staying the first time you sliced my heart on the side of the road Day 17: I didn’t think about you for an entire night because I was drunk in bed with someone else Day 18: what color are your eyes? How big are your hands? Where was that freckle on your face I used to look at while you slept? Day 19: sometimes all I feel in my chest is my heart trying to break out of its cage I think it’s tired of everything I have put it through Day 20: I’m sorry I couldn’t ignore your birthday; I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry Day 21: this was a shitty poem about a shitty person but I don’t think of you so much anymore, I don’t think of you so much anymore

they say it takes 21 days to break a habit (via khanti-karuna)

[breakupstuff]

And even in that moment when I stood at the altar saying my vows, I remember distinctly looking into his eyes and wishing it was you I was speaking to.

[breakupstuff]

I really wish I could stop checking my phone every 2 seconds to see if you've texted me back cause you haven't and you wont and that kills me.

[breakupstuff]

Put a gun to my head and pull the trigger but it still couldn't compare to the pain you've caused me.

My Twenty-One Word Story

[breakupstuff]

But it's like your always there as soon as I get better just to throw me in another hurricane. And you expect me to survive it and come back to you and the worst part is I do. I'm just different inside every time I get through it.

[breakupstuff]

But my God this is what I've been waiting for and it's not what I expected and not what I want and I just want things to be better between us

[breakupstuff]

But it's 3am and I should be asleep cause I was supposed to get over you yesterday but you told me you missed me and now I need you again.

[denmarknt]

whatever *drinks red wine* *lies in the middle of road*

[stormyyskiess]

I know it’s kind of stupid, but sometimes I wish he would accidentally find my blog, so he could realize all the things he did to me, without me having to tell him. Because I did love him, and I loved so much about him. I just want him to know that.

[breakupstuff]

When I said "I have a question" and you replied "Oh God... Ask" I knew right then and there that you did something I would be mad about or you wouldn't have been so nervous for my question.

[breakupstuff]

I'm a sucker for guys who are good with words. It's like you can do anything and as long as your apology can manipulate my mind you win me over. I guess that's why I'm still in love with you. You've talked to other girls and cheated and tried to get back with your ex all while we were dating. I finally confronted you on it then you said "Im gonna be completely and totally honest with you... I wasnt really over her when i got together with you. And idrk but I've been getting over her and i really dont know why i did any of that but im over her now i moved on and its just us now baby girl I swear there's not any other girl who's taking your place again... I think now is the best time to tell you what I've been waiting to say... I love you princess. I love you so so so much! Please forgive me baby it will never happen again i promise. I will do anything for you. I will do anything to keep you. I couldn't bear to lose you because I was dumb and tried to get back with her when she isn't even a quarter as good as you are. Please please forgive me baby." And I swear if you had chosen different words I wouldn't have forgiven you. But you chose those and I stayed and I hope that was the right decision.

[breakupstuff]

I thought that no one could ever hurt me as much as he did. But then my God you came along and everything went back to how it was with him.

[breakupstuff]

She wasn't just broken. She was beautifully broken. Her curly hair all tangled as black tears streak her cheeks. Her eyes glittering with the reflection of the moon light on her tears. She was broken like a shattered piece of glass that was just so perfectly broken in a pattern of which you couldn't focus on much else. She was so amazingly gorgeous when she was broken it made you wonder what she looked like when she was genuinely happy. I wish that girl was me. Cause then you would've fallen in love with me instead of that girl. Instead of her.