Blaine shook his head. “It’s nothing. Besides, some of these feel kind of romantic, especially this time of the year. And I’m not always feeling that right now. But I will gladly take some bestie time,” he grinned. “Really? I wouldn’t have thought that at all,” he said of Cameron.
Blaine chuckled. “Maybe. Maybe one day when we’re old and gray, with grandkids and partners that are no longer around for whatever reason, we will get our stuff figured out.” He was quiet for a moment as he considered what she asked about Sebastian being a villain. “I’m not sure. Maybe he won’t always the villain per se in what happened with my grandmother’s store, but I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to forget the roll he played. Forgive, maybe, but forget? I’m not sure. I understand that to them it’s just business, but I still don’t think it’s right. Like you said, there was a ruthlessness to it. And there was no apology. Like it was my fault that I couldn’t understand that it was just business.” He could feel himself getting worked up as he took a breath. “Things should matter, you know?”
“His heart is in the right place,” Blaine smiled as Tina talked about Sam’s lack of subtly. “And it wasn’t so long ago I was waxing poetic to him about how maybe Sebastian was the one that got away. So it makes sense, that he is wondering if something is there. But things have changed… so much has changed, since then.” He laughed at the image of Sebastian stooping down to kiss him. “There was a time when nothing might have stopped him from that, least of all a little stooping.”
Blaine tilted his head, drinking more wine. “I think we both kind of realized it. I might have started the conversation but he jumped right in and agreed. I think it was becoming obvious that it was a bit like when Ross and Rachel broke up and Monica, Chandler, Joey, and Phoebe didn’t know how to act around them and what was okay and not okay. It was silly.”
Blaine almost choked on his wine. “No. No. No intel. I don’t know where things are or how they will play out, but what I do know, is that if anything does happen, it has to come from Sebastian and I. Not anyone else.”
He shook his head. “We didn’t meet. Even though we were going to and he didn’t show up, when we decided to exchange gifts, we knew we would have to figure out a way to do that secretly. We keep saying “not knowing has it’s charms”. But I think deciding to exchange gifts is in part because he realized how much I enjoy Christmas and he knows there are things happening that make this year, a little rough. There have been different times where we were like “if I could give you this, I would,” so it was like, we should make an effort to do this. Apparently he has a friend who is a doorman at in a building who agreed to accept gift for me, for Mr Mystery and he’d already left mine. The crazy thing, the building is like a block and a half from here. We could be neighbors. We might see each other all the time and not know it.”
“I need the bestie time,” Tina said sincerely. “So anything you still want to do, just let me know. “
She smiled at Blaine’s elderly vision of Seblaine. She was glad he could chuckle about it all - it really had been a strange road for them over the course of the autumn. She said tenderly, “You’re a wonderful person to think about forgiving, especially since this is the second time he’s done villainous things since we’ve known him.” She sipped her wine and thought about what he’d said. “There’s been no apology? Huh. Well that makes a big difference. It wasn’t until he apologized in high school that everyone (well, except Kurt) came round to him.” She stared up at the Christmas tree. “I don’t know that he has to apologize for running his business, but just saying he’s sorry that it happened to you...showing some regard for how you feel about it all...that does seem in order.” Her brow furrowed. “Ugh, that makes me feel guilty for being nice to him lately.”
She looked Blaine pensively. “So forgive, but maybe not forget. Maybe, maybe not. I guess the question is, do you want to try to forget? Do you want all of this to be the crazy story of how you managed to get together? Or would you rather just forgive him and move on, and just be friends?” She sipped more wine and said with a raised brow, “Because honestly, a guy like that is a lot of work. He’s probably always going to make emotional mistakes, not because he’s a villain, but because somewhere in his upbringing, this past boyfriends or whatever, he’s just not had a chance to develop into a guy who is good at communicating his feelings, being very sensitive to others, understanding relationships well...
“I think the payoff can be there, we’ve seen it...Puck and Quinn, Rachel and Jesse, Santana and Britt...but you have to decide if that’s something that seems like something you think is great to do with someone, or if it seems possibly daunting.”
Tina listened with fascination at Blaine’s Mystery Man update. “That’s really nice that he made an effort to exchange gifts, that he wanted to do something for you since this Christmas is odd not do with Kurt and the store and everything. See, there’s someone who is thoughtful,” she said, implying Sebastian was not. She smiled at the whimsical idea. “That’s amazing to think you’ve probably, definitely passed him on the street. The Upper Westside is so small... now THAT’s a beautiful story of how you managed to get together...”
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