Soulless

I am broken. Should I give up?

[jucyy]

me siento en modo automático

[broken21]

I’m sorry for failing you, mom.

[broken21]

Sometimes it isn’t just shame, sometimes it is too late.

[broken21]

Que se vaya que se vaya que se vaya que se vaya que se vaya que se vaya que se vaya que se vaya que se aleje aléjate aléjate aléjate no te quiero cerca solo vete vete vete vete vete vete vete vete vete vete vete vete vete vete vete vete vete

[st-a-y]

Feeling like you're too much is honestly one of the worst feelings to possibly exist. It just feels like you need to stop being yourself and existing all together. It's like you crawl out of your own skin and laugh in disgust at what remains, it's pathetic. And so saddening.

[lost--in-the-world]

Todo el mundo avanza y yo sigo acá, sentada, viendo como todo se mueve, como todo y todos procesan mientras yo soy un caso perdido, algo que dejo de tener ganas de vivir hace mucho, que le sobran las ganas de irse de este mundo, pero acá esta... Fingiendo que hay algo vivo dentro mio cuando ya todo se apago.

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

Another day wasted. Couldn't find reasons to do anything.

Everything feels so pointless...

[broken21]

I had reasons. Still couldn’t do anything.

I feel so useless…

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

I think there's no hope for me. And maybe there never was.

[broken21]

Tried to get better > fail

Got treatment > kinda worked > went insane > fail

Tried to feel better > fail

Fake it til you make it > kinda worked > got exhausted > fail

Get distracted to avoid thinking > worked > got worse > fail

…

I’m running out of ideas

[worthless-misery]

I would say today has been a bad day.

But that's been every day for quite a while now.

[broken21]

¿Por qué soy tan dependiente de las personas?

[broken21]

A veces me gustaría poder decirle a alguien “sigo aquí porque las cosas mejoran con el tiempo”, pero no es cierto. Sigo aquí por cobarde y las cosas no mejoran como todo el mundo dice, al menos no para todos. Las cosas cambian y te tienes que adaptar.

Ha pasado más de una década y no siento que haya mejorado realmente. He cambiado, no me soporto a mí misma y sigo con ganas de morirme.

No es que todo esté igual pero se siente igual.

[azul-boy]

Al final del día, solo soy yo tratando de distraerme para estar bien.

[broken21]

Tired of the same thing over and over again.

And every time it is my fault, it always is.

[broken21]

Hopeless, helpless, missing who I used to be

[becherdireinen]

sorry i never responded to your text, i've been busy being paralyzed by my own inability to do basic tasks that are piling up.

[messymotherfcker]

I’m getting so tired of fighting myself all the time

[broken21]

“Shut up” vs “no, wait, don’t leave me alone”

And it’s just me and the voices.