bambana

Im here coz Im struggling.. I don’t encourage anyone to do bad stuff to themselves and I’m not pro anything…

[broxeli4]

About myself:

~ 19 years old girl

~ I like sex, drugs and rock n roll

~ I have a self-destructive personality

~ 1.60m/5’2feet

~ 49kg/108lbs

~ gw 45kg/101lbs

[vamp1rex1c]

self-care is not counting alcohol calories

[broxeli4]

Yessss!!!

[konoko]

[broxeli4]

Every time I relapse it feels like a break up with food.

[vampbmi-deactivated20230206]

ed tumblr culture in one pic

[walmart-satan]

shamelessly stole this from edanonymemes

[quween-bones86]

I’m praying it will be this time

[broxeli4]

April has not been my month.. Currently waiting for may

[in-the-future-skinni-deactivate]

thought this was very much giving edtblr

[traumaticchild]

bitches be like “let me be as self destructive as possible so someone will notice im suffering but as soon as they point it out i insist im fine” im bitches

[crispytwedstuffanorekictoad]

[shriekingseas]

It is no longer an ed. It is a hunger strike.

[broxeli4]

My fear food is anything containing sugar!!

[broxeli4]

[broxeli4]

My little brother told me I look sick and that he’s worried about me. That’s my biggest guilt. If not for anyone I should get better for him!!!

How do I stop destroying myself?

[undergroundrockpress-deactivate]

Jennifer O'Neil by Hamilton McQueen, 1970.

[broxeli4]

I was on the airplane today and ordered some chicken noodles. I thought they would be no more than 100kcals but they were actually 298… I kept trying to eat them in the end I ate like 4 spoons or something. I feel so bad for throwing away food and I would really want to get better, but I know with the calories from alcohol I get I really can’t afford to eat more!

[broxeli4]

I would be so underweight now if it wasn’t for the huge amounts of alcohol I consume!! I’m so strict with what I eat but I have no control over what I drink!!

And it’s fine…

[broxeli4]

I feel guilt when I eat and I feel guilt when I don’t because of all the voluntary damage I do to my body…

This is a lose lose situation dammit!