bartender

i  don't  need  saving.

[papa-evershed]

[brtnds]

fasciinating​:

@brtnds​ sent a transmission:  “ people say crazy things. ”

                    IT IS A MATTER OF perspective, these things that are spoken with deliberateness to incur wrath or confusion, red herrings, or words that are meant to mislead or distract. In many ways, Spock could agree—and perhaps, a part of him does—this world, theirs, brimming with life and all manner so humanity, is loud and ubiquitous and often lacking of in logic. He struggles to understand it; one-half of himself, rooted in these places where humans go to drink and talk and otherwise converse unnecessarily, yearning for something—companionship or acceptance, a sense of belonging that surely, Spock knows, and deeply behind so many walls—he is uncertain, he cannot be certain. And yet, he tries.               Ceaselessly. Like the sands of the Forge, desperate and disturbed by the onset of grazhiv-sahriv, driven violently by the wind. “Do you hear them often?” these tales, ludicrousness, spilling off tongues without restriction, let loose from drink and a smiling face, Spock does not say. He looks at her, brows cinched and curious, “Tell me about them.”

𝚃𝙷𝙴  𝚂𝚃𝚁𝙰𝙸𝙽𝙴𝙳  𝚂𝙼𝙸𝙻𝙴  𝙿𝙰𝙸𝚁𝙴𝙳  𝚆𝙸𝚃𝙷  𝙳𝙾𝚆𝙽𝙲𝙰𝚂𝚃  𝙴𝚈𝙴𝚂  𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙳𝙻𝚈  belied  her  discomfort  at  the  perceived  inquiry.     How  many  times  had  patrons,  in  a  fit  of  boredom,  asked  exactly  the  same?    His  apparent  earnestness  earned  a  matching  shake  of  her  head,  hair  falling  across  her  face  like  a  veil.

"  You  don’t  want  to  know  what  they  say.  "          It’s  merely  a  distraction  from  their  loneliness  or  some  bit  of  entertainment  from  someone  who  must  obviously  have  a  stock  of  embarrassing  tales.     How  many  drunks  had  she  thrown  out  that  night?     What  did  people  get  up  to  in  the  restrooms?      How  anyone  desired  to  pry  into  the  minds  of  those  unfortunate  enough  to  drink  more  than  they  could  hold  disappointed  her.

Tugging  at  the  brightly  colored  handle  of  the  draft  dispenser,  she  fastened  her  gaze  to  the  slowly  filling  glass  to  avoid  his  own.           "  I  meant  people  in  general.  "          Head  gradually  lifting  above  the  golden  liquid,  the  beer  seemed  a  plausible  distraction.      Even  if  she  cared  to  tell  tales,  the  number  of  regulars  who  could  feature  strolling  about  the  bar  behind  the  stranger  would  squash  any  desire  to  gossip.          "  People  don’t  think  and  they  talk  and  jump  to  crazy  conclusions,  drunk  or  not,  here  or  not.     It’s  as  much  a  part  of  being  human,  I  suppose,  as  breathing.  "

[brtnds]

hello, i am once again asking for your plots.

[brtnds]

                                             PROTECTED  BY  KITTY

[brtnds]

hello, i am once again asking for your plots.

[brtnds]

hello, i am once again asking for your plots.

[spctlessminds]

[brockethxll]

spctlessminds‌:

based on this suggestions blog.  warning:  these are pretty dark/angry  &  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding!!

‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  &  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me?  ’ ‘  all i want is to be soft  &  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  &  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’ ‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’ ‘  burning it all to the ground  &  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’ ‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own?  ’ ‘  do you trust me enough?  do you trust me at all?  ’ ‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’ ‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’ ‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’ ‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’ ‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  &  i touch  &  i touch  &  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop?  ’ ‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  &  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  &  my eyes are still stretched wide  &  terrified.  ’ ‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for?  ’ ‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’ ‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’ ‘  i am aching to hold you  &  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’ ‘  i am divine  &  you will bow before me.  ’ ‘  i am fucking divine.  ’ ‘  i am in control  &  i listen to no one.  ’ ‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’ ‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’ ‘  i am not worth saving  &  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’ ‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’ ‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’ ‘  i bow to no man.  ’ ‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  &  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’ ‘  i can give you your wings back  &  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’ ‘  i cannot be saved.  ’ ‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’ ‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’ ‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’ ‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’ ‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’ ‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’ ‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’ ‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’ ‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’ ‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’ ‘  i have fallen  &  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’ ‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’ ‘  i have no home anymore.  ’ ‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  &  then i remember nothing.  ’ ‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’ ‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’ ‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’ ‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’ ‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’ ‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  &  maybe someday it will be true.  ’ ‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’ ‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’ ‘  is it my fault?  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’ ‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right?  ’ ‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  &  suffocating on sadness.  ’ ‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’ ‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’ ‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’ ‘  i’m so cold  &  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’ ‘  i’m so tired all the time  &  i just want to be awake again.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’ ‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’ ‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’ ‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’ ‘  loneliness is a disease  &  it leaves me empty  &  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  &  bounces back.  ’ ‘  made of starlight  &  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’ ‘  my anger is righteous  &  my actions are pure.  ’ ‘  my chest aches  &  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  all i need is some comfort  &  understanding.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’ ‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  &  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’ ‘  pull me apart  &  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’ ‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  &  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’ ‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’ ‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’ ‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  &  plead for help?  fuck off.  ’ ‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’ ‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  &  you better remember that.  ’ ‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’ ‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’ ‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’ ‘  voices whisper from the shadows  &  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’ ‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved?  ’ ‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it?  ’ ‘  who the fuck do you think you are?  ’ ‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying?  ’ ‘  with a new year comes new tests  &  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’ ‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once?  ’ ‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  &  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’ ‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’ ‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’ ‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’ ‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’ ‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’ ‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’ ‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’ ‘  you touch me  &  my skin burns  &  it burns for you,  always you.  ’

[brtnds]

*throws self into here*  I AM HERE

[murakawatoru]

[brtnds]

resistanceheir​:

oh, she picked the wrong man to play this game with. poe is an endless fountain of optimism, not naivety, just raw belief in the power of humanity to win out in the end. which maybe, yes, can include learning to fly. “maybe not yet, but give us a few more thousand years and who knows what’s gonna happen.” he doesn’t think it’ll happen to him (as much as maybe he dreams about it sometimes, the wind under him, the stars around him, yeah, he could do that) but he does think there’s a chance. “never know what’s gonna happen in the future.”

          A   HUFF   OF   A   LAUGH ,   half  between  that  and  a  scoff,  escapes,  a  wry  smile  playing  on  her  mouth.     if  she’s  rather  aware  of  anything,  it  would  be  that  no  one  can  guess  what  the  future  might  bring.          “  perhaps  i  should  have  added  ‘outside  of  our  lifetimes’  to  my  list  of  unacceptable  examples.  “           his  determination  in  proving  his  point  amuses  her,  hair  half  veiling  her  features  as  her  head  ducks  into  another  chuckle.           “  but  regardless,  you  pretty  much  admitted  certain  things  are  impossible  in  our  lifetimes,  so  peace  might  be  one  of  them.  “

[brtnds]

𝙼𝙸𝚂𝙲𝙴𝙻𝙻𝙰𝙽𝙴𝙾𝚄𝚂 𝙼𝚄𝙽 𝙵𝙰𝙲𝚃𝚂.

relationship status:  single favourite colour: blue lipstick or chapstick: lipstick (i only own two shades of red and just apply it differently for pinks and blush XD) last song i listened to:  the good, the bad, and the ugly - pan.ic at the disco last movie i watched:  cinderella? i don’t remember top three tv shows: the man in the h.igh castle (all time fav tbh), mercy street, the clo.ne wars top three ships: imperialjedi (did i just make up a jag/jaina name on the spot? yes), joeliana, han/leia books i’m currently reading:  okay so i’m not reading any books atm? but i’m elbow deep in research in primary sources about the us arm.y nurse corps during wwii as well as bandaging and splinting?

TAGGED BY :  @manyhorns  <3 TAGGING : @punishsr @kyberborne @resistanceheir @elyslian !!!

[brtnds]

@punishsr​ asked:          ‘ yes, i’m speaking to you. ‘

          A   WRY   SMILE ,    almost  nonexistent,  crosses  her  lips,  a  hint  of  soft  humor.     her  tone  echoes  the  flash  of  expression,  suddenly  almost  hidden  by  a  duck  of  her  head,  her  veil  of  dark  hair  falling  across  her  features.           “  i  couldn’t  tell...    it’s  not  like  i’m  the  only  bartender.  “           she  is.

[darlingshane]

Alexa Davalos as Beth Quinn in ‘The Punisher’ (2x01)

[brtnds]

@punishsr​ asked:          ‘ you almost shot me ! ‘

           SHOT   STILL   ECHOING   IN   THE   NIGHT   AIR ,   beth’s  eyes  fill  with  horror  as  the  once  shadow  proves  to  be  a  familiar  face.      ( shit, shit, shit, shit )      her  stomach  revolts,  turning  over  in  a  sickening  mix  of  terror  and  guilt.    she  did  almost  shoot  him.     drawing  in  a  shuddering  breath,  she  shakily  ran  a  hand  through  her  hair,  staring  at  the  ghost  who’d  suddenly  apparated  before  her.

          “  frank...  “         regret  colors  her  voice  as,  unable  to  keep  his  eye,  she  drops  her  gaze,  searching  for  the  pistol  he’d  sent  flying.     what  had  she  done,  WHAT  HAD  SHE  DONE?          “  i’m  sorry.     i’m  so  sorry!  “            only  a  second  is  required  to  spot  the  small  weapon,  another  to  wrap  her  finger  about,  and  a  third  to  slip  it  back  into  the  holster  underneath  her  jacket.      had  she  made  a  mistake?     not  really,  not  truly.     If  anything,  if  he’d  been  anyone  but  who  he  was,  then  neither  of  them  would  have  had  any  issues.      then,  she’s  eye  to  eye  him  once  more,  her  brows  knitted  together  as  a  thousand  more  apologies  almost  spilled  from  her  lips.     even  if  she  hadn’t  made  a  true  mistake,  that  didn’t  mean  he  deserved  them  any  less.     but  none  of  it  compared  to  his  presence  there.            “  you’re  here...  “

[forcewith]

ROGUE ONE: A STAR WARS STORY SENTENCE MEME

possible spoilers.

‘ whatever i do, i do it to protect you. ‘

‘ you’re confusing peace with terror. ‘

‘ have to start somewhere. ‘

‘ you will never win. ‘

‘ come. we have a long ride ahead of us. ‘

‘ is that ___ ? he/she/they look a little different than i imagined.’

‘ what part of ‘urgent message’ do you guys not understand ? ‘

‘ you want to get out of here ? ‘

‘ congratulations. you are being rescued. ‘

‘ i like to think he/she’s/they’re dead. it makes things easier. ‘

‘ i’ve never had the luxury of political opinions. ‘

‘ what we need is someone who can get us through the door without being killed. ‘

‘ that is a bad idea. i think so, and so does ___. ‘

‘ you find him/her/them, you kill him/her/them. then and there. ‘

‘ why does he/she/they get a ___ and i don’t ? ‘

‘ i find that answer vague and unconvincing. ‘

‘ trust goes both ways. ‘

‘ i will not fail. ‘

‘ yes, i’m speaking to you. ‘

‘ for that answer, you must pay. ‘

‘ we’re not here to make friends. ‘

‘ tell me you have a back-up plan. ‘

‘ there are a lot of explosions for two people blending in. ‘

‘ quiet ! ‘

‘ and there’s a fresh one if you mouth off again. ‘

‘ let them pass in peace. ‘

‘ is your foot alright ? ‘

‘ you almost shot me ! ‘

‘ there is more than one sort of prison, ___. i sense you carry yours wherever you go. ‘

‘ not a day goes by where i don’t think of you. ‘

‘ did they send you – ? did you come here to kill me ? ‘

‘ all it’s ever brought me is pain. ‘

‘ i will run no longer, but you must save yourself. ‘

‘ it’s beautiful. ‘

‘ i’m not very optimistic about our odds. ‘

‘ i believe i owe you an apology, ___. your work exceeds all expectations. ‘

‘ we stand here amidst my achievement, not yours ! ‘

‘ does he/she/they look like a killer ? ‘

‘i don’t need luck, i have you. ‘

‘ i have so much to tell you. ‘

‘ you lied to me. ‘

‘ you’re in shock. ‘

‘ you’re in shock, and looking for someplace to put it. i’ve seen it before.’

‘ i had every chance to pull the trigger. but did i ? ‘

‘ i had orders. orders that i disobeyed. but you wouldn’t understand that. ‘

‘ we don’t all have the luxury of deciding when we want to care about something. ‘

‘ you’re not the only one who lost everything. some of us just decided to do something about it. ‘

‘ be careful not to choke on your aspirations, ___. ‘

‘ what chance do we have ? the question is, what choice ? ‘

‘ the time to fight is now. ‘

‘ every time i walked away from something i wanted to forget, i told myself it was for a cause i believed in. ‘

‘ i couldn’t face myself if i gave up now. ‘

‘ ___, i’ll be there for you. ‘

‘ ___ said i had to. ‘

‘ not used to people sticking around when things go bad. ‘

‘ welcome home. ‘

‘ one fighter with a sharp stick and nothing left to lose can take the day. ‘

‘ make ten men feel like a hundred. ‘

‘ good luck, little sister/brother. ‘

‘ i’ve got a bad feeling about this – ‘

‘ light it up. ‘

‘ why does nobody ever tell me anything, ___ ? ‘

‘ here. you wanted one, right ? ‘

‘ your behavior, ___, is continually unexpected. ‘

‘ ___ ! come back ! please ! ‘

‘ ___, don’t go. don’t go. i’m here. i’m here. ‘

‘ it’s okay. it’s okay. ‘

‘ this is for you, ___. ‘

‘ do you think anybody’s listening ? ‘

‘ you may fire when ready. ‘

‘ ___ would have been proud of you. ‘

[books-n-quotes]

Night air, good conversation, and a sky full of stars can heal almost any wound.

Beau Taplin, Remedy (via books-n-quotes)

[brtnds]

it’s not like it would be HARD to come up with a star w.ars verse...

like mid-rim, sort of important planet, small town, she’s a local woman who once had a bit of a musician career when she was younger, but it never really went anywhere.  was even dangerous at points (probably the hutts got involved).  so when she found herself pregnant, she decided to drop her dreams and go home to where she knew her child could grow up safely.  so she teaches music lessons during the week and bartends on the weekend nights to make ends meet, all while raising her little boy with the occasional help of her parents.

it fits in any of the eras. easy. done. (jkjk there will be more.)