call it meat

it/its · 21 · owned

[bruised-meat]

i love my collar i missed my collar

[bruised-meat]

some of the current punishment ideas .. still need more harsh ones

[bruised-meat]

i thought having punishments be genuinely unpleasant would make me not want to be punished but i dont think that works .. i think i like suffering for them . it feels less like punishment and more like an act of service .. and it feels so relieving to be put in that headspace

idk what would actually work as a punishment . maybe just having things taken away, like having an early bedtime or screen time limits. maybe having my play money taken away, if they wanted to be really mean .. things that they wouldn't really get any entertainment out of, things that only affect me .

maybe physical punishments are more just tasks for me .. or maybe even rewards .. bc even when i dont want the punishment, i still want to be punished . ESPECIALLY if i dont want the punishment . they should let me design punishments for myself to use as rewards instead ..

[bruised-meat]

thinking about self bondage .

being so obedient that i chain myself up while you watch, making sure i can't escape without your help (not that i would)

being so eager to please that i make the positions more humiliating, more entertaining, always desperate for your approval

being so pathetic that i constantly try to think of new ways to make it more and more uncomfortable. torturing myself because it just feels so right to be suffering for you, to be crying for you, to be reminded of how beneath you i really am

[chainedboy82-deactivated2016050]

[degenerate-silhouette]

a perfect date 🖤

[bruised-meat]

i would be such a good captive . you wouldn't even have to watch me i'll just tell you every bad thing i do , tell you every time i deserve to be punished

i'll even prepare my punishment for you, laying out paddles and crops, or chaining myself up in new, uncomfortable positions. that way you only have to decide how many bruises to leave, or how long i should stay locked up in the dark .

i'll be so grateful for every rule you give me, every privilege you take away. i'll admire my bruises in the mirror, just so happy to not have to pretend to be human anymore

[bruised-meat]

i think all my problems would be solved by being chained up in a basement forever

[loveandforce]

[bruised-meat]

is it normal to crave having my freedom and autonomy taken away?

is it normal to wish i was controlled by strict rules, to fantasize about being punished for any minor misstep?

is it normal to want to be a prisoner so badly that i would put the chains on for you, if thats what it took?

[vpsldnyrz]

Daily affirmations for the abused dog;

I will always be perceived as prey.

I exist to be abused.

I will never be my own person.

I will forever be a lesser being.

I am only what my owner tells me I am.

I will always be obedient, whether I truly want to be or not.

If I am not abused, I am not fulfilling my purpose.

My existence will be changed to suit my owner's vision.

Part 2

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[sirmindflayer2]