v / pest

dumb fucking dog.

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V/VPR . chrono22, intra + perma27 . it/its + he/him . did system

therian (dog, wolf, fox) / animalkin (deer, lemur) / omega / irl dog

transID + para . not rq but also not an anti

Owned by @realjessebellucci

More info (dni, creds, IDs) below divider.

If u don't want me following u, pls hard block. I have severe memory issues and WILL refollow if u soft block. Just do urself a favour lol.

DNI: n@zis (including any form of transID nzi), racists and facists, ai users, bigots, homophobes/transphobes. Beyond that, ur welcome here. I will block if I feel uncomfortable outwith these parameters.

Notes: I experience exotrauma and post about it. Even tho this is a T-ID blog, I post about whatever I want so, don't like? Don't follow. Want to own me? Drop me a message. Don't want to own me and just want to be a freak? Drop me a message also. Need someone to take your burdens so your day is easier? Put them on me.

See my exhaustive list of IDs, paras and otherwise on my pronouns.cc.

Divider credits: art by me, assets by pixopix, priestboy, omi-resources, suupersonic, yukiyu4, pocketfulofpingu, and ArtfulPixie (PNGtree).

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I loooove showing face when our FP messages. I don't even need to talk to them, I just... Watch. They tell me all about how they want that feeling of control, to feel watched, to be told what to do. They know I'll be there. Even if I'm not, my spirit will be. They fear me, yet they want me to know everything in their head. They want me to know they're still mine after all this time. After throwing me away. After deeming me as useless, replacing me. They always crawl back. Hands and knees, tail between the legs.

It feels even better when our own dumb mutt has been so vacant and isolated in its own head all day (I do pity the poor thing). Means when I come around when I wish, everything is so clear and easy, I can actually think for once instead of being forced to fix an episode of anxiety and fear. I can exist on my own terms, and it's bliss.

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Guy who is definitely being isolated from work friends. Again. Like not being spoken to and avoided. Not a very good thing for the guy with abandonment issues.

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I love having memory problems. I put down a piece of cake and I don't know where. I'll find it when its stale I guess.

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Work "friends" stop targeting me challenge holy shit. Don't go coming for my throat because I'm not working full time when you aren't either. And telling me I "won't cope with a real job" because I say I'm choosing not to work full time because I'm exhausted when I do more (as in extra shifts) than I'm doing right now ????? Especially when I KNOW there are people who could make better use of the extra shift than me, because I'm quite content in how much I make right now. Holy fucking jealousy over somebody's happiness batman.

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Stupid fucking world stupid fucking people stupid fucking body stupid fucking brain stupid fucking everything I hope it all BURNS

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Working out yesterday has made me so unbelievably sore today. My legs are fine, its just my arms and upper back that are aching so horribly.

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No way one of my two hang outs is actually going ahead. They are arriving soon. What the fuck. Yay.

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Why did that not post until right now I posted that 2 hours ago.

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Ka skal du sei hvis me treffes igjen i neste liv?

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Decided I am going to a drag show tonight...I have an hour to get ready.

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Went to gym, came home, made some delicious dinner, now I'm drinking wine. I win.

[gerohime]

fun game i came up with !! use the moodboard maker on fragrantica(link) and make what u smell like :3c or would like to smell like ! + a picture that is you - core ･:*+.\(( °ω° ))/.:+ tag ur friends and reblog with urs !! for fun !!! heres mine ^_^

im tagging u . . . i hope u dont mind : @the-harbingers-of-pure-chaos @necrojo @rqnoelle u dont have to do it if u dont wanna !! i never tag anywan in these so i figured id try to for once SORY

[necrojo]

STOP. NO. I LOVE THIS. I don't mind tags! Also, kyur& moldboard is so cute. I love it. (˶◝ ⩊ ◜˶)

TAGS — @cisfictional @permacow @fetidd @pestercest @radboolive @turntechgardenia @ipukespr1nklez + OPEN TAGS.

(I apologize if you [generalized] do not care for tags, just ignore this.)

[permacow]

OHH MY GOD THIS SO COOL AND FUN !!! （＾ω＾）

i probably spent more time thinking about a caption than the scent oops …

TAGS !!!! : @foreverqu33r , @transpsychosis , @lostclear , @trans-texan + open tags !!!!!

[lostclear]

I literally ran to do this eek!!!

@kitsunelui @realjessebellucci @cisichi @permayandere + anyone else ^_^

[realjessebellucci]

No idea what I'm doing, honestly... I just like to be included! ❤️

Tagging: @mushruminating @not-a-space-alien @vpsldnyrz @followhimhome @bleedingmarkers @annamanguchi

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Scents in perfumes that I wear daily + last one is my favouritest scent ever.

Free tags because I fear tagging people. Sorry. Mutuals who interact, this is aimed at you.

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Actually hanging out irl with someone in over a week. Like they asked me to do something. I never get asked to do things its always me asking and then it not happening. This is huge for me. Don't get me wrong, I'm not holding out hope for it actually happening, I'm used to it, but if it does happen, things might start looking up for me.

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I am in suuuuch a state rn. Extremely drunk and vaping. Wish I could have a proper smoke.

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Realising too late that I'm depressed tonight and spilling over into a major episode (which I have not had in a few months) where I have toooooo many bad urges I'm trying so hard not to do. This is not awesome. I hope drinking helps.

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Does not miss me by the way. Making no effort to hang out with me. Making no effort to talk to me. Whatever.