alexis

hotter than hell 24 | she/her | virgo ☼ virgo ☽ cancer ↑ | no minors!

[bubblybrian]

omg fuck right off lmfao

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me getting confused as fuck every time my ex would refer to advil or tylenol as painkillers. to me, painkillers are oxy and norco, but i grew up entirely different

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was that loser only texting me because she was nervous about a trip or something 🤣 omggg it’s time to start getting some real friends dove 😭 isn’t it embarrassing to continue being such a blood sucking leech for this long?? i bet you do that shit in private too, god forbid someone judges you for who you truly are 😭 koreaboo ass bitch, go help your be(a)stie pick out another name 💔💔💔

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holy fuck, i don’t know if i like scratching or being scratched more

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i may have the most fucked up head ever omg. i’ve lost 10lbs in 3 days bc i keep forgetting to eat and instead of being like “shit, i’m hungry” im like “hmmm maybe 5 more”

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going through a bit of a break up rn and the conversation that took place in my family room last night made me giggle.

“do you still talk to the one from **********?”

“no”

“she won’t if she’s smart. no, i want you to find someone good, a partner for life”

“i know, i will”

“i didn’t like the things i saw, the jealousy and the drama, it was uncomfortable to watch”

the way everyone’s opinions shifted after seeing me in a different relationship omfg?? i will admit, this breakup is so much more amicable, but i didn’t realize that they picked up on it too. since then, i’ve just been thinking about how crazy shit for between us. i’m grateful to be done. i’ll always be a friend to anyone who needs one, but it’s time for the stockholm syndrome to go away. i’m done reaching out, im done sharing my family, im done defending the lies, im done with her.

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one thing about me is i do in fact love kissing. i’ll take an hour of kissing and heavy petting over a quick fuck anyyy day. let me touch you, let me grab and take. ugh it’s so hot

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being suicidal especially sucks when you think about your nieces and nephews

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okay maybe i was able to do a couple of things about it

[bubblybrian]

it’s the simple things in life.

for instance, she ate a mini reese’s cup a couple minutes ago. looks at me Serious and says “can you tell i just ate a reese’s?”

“don’t know, lemme see” i kiss her. she kisses harder. she does in fact taste just like a peanut butter cup.

now i’m not stupid, like obv i knew what she was getting at when asking but like,,., i didn’t mind leaning into it too lmaoo. like i could already smell it on her when she sat down, of course she’d taste the same. i can’t even finish anything bc i have to work today. what the fuck, maybe she did win bc now i’m just horny and can’t do all that much about it

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i get why she calls me doe eyed

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i want a cig so bad

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had theee mosttt insane spicy dream last night

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*erases all evidence of ovulation*

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kinda nice to just be in my bed tho. i just need to invest in like a body pillow. i literally hate sleeping alone

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that’s why i don’t think the thoughts or ideation will ever go away. i’m not strong enough to kick it anymore. i feel like i can’t do this and i can’t see that ever going away

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money is such a stupid thing to worry about but it’s literally all i can think about. first gen high school grad, first gen college grad, and somehow i still feel like a loser. which is not to say that not having those things makes you a loser, trust me that couldn’t be further from the truth. it’s just that i accomplished some pretty cool things and i still just can’t stop feeling like nothing