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THIS IS A GENITAL DYSPHORIA PRODUCT FOR TRANS MEN! Give away time! I know many of you can’t afford products for your dysphoria so I am going to have some giveaways. Today is the Funboy! Pack and play. Watch the attached video. Here is how to enter the giveaway. 1. Follow me 2. Tag 1 friend in comments. 3. Must be 18 + to win and live in the USA. Good luck!! ❤️ Tranpa https://www.instagram.com/p/CCo8D6UDKCL/?igshid=177cp5b9x8nhx

Speaking my mind. I always will. I do this because I was always told to be quiet. Do not say anything. Just go with the flow. As a man who worked hard to become a man I now know the power of speaking up. Of having opinions. Of standing your ground. Getting the cover of a publication is such a mindfuck for me. This man who was so shy as a woman. This man who always dreamed to be. This man who was raised in a space that said “ you are a second class citizen” . The power I have gained by becoming myself even when people who are from your own community call you names. The power lies in realizing that no one has that power over you. No one. I am very proud of this interview in @outfrontcolorado as it really reflects on the divide we have all created in our community, including me. “I could be considered problematic, but what does that really mean? In the scope of things, I’m moving us forward. I don’t conform to ideas, and I never have,” I do what I do to not only encourage my community but to encourage all people to be authentic. And to me being authentic means standing by what is in your heart not what others want you to be. Being as visible as I have become is not easy at times but what I know is this. It will help us all be visible and help us all eventually come to peace with our differences. ❤️Tranpa (link to article below) https://www.instagram.com/p/B7pJu1NDiHJ/?igshid=75e186jimx62

I have lived 24 years as a man with a vagina. The whole world has seen me naked and having sex. I have never felt more male or more comfortable in my life. I never wanted to be this. It was not my dream to be born this way. It was not my desire to walk the world as a man with a vagina. On the contrary. I wish I would have been born male with a penis. That is a wish but not a reality. What do you do when there are few choices to live your life? Well I decided to try to kill myself. The pain was to much. There were no other men like me. I could not pick up my phone to look at you. I could not join a facebook group. Instead I hid from life. I destroyed myself. I cut. I drank. I hated. Today I do not. Even when my own community hates I still feel powerful with the body they say is not normal. You have the power to be. Whatever else you are telling yourself, you have the power to be. I am proud to be. That is not my ego but my self love. Learn the difference and join me in creating a better world. A world of possibilities. A world where a man with a vagina is normal! ❤️Tranpa Photo: @elischmidtphoto https://www.instagram.com/p/B7ZnmvYDAyG/?igshid=aynjhh3o3eyl

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Discipline. In life. I have learned a lot in this past year. But the one thing that has really helped me in my desire to help create a better world is discipline. Some people do not like my ways. Some people fear me. Some say things about me. Discipline has taught me to focus on the important things. I have learned that staying true to yourself is one of the most powerful ways to become. Even when you get kicked. Even when you feel hated. Even when you feel no one hears you. Discipline has taught me otherwise. They do hear me. They do see me. The ones I speak to. The ones that see my desire to be powerful. I have learned from you. I have cried with you and been angry with you. I have learned. Discipline is so powerful. My want for us at this new time is that we all become powerful. We all speak our truth. We all listen and learn. I care so much that it hurts my heart sometimes. The pain we tolerate. The hate we spread. My dream this year is to help you learn discipline. My dream this year is us! Happy New Year 2020❤️Tranpa https://www.instagram.com/p/B61V40yDdtv/?igshid=961dgczkhlxt

Drunk. Stoned. Disconnected. On Xmas when I was 16. Every chance I had to be drunk I took. I started drinking around 12 or 13. By 16 I was a full blown drinker. Hating every second of my existence. Trying to fit in as a girl. Trying to be a part of life. Trying. Failing. Wanting to die. Booze gave me confidence. The same confidence I have today. But today I am booze free. Because I can walk the world as me. Not having to hide myself from you. Not having to attend functions drunk because I could not walk the world with a clear head. I am here. This holiday season only because I am a man who does not use substances to hide me from you. I am posting this photo for all you kids who have to spend your holiday with family who might not support you. I know that feeling. I used to get drunk just to be there. I am posting this so you can be you without getting drunk or hiding. Be proud of yourself and take this time to teach your family about acceptance, even if they do not believe. Acceptance is the key. Confidence is everything. Have a beautiful holiday! The new year is coming.❤️Tranpa https://www.instagram.com/p/B6WyvvZDm7Z/?igshid=1kopkz8pz9scy

Celebration of life. That is how I feel as an older transsexual man. Celebrating life. The life I never thought I could have. To look at myself now as an older man. What a fucking gift! It took me many years to understand this second chance at life. A life and a light I tried many times to extinguish. The pain of living in a body that physically betrayed me every single day. The pain of wanting. The pain of not seeing the future as an old man. This idea that becoming old means you move over or retire or you are no longer needed is heartbreaking to see. I have always loved older humans. The knowledge they have to help us. The experience they have to guide us. They have seen things we will never see. Yet we make fun of being old. I think it comes from a fear. This fear that getting old means your life is over. My life has never been better. I feel more confident. I feel smarter. I feel stronger. All this comes from my insane life experience. All I want to do now is share that with the youth. Guide. Be there. The love I get from you youngsters is incrediable. You see the value in asking me questions that many do not have the answers to. I clearly do not have all the answers but what I have is experience in a time that is long gone. The wild west of transitioning. It is my duty as an elder to give you this information. It is my honor. I cannot believe I made it to fifty seven years old. I cannot believe the universe provides for me. But what I can believe is this. The power of living authentic. The power of standing on my own desires and my own way of doing things. When you stand like this people will fear you because you are not a part of the pack. They see you as a threat instead of an ally. This is why some just follow and get lost in the crowd. Please let me show you the power of standing by your own beliefs and never ever letting anyone knock you down. It is something that makes me feel very powerful. I care about you and I care about creating a future for you so you can grow into and old man just like me! ❤️Tranpa https://www.instagram.com/p/B5ZOgH5jDLt/?igshid=11wcn9u90ifkw

Equador. Trans kids. Trans men. I am so lucky to be able to travel the world. To be a mentor. A tranpa. An elder. Speaking to kids in less privileged spaces than others in countries where they have healthcare. When you live in your privilege you do not see the suffering. You only see your own. But if you stop for one moment and think this. Do you have access to hormones? Do you have access to a doctor. Do you have access to surgery? Do you have access to mental health? If you do then you are privileged. Period. These youngsters have very little if any access to this, yet they move forward. They figure out how to build community that actual has respect for individuality. They see the power in building community, not dividing because you do not like others opinions. That is a very entitled behavior. I am blessed to be alive and thriving. I know this on a day when we remember our own family members who have been killed just for living authentic. Today I hope that we can all join hands and put down the anger and resentments we have built up towards each other to see the bigger picture. The picture of a powerful worldwide community that creates successful people who only want to live in their truth. Today reach out to another member of our family who might need you. Build bridges. Build community. Then we can help our brothers in Equador who need us❤️Tranpa https://www.instagram.com/p/B5G1rGBAaOY/?igshid=13qpvowq88oeg

Masculinity. Acceptance. Man. Gender. These things are important to me. They have been forever in my dreams. Today I stand in the world as a man. Not transgender. Not transsexual. But a man. My history is transsexual. My history is female. But today I have become a man. I do not need permission from anyone to celebrate my gender. I do not do this for you. I do this for me to help you see the strength in becoming who you have dreamed to be, not what others want you to be. There is such a divide now about who is trans who is not. That transitioning as I did to become a man is now looked down upon. This entitled behavior to think you can punish someone for not following your idea of transition is something I would never in a million years think could be happening. Because I think there is a difference between a person such as myself who needs to medical transition to a gender. This newer generation of transgender where they encompass everything else but transition to gender. This does not mean I cancel out the later. I believe and fight for all of us. But what I will not do is be bullied into an agenda. I am a man. Period. I had a sex change. It saved my life. It helped paved the way for this newer generation to be gender non conforming and I love that. My transition is not antiquated! There are millions of kids just like me today. Know this. Respect gender. I am not and never have been anti non-binary. I have spoken only of the difference but have never tried to eliminate as some say. So here it is in my own words for you all to see. I celebrate all choices. If for some reason you have heard different than all you need to do is read this. No more to say! I travel the world as a human rights activist! Here today in Australia fighting for all of us! I love everyone. I fight for all of us and I am honored to be in this space as a man with a vagina. Please see me as your future it is why I am here❤️Tranpa https://www.instagram.com/p/B4oD2vvjim5/?igshid=1tfyaid19a361

What others see. This is what changed my life. What others see. We all care about what others see. But for me it was always about wanting to be seen as a man. Living most of my life as a female who felt like a male and trying to walk the world telling people “ I am a he not a she” was exhausting to say the least. No one told me “ you can actually take testosterone and it will change what others see” just those words would have saved me from so much self hate physically and mentally. This photo is my very first year on testosterone. Over 20 years ago. No one told me. The pain was unbearable. Until testosterone entered my body. It changed my self confidence. That in turn gave me the desire to live life. To not be afraid of you. To finally have you see me. The true me. Look at me today. If you are one of those people who are questioning medical transitioning because you think you know better. You know nothing. Millions of people like me can and will be saved by this. How do I know? Look at me. Thriving when I should be dead. So please have compassion for us. Please see me here after one year of testosterone. Please see me today. I am the future and will continue to fight for the future of humankind❤️Tranpa https://www.instagram.com/p/B4kvlfGj0pW/?igshid=ygx4h9rz3dbc

First time. Exposing my male chest on a public beach. Over 22 years ago. Feeling so free and proud. Never thinking this would be the turning point of my life. This is where I started to feel that my dream of becoming a man was happening. That everything I have ever wanted was here. Just removing my breasts might seem trivial to some. Might seem not a necessity to others. You must see that transsexual people need to physically feel in their gender. They must present to the world the way they feel. Gender is not dead. Gender is important to many of us. What is dead is not letting people express the many layers of gender presentation. The many layers of being trans now. I am from a space of gender. Others in my community are not. I appreciate that we have a fluid space now. What I do not appreciate is the erasure of my identity. This is my fight and always has been. Appreciate me please. Know that I fight for all rights. I fight for human rights not just trans rights. Know that when you have the gift to transition it is a gift you have been given. Respect that gift that many before you never received. I fought in a time when doctors called me a freak when I wanted top surgery. Today they give you love. This happened because your elders fought for you. Learn that and know that we have different paths now but those paths lead to one road. FREEDOM TO BE YOU. I care about you❤️Tranpa https://www.instagram.com/p/B4IT_yHjkFJ/?igshid=sb6yi573yj1c

NYC. 1989. Dyke. Man. Boy. Feeling so insecure and out of touch with life. My first time in a NYC gay dance club and I would never be the same. Dancing for days and never leaving the club. That was where I felt safe. Where I experienced just being in my body. Sexuality. The feeling of being. When I would leave the clubs the reality would hit and I was back in my self hate. I became a model. I hated life even more. I honestly have no idea how I made it to this day to write this to you. Here I sit again in NYC but now I am a man. A man that speaks to the world about having a vagina. A man that does not have fear to speak how I feel. A man who used to be a woman. Never ever would I have thought I would be saying these things to the world. What I do know is this. There are youngsters just like me in this photo. They feel exactly how I felt. No hope to become a man. I post this for you. Only you. It doesn’t matter what others think about your choice to become a man and not transgender. It doesn’t matter because I did that and I am proof that you can become what you want. Hear me kids. Stop following and start leading your own life like I did. I promise you that you will be the happiest you have ever been. I care about you❤️Tranpa https://www.instagram.com/p/B3_Fz2LDtPz/?igshid=1pbyrwzhzd2lp

Sex. Masturbation. Loving your body. Loving yourself through sex. I will tell you that connecting to my body sexually was how I got to this space of freedom with my body mind and soul. I have always fought for sexual freedom. But when I became a man I noticed my trans male community was very disconnected from sexual activity because of their genitals. Its a real big problem when transitioning. How to connect to your genitals when they are not what you want. I discovered jacking off. But what I did not discover was a sex toy for me and you. Today I am so fucking lucky to be producing the first line of trans male sexual wellness products. We are getting a lot of visibility because of this little toy called the Buck Off. We are actually being acknowledged for being sexual beings like everyone else! Do you know what a big deal this is. On some level it has put us as an equal to the world of sex. Not only products but us as hot sexy men. Now we are becoming wanted, admired and sought after as beautiful beings. We are a new breed of men. Showing the world that we love ourselves through sex is not only powerful but groundbreaking. This is how we change the world! ❤️Tranpa ( you can get all our products from link in bio😉) @nymag https://www.instagram.com/p/B3kYrqYjJJz/?igshid=woms17nty4s2

Cursed Female. This is how I felt. This is me right before I found a doctor in Los Angeles that would start injecting testosterone in me. This is me suffering. My friend @melodiemcdaniel was asked to make this video for the song Cursed Female from Porno for Pyros. She said the song just made her think of me. She and everyone else at this time, 1993, saw my suffering. No one knew that a woman could become a man. I did not. I thought forever I would suffer like this. This video became a big hit during the video days on MTV. They would talk about how I was really a girl and not a boy because many people saw me as a boy and could not believe that I was actually female. It was pretty profound during that time to do gender stuff like this. Eventually this video would get banned from MTV over the content. The sexually suggestive content! This was my life. I was a street hustler for a while. I was homeless. I was a transsexual man. Suffering. No help. But somehow I made it through. Way before what we have today. Watch this and see yourself and know that this is what it used to be like and you do not have to suffer alone. You have me and a huge tramily of people who love you and are here for you. If anything, I have been blessed with this life. To help you become your best self. I really feel so honored that you call me Tranpa. I really feel so happy to be alive. I really feel so happy that I am a man. I want you to feel the same. ❤️Tranpa ( IG says the music is copyrighted so I took it out. The video is on youtube) https://www.instagram.com/p/B3kRX6fj05f/?igshid=pch0g3wm306a

Cursed Female. This is how I felt. This is me right before I found a doctor in Los Angeles that would start injecting testosterone in me. This is me suffering. My friend @melodiemcdaniel was asked to make this video for the song Cursed Female from Porno for Pyros. She said the song just made her think of me. She and everyone else at this time, 1993, saw my suffering. No one knew that a woman could become a man. I did not. I thought forever I would suffer like this. This video became a big hit during the video days on MTV. They would talk about how I was really a girl and not a boy because many people saw me as a boy and could not believe that I was actually female. It was pretty profound during that time to do gender stuff like this. Eventually this video would get banned from MTV over the content. The sexually suggestive content! This was my life. I was a street hustler for a while. I was homeless. I was a transsexual man. Suffering. No help. But somehow I made it through. Way before what we have today. Watch this and see yourself and know that this is what it used to be like and you do not have to suffer alone. You have me and a huge tramily of people who love you and are here for you. If anything, I have been blessed with this life. To help you become your best self. I really feel so honored that you call me Tranpa. I really feel so happy to be alive. I really feel so happy that I am a man. I want you to feel the same. ❤️Tranpa https://www.instagram.com/p/B3kPYyNjFUk/?igshid=19mq1ugz7uo5v

I once was. A man in a woman’s body. A model. Angry. Disconnected. Drunk. Suicide was my favorite thought. It was the place that always made me feel safe because I knew it would stop the pain of being seen as a woman and not a man. Being told “ you are going to be a super model” and asking “ but where is the cocaine I dont care about being a super model” I cared about drowning out the noise in my head. The voice that said you will never be a man. You will never look like one and you will never be taken seriously as a man. All I thought about was suicide. There are so many blank spots in my memories that it seems unreal that I sit here today being called a Tranpa by the youth. Being looked up to as an elder in a community that is still full of many of the same thoughts I had 30 plus years ago. This is on some level what connects us as transsexuals. Our paths are the same. We just want gender freedom. That was all I wanted. Not to look like this “ pretty girl” but to look like this “ rough man” and fuck! I still cannot believe here I stand. Fully male. To the world I say this. I know you do not understand mine or others desire to create a space for us to live how we feel. It is not my place to tell you how to feel. But it is my space to tell you to have compassion for the things you might never understand, which only means that you want people to be happy. That is all that compassion is. So when you are quick to judge my sex change look inside of yourself and ask why it bothers you. Then you will see why it is so funny that you even care what others do to make themselves happy! Its that simple. Live your life on your terms and let others do the same and watch how we all learn to start living together and creating a world of possibilities not a world of destruction and anger. ❤️Tranpa https://www.instagram.com/p/B3Z9C56jAl1/?igshid=fkj8a94f351j

Celebrating. My body. Mine. I am the owner. The liberator of my own being. The empowerment I have received from this. I cannot seem to find words strong enough to do it justice. It is not just my naked body that I have given to the world. It is more. It is freedom. Enlightenment. Desire. Self worth. Self. Self. Self. Not ego. Self being a caring space. A loving space to tell myself that my body is masculine. That my vagina does not and never has defined me. The pushback. The hate. The desire to kill me is all powerful. My body is powerful. Your body is powerful. Once you understand this and learn to harness this power your life is forever changed. Create your body as a piece of art. Every artist has a vision. You are the artist of your own body. Do you understand that power? If not then you are being led by a false sense of self. Let go of what you think others want to see and look deep within your own needs and know that this is your truth. Live by your truth not the wants of others. Today I am free. Today you are free. Celebrate with me! ❤️ Tranpa Photo: @markdek_photography https://www.instagram.com/p/B3Ai0u6Dieo/?igshid=ar611zna4qt9

Becoming a man. That is all I have ever dreamed of. I remember when I was a young dyke living in Silverlake and going to @circusofbooks to look at all the hot magazines like Blue Boy, Honcho and the drawings by @tomoffinlandoriginalart and all I could think about was looking like them. Like a muscular leather man. The way they embodied their masculinity covered in sexuality made me both excited and angry. I never in a million years would think I could pass as a man let alone a leather man. I kept going back to @circusofbooks and looking at those magazines. I had one of my very first gay man experiences behind those magazines, on that rack, where no one could see. It was so fast and so hot. He did not know I was still female bodied. It was a quick jerk off. No talking. Just hot as hell for me. Because at that moment I was just another gay man enjoying a hot sexual moment. I will never forget how I was scared yet empowered. How I dreamed one day to be this man. Dressed in leather. Facial hair. Masculinity to celebrate. I am here. Masculinity means everything to me. Its important as a space that makes me feel whole. Just as femininity does for some. I am now walking the world as this man. Free of anxiety, depression and suicidal thoughts. Free to explore my sexuality as well as my masculinity. Thank you @circusofbooks @tomoffinlandfoundation for celebrating our culture and creating a place that we can be free! ❤️Tranpa Photo @circusofbooks https://www.instagram.com/p/B2z-2iGAm1J/?igshid=wk65h3oty4pg

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